Word of the day to ponder over

[eudaemonia]

What's yours for today and why?

Mine: Risk. I took a small one this morning, after waking from reasonably good sleep. It's been a particularly frustrating five days or so, and I went to bed last night thinking, "Fuck it. Why should I try to entice him to ask me out any more than I have? If he can't pick up on the hint then it's not worth the effort." Well, in the light of day, of course it's worth the risk. I can handle a simple "no," but I can't handle not knowing.

Anyone else?

P.S. This is my 100th post. Does that mean I can post a picture now?

 

[bobsgirl]

Yep! Now you get to pick your AV!

My word of the day is remember. I am trying to remember the good friends that have passed through my life. Some hung around and others stayed for just a short time. But I learn something from each and every one of them. And they each have their own place in my heart.

 

[Guest]

 

[dramaqueen47]

Love Not enough of it in my world. I also need to reevaluate what it means.

 

[eudaemonia]

Great stuff, y'alls!

If it's not too personal dq, would you care to expand on your WOTD? Because mine is inextricably linked to yours.

 

[eudaemonia]

Yep! Now you get to pick your AV!

Woo hoo! And apparently I'm "Really Experienced" now, too. If only y'alls knew ...

 

[dramaqueen47]

Great stuff, y'alls!

If it's not too personal dq, would you care to expand on your WOTD? Because mine is inextricably linked to yours.

Sure, here goes:

I met a great man online. I was in a chat room looking for someone to vent to about my little sister who is anorexic but refuses to admit it. I was just looking through when this message popped up that said, "Hi, I'm Mark. You don't seem to be chatting. Everything okay?"

I started talking to him and I told him about my sister and he told me how his younger sister used to be bulimic but she isn't now and that my little sister will get over it and I just need to stay strong. I gave him my MSN messenger name because he said that if I ever needed to talk to someone he would be there for me.

So I would go on messenger every once in a while and talk to him. After a while we started talking on the phone and we really got to know each other. We talked for about 3 months before we finally met in person.

We clicked. We just had the most fun together and we knew that we were meant to be together.

He went back to his home state and has been visiting me once a week. It's expensive but now we share the cost. 1 month ago he told me that he loved me. I couldn't believe it. I shared the same exact feelings but I didn't know if I should say them.

So we have been talking on the phone every single day since then. Yesterday though he told me that he doesn't know if he wants to go on with this relationship. He is not quite sure if he loves me anymore, and he made a list of my pros and cons. So now he wants to "take it back."

I feel like I have been punched in the stomach. Why are people so afraid to admit what they really feel? I know he loves me by the way that he talks to me and the way that he looks at me whenever we are together.

So love, love, love, that's all I have been thinking about today.

 

[KarenDee]

Hope...as in "I hope he calls again tomorrow!"

 

[Quoll]

Quiet: That's what I crave right now.

 

[eudaemonia]

Balance

The critical point where risk-taking and good judgment, gained through life experience, intersect; a moving target that's difficult to achieve and even more difficult to maintain.

 

[bobsgirl]

Motivation

Today I want to work on being motivated to participate in my life. I want to rebuild my relationship with my oldest and dearest friend--my husband.

 

[eudaemonia]

I feel like I have been punched in the stomach. Why are people so afraid to admit what they really feel? I know he loves me by the way that he talks to me and the way that he looks at me whenever we are together.

Wow. That kind takes your breath away, doesn't it?

I too wish I could understand what you're seeking to understand, that is, why we sometimes fear the things we feel. And also why it hurts so badly when someone withdraws from you becuase of that.

The important thing now is to take care of *your* feelings. Be protective of yourself and your feelings, which you're perfectly entitled to under the circumstances as you've reported them. It might be wise, hard as it is, to withdraw just a bit yourself. After all, if it were a literal punch to your stomach, would you just remain standing still with your guard down, or would you retreat a bit to re-evaluate the situation and see if you wanted to keep going? Our psyches can get bruised and cut, too.

Take care of yourself for the next few days/weeks, and let us know how you're doing.

 

[Munachi]

my word today is ouch because my stomach hurts

but on saturday it will be beach ! yay!

 

[bobsgirl]

I have a second one for the day, and that word is aggravation.

When I went into the garage I noticed I had a flat tire, producing an extreme feeling of, you guessed it, aggravation.

 

[Guest]

Weekend

 

[His_pita]

Desire

I'm getting a special phone call today from my wonderful man. I have a desire for it to be a really long phone call.

 

[KarenDee]

Joy.....he did call me!

 

[SweetErika]

Anticipation

Of the moment when the meds kick in and the pain dies down.

Of the sense of accomplishment I'll feel for getting much done today.

Of a knock on the door at 7:00, and spending the night with a love.





This is a great thread, E!

 

[bobsgirl]

The word of the evening is knowledge. The knowledge that I have gotten through another day on an even keel is satisfying. And I know I only have to take things one day at a time.

Erika, I hope whatever is hurting gets better soon.

 

[eudaemonia]

Self-image

I like who I am today. And I know without a doubt that that won't change in three days time, no matter what.

 

[Guest]

 

[eudaemonia]

Courage

To try or continue being afriad of trying. Which is it gunna be?

 

[dramaqueen47]

Love Wow, everything is better since my last post. To quote that earworm from Shrek 2: Come on, come on
Jump a little higher
Come on, come on
If you feel a little lighter
Come on, come on
We were once
Upon a time in love

We're accidentally in love
Accidentally in love [x7]

Accidentally

I'm In Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
Accidentally [x2]

Come on, come on
Spin a little tighter
Come on, come on
And the world's a little brighter
Come on, come on
Just get yourself inside her

Love ...I'm in love

 

[Quoll]

Love Wow, everything is better since my last post. To quote that earworm from Shrek 2: Come on, come on
Jump a little higher
Come on, come on
If you feel a little lighter
Come on, come on
We were once
Upon a time in love

We're accidentally in love
Accidentally in love [x7]

Accidentally

I'm In Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
Accidentally [x2]

Come on, come on
Spin a little tighter
Come on, come on
And the world's a little brighter
Come on, come on
Just get yourself inside her

Love ...I'm in love

 

[Eilan]

My word of the day is quoll's from 10/27: quiet.

Except now it's too quiet.