Depression. It's a silent killer.

[Lovethatbigass]

We are here for you. She may have had a reason for stopping talking, or she was selfish, hard to know exactly. Hugs.

Thank you. I appreciate that. I couldn't provide her what she needed physically because of the disability. She shared so much of her life with me. She said it was just too hard for her. And it would be better if we broke up. Break up and remember the good times, than stay and receive more heartbreak. She chose the latter. When you talk to somebody everyday all day and all of a sudden they are gone, it's the worst feeling in the world. And she blocked me from everything. I'm guessing to get over me and move on. I know I have to do the same, but it's so hard.

 

[AnomalyLady]

Thank you. I appreciate that. I couldn't provide her what she needed physically because of the disability. She shared so much of her life with me. She said it was just too hard for her. And it would be better if we broke up. Break up and remember the good times, than stay and receive more heartbreak. She chose the latter. When you talk to somebody everyday all day and all of a sudden they are gone, it's the worst feeling in the world. And she blocked me from everything. I'm guessing to get over me and move on. I know I have to do the same, but it's so hard.

Relationships are more than just sex. That is why there are so many married folks here, they have a good relationship just sex is missing.

I think she made a big mistake but I am sorry that happened.

 

[Lovethatbigass]

Relationships are more than just sex. That is why there are so many married folks here, they have a good relationship just sex is missing.

I think she made a big mistake but I am sorry that happened.

Thanks. I wish I could be mad at her, but I can't. Today would be the first day that we haven't talked at all, and boy does it hurt. I have talked to different women here, but she took my heart. She was different.

 

[AnomalyLady]

Thanks. I wish I could be mad at her, but I can't. Today would be the first day that we haven't talked at all, and boy does it hurt. I have talked to different women here, but she took my heart. She was different.

I hear you. But please don't go into a bad place. It is not about you, really. I do not know your specific disability but I know that all abilities folks can have meaningful and fulfilling sexual / spiritual / emotional / heartfelt relationships and I don't think you are any different.

But everyone has free will and she chose hers. You can and will find another person who will love you for ALL that you are.

 

[Lovethatbigass]

I hear you. But please don't go into a bad place. It is not about you, really. I do not know your specific disability but I know that all abilities folks can have meaningful and fulfilling sexual / spiritual / emotional / heartfelt relationships and I don't think you are any different.

But everyone has free will and she chose hers. You can and will find another person who will love you for ALL that you are.

I'll try not to. It's hard right now, but hopefully it'll be easier.

 

[AnomalyLady]

I'll try not to. It's hard right now, but hopefully it'll be easier.

We are all here

 

[Wonderer67]

I'll try not to. It's hard right now, but hopefully it'll be easier.

Sorry to hear this sad news.

Breakups are a sting and they hurt. I’m sorry you’re going thru this right now. You got us.

Stay strong.

 

[Lovethatbigass]

It wouldn't be as bad if I wasn't dealing with the depression on top of it. I'm lucky that my pills are doing what they're doing, or else I would be a lot worse. I've made up my mind a long time ago that I want to die. I don't want to be in this world anymore. I'm not going to commit suicide. That would make my mom alone, and I would never do that to her. I'm just ready to leave this world. Between my physical disability, which has rendered me almost useless, and my mental disability, life hasn't been very fun lately.

 

[Bassytian]

It wouldn't be as bad if I wasn't dealing with the depression on top of it. I'm lucky that my pills are doing what they're doing, or else I would be a lot worse. I've made up my mind a long time ago that I want to die. I don't want to be in this world anymore. I'm not going to commit suicide. That would make my mom alone, and I would never do that to her. I'm just ready to leave this world. Between my physical disability, which has rendered me almost useless, and my mental disability, life hasn't been very fun lately.

I'm sorry you're going through this, the breakup, the disabilities, not wanting to live, everything.

Feel free to talk to any of us. Just a week ago today, I came dangerously close to ending my own life, but people here reached out en masse, and I am forever grateful for that!

The issues that caused me to want to do it aren't gone, but the support gave me the strength to keep fighting, and they/we can do it for you too!

 

[Lovethatbigass]

I'm sorry you're going through this, the breakup, the disabilities, not wanting to live, everything.

Feel free to talk to any of us. Just a week ago today, I came dangerously close to ending my own life, but people here reached out en masse, and I am forever grateful for that!

The issues that caused me to want to do it aren't gone, but the support gave me the strength to keep fighting, and they/we can do it for you too!

I'm so sorry that you went through so much that you wanted to end things. You know it's funny, just talking this little bit has helped me. I know the crying isn't over, but it does help. Thank you everybody for reaching out. I appreciate it.

 

[Wonderer67]

I am glad that just talking about it has helped a little bit. The healing process is tough and never easy, but I know you’ll get through it!

