eastern sun
hungry little creature
- Joined
- Nov 19, 2005
- Posts
- 2,703
An interesting challenge has arisen in the last year. I am active outside our home - building a new not-for-profit arts organization and working in the community - at an unprecedented level since I formally became slave.
Everything that has made me a good slave - willingness to work long and hard hours, responsiveness to other people's needs, humility and commitment to the big picture regardless of personal satisfaction - has served me in my work.
But the work itself is significantly impacting my ability to be slave at home.
My husband is willing to give me this opportunity. He most definitely does not want to be the one who denies it to me. But he can't hide his disappointment as my time and energy is spent elsewhere.
I think most of us would agree - in a life that includes children and work, the needs of those children and the responsibilities at work take precedence over the needs of a Master. But I feel - and he agrees - that I am no longer a good slave.
To be a good slave would require me to balance this dream job of mine with efforts towards building his dream. And that's the challenge.
I'm so excited by the developments in my own life, I don't want to compromise or limit my activities. Yet everything I do outside of the home limits my ability to serve his dream.
Essentially, it means this slave is dancing to the beat of other masters.
If slave is a mindset and not simply a set of behaviors, how do I balance the needs of children, work and master? How do I keep from letting the needs of increasingly more "others" dictate my behavior?
Everything that has made me a good slave - willingness to work long and hard hours, responsiveness to other people's needs, humility and commitment to the big picture regardless of personal satisfaction - has served me in my work.
But the work itself is significantly impacting my ability to be slave at home.
My husband is willing to give me this opportunity. He most definitely does not want to be the one who denies it to me. But he can't hide his disappointment as my time and energy is spent elsewhere.
I think most of us would agree - in a life that includes children and work, the needs of those children and the responsibilities at work take precedence over the needs of a Master. But I feel - and he agrees - that I am no longer a good slave.
To be a good slave would require me to balance this dream job of mine with efforts towards building his dream. And that's the challenge.
I'm so excited by the developments in my own life, I don't want to compromise or limit my activities. Yet everything I do outside of the home limits my ability to serve his dream.
Essentially, it means this slave is dancing to the beat of other masters.
If slave is a mindset and not simply a set of behaviors, how do I balance the needs of children, work and master? How do I keep from letting the needs of increasingly more "others" dictate my behavior?