Recidiva
Harastal
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- Sep 3, 2005
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These are rare, but they evoke a "What The Fuck Is My Brain Up To?" When I get them.
Now, normally...I have hard core nightmares. Sharks, death, dismemberment, full color and my brain has told me in detail what it would be like to be eaten by bugs.
Okay. So last night I'm taking a walk and it seems really nice. It's a lovely walk. I'm happy. I get home and...oh no. My computer is on. I apparently walked out of my work shift. I left the instant messengers up! I can see them! They're tiling! What's the workload? Was it light? Heavy? My boss is on the phone, I say hello and then panic and hang up.
Nerd anxiety. I would like to believe I'm cooler than that, but once again my brain says. No. Sorry. You are exactly that easily freakable outable.
My brain is no longer trying to freak me out just by making me experience pain, it's gone all sideways and just wants to make me terrified of the petty and banal.
Not cool, brain.
Now, normally...I have hard core nightmares. Sharks, death, dismemberment, full color and my brain has told me in detail what it would be like to be eaten by bugs.
Okay. So last night I'm taking a walk and it seems really nice. It's a lovely walk. I'm happy. I get home and...oh no. My computer is on. I apparently walked out of my work shift. I left the instant messengers up! I can see them! They're tiling! What's the workload? Was it light? Heavy? My boss is on the phone, I say hello and then panic and hang up.
Nerd anxiety. I would like to believe I'm cooler than that, but once again my brain says. No. Sorry. You are exactly that easily freakable outable.
My brain is no longer trying to freak me out just by making me experience pain, it's gone all sideways and just wants to make me terrified of the petty and banal.
Not cool, brain.