Lil_Jenni's Adventures, Past and Present...

[13Fantasies]

Sorry... No pics is both a smart policy and the only restriction Hubby puts on my time here. I put some other restrictions on myself, but that's his one and only. Well, that and meeting anyone from here. I guess keeping it out of real life is the actual condition. And I'm rambling in my attempt to correct what I I initially posted.

At the risk of being a tease, I look cute AF with my shorter cut and darker red hair. It's a bit darker than the pic above, and by far the darkest I've ever had my hair, either with temporary or permanent color, but I fucking love it. I did learn the eyebrow dye is actually a henna and will wash out. I probably need to get them touched up every couple of weeks to keep them a shade close to my new hair color.

So, I feel really good about my hair, but have really mixed feelings about some news I heard... no, not mixed... guilty feelings about my reaction to the news, maybe?

The asshole predator, who at least greatly contributed to me being as fucked up as I am, and who was a primary reason for my cousin's suicide, is dead. Killed himself a couple of months ago, evidently. He couldn't handle life out of prison, I hear. And no, he wasn't in prison because of me; one of his later victims was a lot braver than I ever was and didn't let the system keep her down. She's my fucking hero, even if she never knows it.

Anyway, my immediate reaction on hearing the news was elation. But then I felt bad about being gleeful about the death of another human being. Not too bad, mind you, but...

I read those first couple of paragraphs as a "13fantasies was right and that bitch should worship my sexy ass and new hair." Is that the interpretation everyone else got too?

And you feel as you feel. Knowing he hurt you is enough for me not to feel bad. He may have been a necessary pothole on the way to your current happy life, but nothing wrong with having that pothole filled and being happy about it.

 

[lil_jenni]

I had a kind of up and down week last week. I'm still loving my new hair color and cut, and Hubby really likes it too. But I've also been thinking a lot about the ahit form my past I mentioned last week. Maybe it's time for a bigger change than my hair.

My Hubby is making a big change -- he is going back to private practice at his old firm. He'll spend about half his time on regular cases and the other half running the firm's pro bono and community outreach programs. He's excited. And I'm excited for him, and for me too. It means I will have more social opportunities to be around my girl crush.

But it's also left me feeling... uncertain. I always intended to go back to teaching when I could, but he will be making enough more money that we will not need me to work, even just to have fun money. But I've always had some measure of independence, and I'm not sure I want to not work. I'm also not sure I want to go back to teaching. I mean, I do and I don't.

Anyway, just me rambling and thinking through typing...

 

[13Fantasies]

I had a kind of up and down week last week. I'm still loving my new hair color and cut, and Hubby really likes it too. But I've also been thinking a lot about the ahit form my past I mentioned last week. Maybe it's time for a bigger change than my hair.

My Hubby is making a big change -- he is going back to private practice at his old firm. He'll spend about half his time on regular cases and the other half running the firm's pro bono and community outreach programs. He's excited. And I'm excited for him, and for me too. It means I will have more social opportunities to be around my girl crush.

But it's also left me feeling... uncertain. I always intended to go back to teaching when I could, but he will be making enough more money that we will not need me to work, even just to have fun money. But I've always had some measure of independence, and I'm not sure I want to not work. I'm also not sure I want to go back to teaching. I mean, I do and I don't.

Anyway, just me rambling and thinking through typing...

Sweetie, sometimes major changes in your life, like twins, can make you reevaluate what you want. Nothing wrong with that.

After our third, I did. I loved what I did, but I also wanted something else, something more. But something that allowed more freedom to be at home. So I found it.

Everything isn't great, but the change worked wonders. Plus, I can always go back to that type of job one day if I want.

Maybe take a few years and enjoy the freedom of an open schedule. Maybe substitute occasionally. Nothing stopping you from going back in a few years.

Kudos to the husband. If he needs assistance in that pro Bono work, let me know. I could partner with him on things I bet.

And of course he likes your hair. I told you that you'd be freaking hot!

 

[ShaneoD]

I had a kind of up and down week last week. I'm still loving my new hair color and cut, and Hubby really likes it too. But I've also been thinking a lot about the ahit form my past I mentioned last week. Maybe it's time for a bigger change than my hair.

My Hubby is making a big change -- he is going back to private practice at his old firm. He'll spend about half his time on regular cases and the other half running the firm's pro bono and community outreach programs. He's excited. And I'm excited for him, and for me too. It means I will have more social opportunities to be around my girl crush.

