why is it?

[ivantheterrible]

why is it so hard to completely let go of someone?
when you know that there are things about her that you could not stand and got in the way of the relationship. that pissed you off, and made you focus too much on what you didn't like about her. instead of focusing on the good.
which were many things.
knowing you were co-dependent. but still loved her anyway.
is it being seperated from her long enough to make you think, instead of when you spilt up and were apart for a very short time. and not having time to really think?
god, i do love her. but do we really belong together? or not? the wrongs done. words said that divide. the things done that make you doubt.
what will really get her out of my heart? another woman? how long will that take? death? forever?
knowing i sent up a question to the universe a very long time ago when i was alone and needing and given a dream of someone who danced like her. why? to come to this end?
this division.
and knowing you DO have so much in common. and knowing you still love her.
will time heal me? will it ever go away?

 

[NotNowHunny]

Yes it will {{{{{{hugs }}}}}}
Focusing on why we split up always worked for me when I started thinking things you are.

 

[ivantheterrible]

thank you . but it does still hurt. i'll try. but focusing on what made us split up makes me want to HATE her with every ounce of my being. and i don't want that to show when i visit the kids.

 

[NotNowHunny]

thank you . but it does still hurt. i'll try. but focusing on what made us split up makes me want to HATE her with every ounce of my being. and i don't want that to show when i visit the kids.

I understand totally. I was married 23 yrs. My kids are all older than 21 and were grown when we split so I really can't relate to that part. But yes, I know about hurt. Wish I had better advice for you. I wish you the best.

 

[ivantheterrible]

thanks. mine are 8 and 6. there is that solid connection in her house through them.
it won't be easy.
it will definantly not be easy when all the w-2's are in form last year and i do the taxes and use her comp to turbo tax it. hopefully when i do it she is at work and i do not have to see her.
i will be living in the same neighborhood as she is .
maybe i should focus on her not wanting to have the mental capacity at this time to ever see someone else again for some time. which she has told me. me? i leave myself open to another relationship at any given time when it presents itself. it is nice to curl up next to someone, have sex with them, have breakfast and supper before the day begins and after it is all over. knowing someone is there who loves you, depends on you , and needs you.
she may want and doesn't care to be alone for the rest of her life, but i like the companionship. even if it turns out to be just friends who fuck. i won't make the mistake of being with someone just because. the next time i want it to be full on head over heels stupid blind in love. AND a lot in common sexually. blindfolds, padded wrist cuffs, talking dirty, etc.................

 

[ksmybuttons]

I have read interesting books about a lot of this. I suggest you do, too.

 

[where]

oh go away! Please!

 

[naughtycakes]

I thought you gave all your worldly possessions away and relocated into the mountains?

You took your laptop?

 

[where]

I thought you gave all your worldly possessions away and relocated into the mountains?

You took your laptop?

and his internet connection. Unfortunately.

 

[naughtycakes]

and his internet connection. Unfortunately.

Yeah, he's off the grid, though, man!

Fuck civilizations and fuck all you soft fuckers in your houses with your beds and indoor plumbing!

Fuck you!

 

[where]

Yeah, he's off the grid, though, man!

Fuck civilizations and fuck all you soft fuckers in your houses with your beds and indoor plumbing!

Fuck you!

I'm a little bit drunk... is that an invite?

 

[naughtycakes]

I'm a little bit drunk... is that an invite?

It is now

 

[where]

It is now

you need to get in line or join in with HB

 

[naughtycakes]

you need to get in line or join in with HB

I'll just catch you later

 

[JohnnySavage]

why is it so hard to completely let go of someone?
when you know that there are things about her that you could not stand and got in the way of the relationship. that pissed you off, and made you focus too much on what you didn't like about her. instead of focusing on the good.
which were many things.
knowing you were co-dependent. but still loved her anyway.
is it being seperated from her long enough to make you think, instead of when you spilt up and were apart for a very short time. and not having time to really think?
god, i do love her. but do we really belong together? or not? the wrongs done. words said that divide. the things done that make you doubt.
what will really get her out of my heart? another woman? how long will that take? death? forever?
knowing i sent up a question to the universe a very long time ago when i was alone and needing and given a dream of someone who danced like her. why? to come to this end?
this division.
and knowing you DO have so much in common. and knowing you still love her.
will time heal me? will it ever go away?

