alexismarc
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I experienced something today I never have before and I'd love some insight. A quick Google search tells me it could have been a sub drop but I'm not super familiar with the term and I'm having a hard time searching for more info.
Let me first say that my husband and I are not new to this. We've been incorporating D/s and pain into our sex for at least 6 years now. We're not as extreme as some but things can get very intense, much more intense than tonight did.
We were fooling around and teasing each other while relaxing together when I started craving some pain and asked him to pull my hair. He did, then told me he was going to slap me. I consented. He smacked me three times across the face as hard as he could. Something he's done before and that I generally enjoy. Tonight I lost it. I completely freaked. I could not speak, could not respond or even look him in the eye. Pretty often I need to be held after we have particularly intense, dominant sex, sometimes even cry. But tonight it was like I just totally lost myself and who I was. It felt like an out of body experience but the opposite, like my mind and soul left my body and I was stuck in the empty shell.
I was able to pull myself out of it and eventually speak after about 15 minutes only because I could see how much it was scaring him but once my emotions came back I started sobbing and clinging to him. I flew through a broad range of intense emotions. It's been about an hour now and I'm mostly feeling back to normal, a little down maybe.
He's apologized about a dozen times but it's not his fault, this wasn't anything out of the norm for us and I wanted him to do it. I just want to know what happened and why. And how to stop it from happening again. Anything that can help us understand or convince my poor husband he's not a monster.
Let me first say that my husband and I are not new to this. We've been incorporating D/s and pain into our sex for at least 6 years now. We're not as extreme as some but things can get very intense, much more intense than tonight did.
We were fooling around and teasing each other while relaxing together when I started craving some pain and asked him to pull my hair. He did, then told me he was going to slap me. I consented. He smacked me three times across the face as hard as he could. Something he's done before and that I generally enjoy. Tonight I lost it. I completely freaked. I could not speak, could not respond or even look him in the eye. Pretty often I need to be held after we have particularly intense, dominant sex, sometimes even cry. But tonight it was like I just totally lost myself and who I was. It felt like an out of body experience but the opposite, like my mind and soul left my body and I was stuck in the empty shell.
I was able to pull myself out of it and eventually speak after about 15 minutes only because I could see how much it was scaring him but once my emotions came back I started sobbing and clinging to him. I flew through a broad range of intense emotions. It's been about an hour now and I'm mostly feeling back to normal, a little down maybe.
He's apologized about a dozen times but it's not his fault, this wasn't anything out of the norm for us and I wanted him to do it. I just want to know what happened and why. And how to stop it from happening again. Anything that can help us understand or convince my poor husband he's not a monster.