Say What You Need to Say II

[AtramentousRex]

 

[kathyisgr65]

I'm more than a set of tits and it really sucks when the few ppl I share the real me with don't appreciate it..

 

[AtramentousRex]

 

[AtramentousRex]

I know that everyone here ignores me and thinks I am weird and fucking crazy and you avoid me like I'm a living plague. I mostly agree with you. But hey...I'm very good at musical therapy. Maybe if you ever need it, you can come here and check this playlist out. I've said it before. I am in fact, a self repairing mechanism. So are you.
Last 5, here we go!

Okay. Thats enough now.
If you are a woman I loved and I did you wrong, or I wasn't enough, or I was far far too much, please know that I will regret it till I die. But my love is never a lie and it is eternal. for whatever that might be worth. Goodnight.

 

[AtramentousRex]

Bonus, not about love, just about me

 

[dkak001]

I know that everyone here ignores me and thinks I am weird and fucking crazy and you avoid me like I'm a living plague...

Please reach out to someone who can help professionally.
It sounds like you are in need of something, and what that is might not be something any of us here can provide.
So, again, please reach out to someone trained to help.

 

[AtramentousRex]

Please reach out to someone who can help professionally.
It sounds like you are in need of something, and what that is might not be something any of us here can provide.
So, again, please reach out to someone trained to

I don't know. I am going to give you the benefit of the doubt that posting this came from a place of genuine concern. Please do not ever say this to anyone ever again, not in my thread to me, or to anyone else who appears to be struggling. Because it comes off as you being made uncomfortable with what I posted in my own thread,

You could have ignored it if that were the case. If not, you could have sent a PM. This seems to me to be intolerant gaslighting behavior. But then again...say what you need to say. Have the day you deserve.

 

[dkak001]

I don't know. I am going to give you the benefit of the doubt that posting this came from a place of genuine concern. Please do not ever say this to anyone ever again...

My comment was simple. I genuinely hope you reach out to someone who is trained to help.

I'm dealing with a metric fuckton of my own shit right now, so I have nothing to offer. Read into this what you will. Take away from it what you choose.

I truly hope that you get the help you need.

 

[AtramentousRex]

I think it might time to go again. I don't intend to burn bridges. I guess sometimes we destroy just by being who we are.

 

[cactusjack0584]

Hey @AtramentousRex I don’t want you to go. I think you are one of the very very few genuine people on here. I for one would be sad to see you go, but if that’s what you feel you need to do. Then do it. I wish you the best regardless of what path you choose. I wish I would have seen this thread earlier. I hope you are well, of as well as you can be.

 

[MaxDevlin]

Ugh...if we're being honest...I'm wondering why I'm on this site. I've been on quite a few sex sites with social elements, Pornhub, **********, Fetlife...I also played Lovecraft, which can be best be described as The Sims XXX. They're all the same: horny, entitled men who expect to be raised into ithyphallic godhood and women throwing up feminist statements as a defense against it, or as tacit admissions of trauma. And I believe more than half on both sides are lying when describing their sex lives. Yes I know I can delete the account and walk away. Don't insult my intelligence by telling me that. Most likely I will anyway.

 

[AtramentousRex]

Hey @AtramentousRex I don’t want you to go. I think you are one of the very very few genuine people on here. I for one would be sad to see you go, but if that’s what you feel you need to do. Then do it. I wish you the best regardless of what path you choose. I wish I would have seen this thread earlier. I hope you are well, of as well as you can be.

When I left before I deleted my account, so the original thread died with me. If I do go, it will not happen that way. This thread should never have been mine, but should always have belonged to the forums. For what its worth if any Mod or Admin knows how to do that, I would like to gift the thread in perpetuity to this website.
Keep it alive as long as its needed.

 

[AtramentousRex]

I have been trying something new lately, trying to be different than I have always been. I've been spending time in other places, and was advised to be light-hearted, fun and flirty. So I tried and it makes me look and feel totally stupid, desperate to the point of creepy and utterly fake. Its making me kinda miserable. Those who notice me in that other place will understand what I am talking about, if any of them read this.

I am who I am and am an acquired taste. Not for the faint of heart, but for the special. So lately I have been trying to be something I'm not and it absolutely has GOT TO STOP. I'm sorry if that means I'll be a downer, or if I talk about things others consider too personal. I don't give a fuck anymore, accept me or keep walking. The ignore button works.