Is this about the fat chick you were posting pics of over in am pics?

 

[great lover]

ivantheterrible,
chicks stay away from "losers" and people they deem to be losers.

 

[ivantheterrible]

ooooooooooookay....................................jeez. the flakes you find.

 

[great lover]

ooooooooooookay....................................jeez. the flakes you find.

is it snowing or are you talking about breakfast cereals?

 

[thirty]

why is it so hard to completely let go of someone?
when you know that there are things about her that you could not stand and got in the way of the relationship. that pissed you off, and made you focus too much on what you didn't like about her. instead of focusing on the good.
which were many things.
knowing you were co-dependent. but still loved her anyway.
is it being seperated from her long enough to make you think, instead of when you spilt up and were apart for a very short time. and not having time to really think?
god, i do love her. but do we really belong together? or not? the wrongs done. words said that divide. the things done that make you doubt.
what will really get her out of my heart? another woman? how long will that take? death? forever?
knowing i sent up a question to the universe a very long time ago when i was alone and needing and given a dream of someone who danced like her. why? to come to this end?
this division.
and knowing you DO have so much in common. and knowing you still love her.
will time heal me? will it ever go away?

You will be over her few months later, I believe!

 

[gayloser]

ooooooooooookay....................................jeez. the flakes you find.

Dandruff? Don't wear black shirts.

 

[pointless]

She said to me, would you like to be,
I got plenty of time, It's gonna take some time.

Ahhhh I'm hanging on.
I'm hanging on baby, I'm hanging on,
Ahhhh I'm hanging on.
I'm hanging on baby, I'm hanging on,
Ahhhh I'm hanging on,
Come on now, come along sing my song.

She said to me, we're gonna lie on the floor,
Cause we don't need to go and can choose some more.

I'm dying for something, oh what will it be,
I'm dying for you to do something to me.

 

[pointless]

Your baby doesn't love you any more
Golden days before they end
Whisper secrets to the wind
Your baby won't be near you any more

Tender nights before they fly
Send falling stars that seem to cry
Your baby doesn't want you any more
It's over

It breaks your heart in two, To know she's been untrue
But oh what will you do? When she says to you
There's someone new We're through We're through
It's over It's over It's over

All the rainbows in the sky
Start to weep, then say goodbye
You won't be seeing rainbows any more
Setting suns before they fall, Echo to you that's all that's all
But you'll see lonely sunsets after all

It's over It's over It's over It's over

 

[ivantheterrible]

Yeah, he's off the grid, though, man!

Fuck civilizations and fuck all you soft fuckers in your houses with your beds and indoor plumbing!

Fuck you!

and right now i am in the mood enough to argue with you.
since july of last year i have been handed a shit sandwich and expected to eat it with a smile. get another job, have truck stolen from parking lot, get it back 2 weeks later with a broken windshield WITH a $205 towing and storage fee, get tired of wife and her shit in october, wreck truck in decmber due to black ice, lose job in december, getting a divorce soon after, and then father going through congestive heart failure. and i am now here helping him out since he and mother can't drive. it is an apartment building with absolutely nothing to do except watch tv, fuck off on the net, and excercise so i do not turn into another american fat fuck, and have no prospects for another job anytime soon. single, lonely, and horny as hell.
now , give me shit motherfucker.

 

[KRCummings]

Either a plea for attention or just plain stupidity for posting that shit here. Why do people do this?

 

[KRCummings]

and right now i am in the mood enough to argue with you.
since july of last year i have been handed a shit sandwich and expected to eat it with a smile. get another job, have truck stolen from parking lot, get it back 2 weeks later with a broken windshield WITH a $205 towing and storage fee, get tired of wife and her shit in october, wreck truck in decmber due to black ice, lose job in december, getting a divorce soon after, and then father going through congestive heart failure. and i am now here helping him out since he and mother can't drive. it is an apartment building with absolutely nothing to do except watch tv, fuck off on the net, and excercise so i do not turn into another american fat fuck, and have no prospects for another job anytime soon. single, lonely, and horny as hell.
now , give me shit motherfucker.

Don't be a whiny little pussy.