Perpetual_Edge
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- Oct 8, 2006
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I want to come out of the closet! I need to accept the fact that there is no label or title for the type of woman I am.
Here is a little history and I'll try not to bore you. Being a strong and feminine woman is not easy. In my daily life, I have to tell people what to do and be motivating as well as positive all the time. I always have to have an answer and if I don't, I will find it. I enjoy it most of the time. In my relationships, I have found myself with men who think I am intimidating but are attracted to me nevertheless. They have wanted total submission from me but have not treated me as well as I would have liked. Therefore, I end up "pissing" them off because I am not as simple and uncomplicated as they would wish. One man even said, "all you have to do dear, is do as I say, all the time". I have never heard such ridiculous words coming from a man! Nothing would please me more than to open myself up to a man I adored and felt respect from. This man would be neither a smart ass or insecure about his sexuality. He would be open to me taking charge and totally orgasmic from my words and touch. The next day, he would be able to sense when I am feeling softer and more submissive. We would go with the flow of our passions and be able to read each other's wants and desires by various techniques like facial expression, breath and body language. Do any of you have any idea of what I want? Am I on the right track? How do I find a man who is not such an ogre! Why do I keep choosing these types or are they choosing me!
Here is a little history and I'll try not to bore you. Being a strong and feminine woman is not easy. In my daily life, I have to tell people what to do and be motivating as well as positive all the time. I always have to have an answer and if I don't, I will find it. I enjoy it most of the time. In my relationships, I have found myself with men who think I am intimidating but are attracted to me nevertheless. They have wanted total submission from me but have not treated me as well as I would have liked. Therefore, I end up "pissing" them off because I am not as simple and uncomplicated as they would wish. One man even said, "all you have to do dear, is do as I say, all the time". I have never heard such ridiculous words coming from a man! Nothing would please me more than to open myself up to a man I adored and felt respect from. This man would be neither a smart ass or insecure about his sexuality. He would be open to me taking charge and totally orgasmic from my words and touch. The next day, he would be able to sense when I am feeling softer and more submissive. We would go with the flow of our passions and be able to read each other's wants and desires by various techniques like facial expression, breath and body language. Do any of you have any idea of what I want? Am I on the right track? How do I find a man who is not such an ogre! Why do I keep choosing these types or are they choosing me!