Also, I'm going to stop begging for attention and just be doing my own thing. Feel free to join me. Or not. This thread is important to me, even if nobody else thinks it needs to exist here in this space.

Those who get it? This is your refuge and your confessional. The rest of them can go masturbate to fairy tales and day dreams. We know what is real and we crave that genuine side of things. Say it loud my people.

 

[Ssbbw4u1974]

What I came here to say is that...
I finally have that guy in my life that I can tell anything to, 24/7.
Sometimes we are in relationships with friends or "situationships" that we wish we can say what we need... But fully can't.
This guy, my , is 100% my rock.

So ladies, gentleman, and anyone else...
I hope you have your person too.
If not... May they come along

To him...
I say, THANK YOU..

 

[AtramentousRex]

I've loved a lot of people in my life. There have been friendships that faded and love that was unrequited. There has been one or two epic and tragic affairs. Everything ends. That's just life.

There is no way to know if any of it made a difference in the scheme of things, or if it meant as much to those other people as it did to me. Likely it was never the same, as we are all different in our perspectives.

But this I know to be true.
Magic is real.
Dragons once flew.
The gods walked among us.
Elves and Faeries and all manner of creatures lived beside us.
If you have ever felt a thing to be true despite all evidence, it was.
When a place seems like home, even though you've never been, it is.
Time is a circle and we have all found once another at least once.
Connections are more important than bodies
Real love is eternal.

 

[~Elizabeth~]

I've loved a lot of people in my life. There have been friendships that faded and love that was unrequited. There has been one or two epic and tragic affairs. Everything ends. That's just life.

There is no way to know if any of it made a difference in the scheme of things, or if it meant as much to those other people as it did to me. Likely it was never the same, as we are all different in our perspectives.

But this I know to be true.
Magic is real.
Dragons once flew.
The gods walked among us.
Elves and Faeries and all manner of creatures lived beside us.
If you have ever felt a thing to be true despite all evidence, it was.
When a place seems like home, even though you've never been, it is.
Time is a circle and we have all found once another at least once.
Connections are more important than bodies
Real love is eternal.

Beautifully said.

 

[AtramentousRex]

Once in a while you just need to slow down and take a day to feel the feels. Don't forget to take the time you need to say what you need to say...to You. *tips hat and fades*

 

[AtramentousRex]

A lot of this thread has become me talking about my own things, posting songs and rambling posts about my emotions, my relationships and my struggles. So much so, that it often seems as if it has become my online public Journal. I never wanted that to be for here, so I've been thinking about starting another thread where I can share and letting this one pass into memory and fade. I'd like to know if anyone has any opinions? I'll probably go ahead and start that other thread anyway just to get the ball rolling.

 

[MindYaBitness]

I started chest thread, and only ever post pics of my PJ'S. Sometimes things just evolve in a different direction. If it were me, it's continue to post here but change the thread name if it bothered me

 

[chame1eon]

You do post here a lot more than everyone else, but others including me have posted here before and use the thread.

 

[Cindy027]

Where you really NevinBlack (or some derivative of that ) ? I read somewhere that you were but I have a hard time believing that because I thought the Nevin person was completely different to you or maybe I made that up in my head.

 

[AtramentousRex]

Where you really NevinBlack (or some derivative of that ) ? I read somewhere that you were but I have a hard time believing that because I thought the Nevin person was completely different to you or maybe I made that up in my head.

I had Face AVs back then as well as now so...Either I am him, or I'm holding him hostage.

 

[Cindy027]

I had Face AVs back then as well as now so...Either I am him, or I'm holding him hostage.

Wasn't he the black carmen from southpark ?

 

[AtramentousRex]

Wasn't he the black carmen from southpark ?

I'm not sure what you mean, I was never into South Park.

 

[AtramentousRex]

I started chest thread, and only ever post pics of my PJ'S. Sometimes things just evolve in a different direction. If it were me, it's continue to post here but change the thread name if it bothered me

I ended up posting another thread but thanks for the reminder that I can do that, I had forgotten a lot of the options I haven't posted a thread in a few years.

You do post here a lot more than everyone else, but others including me have posted here before and use the thread.

I'm glad and I hope that people continue to use this thread to express themselves when they need to say something that is too deep or serious for the rest of Lit.