But it's also left me feeling... uncertain. I always intended to go back to teaching when I could, but he will be making enough more money that we will not need me to work, even just to have fun money. But I've always had some measure of independence, and I'm not sure I want to not work. I'm also not sure I want to go back to teaching. I mean, I do and I don't.

Anyway, just me rambling and thinking through typing...

It's normal to question things, and evaluate where you are and where you want to be, you'll figure out what you want/need to do for you.

Am I keeping up that this is the hot Brazilian lady we're crushing on?

Everything will work out in the end just trust yourself.

 

[lil_jenni]

Sweetie, sometimes major changes in your life, like twins, can make you reevaluate what you want. Nothing wrong with that.

After our third, I did. I loved what I did, but I also wanted something else, something more. But something that allowed more freedom to be at home. So I found it.

Everything isn't great, but the change worked wonders. Plus, I can always go back to that type of job one day if I want.

Maybe take a few years and enjoy the freedom of an open schedule. Maybe substitute occasionally. Nothing stopping you from going back in a few years.

Kudos to the husband. If he needs assistance in that pro Bono work, let me know. I could partner with him on things I bet.

And of course he likes your hair. I told you that you'd be freaking hot!

Yeah, Hubby mentioned subbing too. Maybe. Before COVID, I had decided to start a masters degree in education. That got derailed, of course. Now... maybe I could take some time. It's just... I want to pull at least some of my own weight, dammit. But yeah, maybe subbing...

As for Hubby, he's gonna do great. He's been doing public interest law the last few years, but he felt frustrated and under utilized. Now he will get to coordinate the pro bono hours for all the other attorneys at the firm. The partner who had done it in the past fully retired, and my Hubby's old boss sold the other partners on hiring my Hubby to do it. They know he will both do good and raise the profile of the firm. It's a win-win.

And of course, there is a smoking hot Brazilian woman I may get to spend more time around... worshipping her from a bit closer distance but still afar, probably...

 

[lil_jenni]

Am I keeping up that this is the hot Brazilian lady we're crushing on?

You mean the Brazilian goddess? Why yes, yes it is. She's dating my Hubby's old and soon to be new boss.

 

[ShaneoD]

You mean the Brazilian goddess? Why yes, yes it is. She's dating my Hubby's old and soon to be new boss.

I see that slight crush hasn't gone away yet, I haven't even seen the woman but I've imagined her in several scenarios just from what you've posted

 

[lil_jenni]

They know he will both do good and raise the profile of the firm. It's a win-win.

Oh, they also know they get him back half time on the complex civil cases he used to do. It's not all from the goodness of their hearts... and yeah, I know... Lawyers don't have hearts...

 

[ShaneoD]

Oh, they also know they get him back half time on the complex civil cases he used to do. It's not all from the goodness of their hearts... and yeah, I know... Lawyers don't have hearts...

It is really cool to see how much you appreciate your husband, I was going to say I hope he's paid enough but you already mentioned it. Hopefully manages to raise the company profile enough to where you get to take pics with his bosses Brazilian wife at a fancy gala soon.

 

[lil_jenni]

I see that slight crush hasn't gone away yet, I haven't even seen the woman but I've imagined her in several scenarios just from what you've posted

Nope.

And I'll paint you a picture. Long, wavy brunette hair, like dark chocolate with highlights. Carmel latte skin tone with the kind of tan lines you imagine a Brazilian woman might have -- none visible with even the most revealing clothes I have sent her in. Long, long, long legs, toned and supple and smooth, flaring into a swell of hips, narrow waist, swell of breasts that is what Jessica rabbit might look like if she were constrained by at least some sense of reality. Full lips that rest in a pout but burst into radiance with each smile. Sparking hazel eyes with just enough laugh lines to make it clear she really is a human being not a deity trapped on earth. And dimples... don't forget dimples...

I might be overselling it, but not by much. Fucking goddess, she is.

 

[ShaneoD]

Nope.

And I'll paint you a picture. Long, wavy brunette hair, like dark chocolate with highlights. Carmel latte skin tone with the kind of tan lines you imagine a Brazilian woman might have -- none visible with even the most revealing clothes I have sent her in. Long, long, long legs, toned and supple and smooth, flaring into a swell of hips, narrow waist, swell of breasts that is what Jessica rabbit might look like if she were constrained by at least some sense of reality. Full lips that rest in a pout but burst into radiance with each smile. Sparking hazel eyes with just enough laugh lines to make it clear she really is a human being not a deity trapped on earth. And dimples... don't forget dimples...