Here are some flowers for today. Maybe they will bring you a smile or at least a bit of a reprieve.

My favorite red Lillys are up. I love these so much.

https://imgur.com/a/TBWRdkx

Orange day lillys

https://imgur.com/a/F5BK9gx

Pale pink apricot colored lillys

https://imgur.com/a/nN0mvZB

Multicolor lilly

https://imgur.com/a/SZeOhmD

Stella doro yellow lilies

https://imgur.com/a/QSFwjHc

 

[Lovethatbigass]

Nice flowers. That was really nice to you. Thank you.

 

[boxman11]

The holiday was pleasant until someone couldn’t control themselves and became drunk and belligerent. Trying not to let that ruin my memory of a good day with my family.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

There is always one asshole in the bunch that can ruin everyone's fun. Then the next day they try and say sorry I got out of hand, but everyone tells them not to worry about it everything's good. What you should say to them you need help.

 

[Wetkitty09]

It sucks not being a priority.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Bassytian]

It sucks not being a priority.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

You're a priority here!

 

[kopinov]

I've been battling depression my whole adult life. I would have thought I might have discovered a way of dealing with it by now, but that's not happened - it seems to just get worse as time goes by, to the point that I now can't see much of anything ahead of me beyond immersing myself in reading and writing stories... not that I've written many so far. It's weird the forms lifelines can take.

 

[Wetkitty09]

You're a priority here!

Thanks Bass.
The weekend is over and my daughter is going home today. It’s been a good visit for the most part. I hate that I dwell on the bad parts yet I can’t seem to stop.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wonderer67]

I've been battling depression my whole adult life. I would have thought I might have discovered a way of dealing with it by now, but that's not happened - it seems to just get worse as time goes by, to the point that I now can't see much of anything ahead of me beyond immersing myself in reading and writing stories... not that I've written many so far. It's weird the forms lifelines can take.

Maybe leaning into the writing can help. It’s a nice creative outlet.

What helps me the most is leaning into things that bring me joy or hope.

Depression is a bitch and there’s no explaining how it impacts you, or when. Keep the faith and your chin up.

You got us.

 

[Bassytian]

I've been battling depression my whole adult life. I would have thought I might have discovered a way of dealing with it by now, but that's not happened - it seems to just get worse as time goes by, to the point that I now can't see much of anything ahead of me beyond immersing myself in reading and writing stories... not that I've written many so far. It's weird the forms lifelines can take.

Wonderer67 already said it, but writing can help. There's nothing like the joy that comes from creating something and sharing it with the world. No matter what you want to write about, there's an audience for it here!

 

[GD6720]

I would like to chat about a big problem that not too many people discuss. Sorry to be a downer. But there are too many people out there who are dying because they are depressed. I suffer from depression (not sure why) but I wouldn't think of killing myself. I've always been told that is a perminant solution to a temporary problem. I think it would do a good service to discuss what has worked for you to overcome your depression or what has helped someone you know.

I have a T shirt that reads :
Be kind to those that you meet ,
Because they are fighting
Personal battles,
You no nothing about.
Depression for me comes on more in the winter months, I try to overcome this by gym exercise and swimming. Exercise in any form helps me think more positively.

 

[Wonderer67]

Wonderer67 already said it, but writing can help. There's nothing like the joy that comes from creating something and sharing it with the world. No matter what you want to write about, there's an audience for it here!

Even if you don’t share it with someone, sometimes it’s just a little bit cathartic or even just downright helpful to write it down… to get those words out there or down on paper or on a computer/smartphone screen.

I have a T shirt that reads :
Be kind to those that you meet ,
Because they are fighting
Personal battles,
You no nothing about.
Depression for me comes on more in the winter months, I try to overcome this by gym exercise and swimming. Exercise in any form helps me think more positively.

I agree. Exercise and any type of activity is hugely important to my mental health.

 

[Bassytian]

When it stops being so damn hot, I’d like to get outside and start running for both my physical and mental health.

 

[AnomalyLady]

When it stops being so damn hot, I’d like to get outside and start running for both my physical and mental health.

I love running so much, too.

 

[Wonderer67]

When it stops being so damn hot, I’d like to get outside and start running for both my physical and mental health.

I can’t run anymore. My ankles and knees are cooked. It was my absolute favorite form of excercise. I miss it.

But I seriously walk and there’s not a day that I don’t get 10,000 steps in. I can do an eliptical and try as much as I can.

 

[Facelessxghost]

on my off time which I don’t have much, I am currently working on a mental health book that doubles as a cookbook to cope with depression and anxiety. That’s is the exact reason I put myself through culinary school to cope with my fucked up brain. If I can’t play music, I am in the kitchen creating just to get my mind off of everything.