I might be overselling it, but not by much. Fucking goddess, she is.

I can't blame you, I can almost see her, and fully endorse your feelings

 

[ShaneoD]

I'll be honest you almost lost me but I couldn't remember a certain Brazilian models name just then

 

[13Fantasies]

Nope.

And I'll paint you a picture. Long, wavy brunette hair, like dark chocolate with highlights. Carmel latte skin tone with the kind of tan lines you imagine a Brazilian woman might have -- none visible with even the most revealing clothes I have sent her in. Long, long, long legs, toned and supple and smooth, flaring into a swell of hips, narrow waist, swell of breasts that is what Jessica rabbit might look like if she were constrained by at least some sense of reality. Full lips that rest in a pout but burst into radiance with each smile. Sparking hazel eyes with just enough laugh lines to make it clear she really is a human being not a deity trapped on earth. And dimples... don't forget dimples...

I might be overselling it, but not by much. Fucking goddess, she is.

I like your picture painting skills.

 

[JerseyJade]

Nope.

And I'll paint you a picture. Long, wavy brunette hair, like dark chocolate with highlights. Carmel latte skin tone with the kind of tan lines you imagine a Brazilian woman might have -- none visible with even the most revealing clothes I have sent her in. Long, long, long legs, toned and supple and smooth, flaring into a swell of hips, narrow waist, swell of breasts that is what Jessica rabbit might look like if she were constrained by at least some sense of reality. Full lips that rest in a pout but burst into radiance with each smile. Sparking hazel eyes with just enough laugh lines to make it clear she really is a human being not a deity trapped on earth. And dimples... don't forget dimples...

I might be overselling it, but not by much. Fucking goddess, she is.

Wow. That's very descriptive. She sounds like a cool dude.

 

[lil_jenni]

Wow. That's very descriptive. She sounds like a cool dude.

Oh, I have had lots of time to think and lust over her and envision stuff. But other than when I scared her to death with my mad driving skills , I am awkward as shit around her. I don't think she has any idea of the level of my worship.

 

[ShaneoD]

Wow. That's very descriptive. She sounds like a cool dude.

How has my own brain removed me from my own fantasy

 

[lil_jenni]

Oh, I have had lots of time to think and lust over her and envision stuff. But other than when I scared her to death with my mad driving skills , I am awkward as shit around her. I don't think she has any idea of the level of my worship.

Or maybe she does and just isn't interested. I mean, just because I have no clue when another woman is interested in me doesn't mean she has no clue. Fuck. It's easier with guys. I know when they are interested...

 

[ShaneoD]

Or maybe she does and just isn't interested. I mean, just because I have no clue when another woman is interested in me doesn't mean she has no clue. Fuck. It's easier with guys. I know when they are interested...

Yes, yes we are.

Maybe Misty could co-date?

 

[JerseyJade]

Or maybe she does and just isn't interested. I mean, just because I have no clue when another woman is interested in me doesn't mean she has no clue. Fuck. It's easier with guys. I know when they are interested...

It's all in the eyes. Oops, did I say that?

 

[lil_jenni]

Yes, yes we are.

Maybe Misty could co-date?

Oh, no, no, no. Misty is not to be around her. I have no fucking idea what that bitch would do or say, but I'm sure it would lead to me being fucking embarrassed to fucking death.

 

[ShaneoD]

Oh, no, no, no. Misty is not to be around her. I have no fucking idea what that bitch would do or say, but I'm sure it would lead to me being fucking embarrassed to fucking death.

Damn, it's a shame, I'm guessing she'd know pretty quickly, but she doesn't have to live with the potential afters

 

[jason28053]

It's all in the eyes. Oops, did I say that?

 

[lil_jenni]

Damn, it's a shame, I'm guessing she'd know pretty quickly, but she doesn't have to live with the potential afters

Oh, sure, she would know. But that girl has a fucking evil sense of humor sometimes. And you never fucking know which Misty you are going to get from day to day. It could be thoughtful, caring Misty who wants to help or sadistic Misty who wants to watch the world burn.

Plus, Misty might try to take her for herself if she's in the mood. Nope. They are not meeting.

 

[13Fantasies]

I'd offer to help you with the Brazilian and keeping Misty occupied, but I think I'd have better success with Ray Charles shaving my nutsack

 

[Purple_Fronds]

And you never fucking know which Misty you are going to get from day to day. It could be thoughtful, caring Misty who wants to help or sadistic Misty who wants to watch the world burn.

And you love both