BBW_T&A_Lover
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I didn't want to post this in General because I know I would have been hit with sarcastic and down-right mean replies.
I met someone here in 2015. We hit it off right from the getgo. I was 40 and she was 51. I had always been into older women, but figured I would never find one online, let alone have strong feelings. She PMed me in this forum, which was a first. I usually never get PMs unless I send them first. Like I said we hit it off fast. Even before I saw a pic of her I know she was something special. Then when I saw her, I was flat out in love. After talking for a few months, we knew we were meant to be. But..........she was married and I was with someone. Our relationship was a whirlwind of romance, primal passion and everything in between. We both had opened minds and we both were into the same things, sexually/emotionally and other things. My SO and I broke up amicably. So I moved in with my folks due to my disability. Me and this woman talked everyday. On the phone, skype, chat, however we could. In 2017 she called me before work like usual. I said I'd call her back. When I did, she never answered her phone. And I've never heard from her again. She was who she was. There was no lying in her. She even sent me a pretty big amount of money to get a new bed before moving back home. I never gave her money, nor did she ever ask. To this day I still try and find her. I email just to email, but still nothing. I've tried to find lightning in a bottle again on this site, but it never happens. Not even close.
My personal doesn't really do much anymore. So I think I have to give up on finding love. I have too many things going against me.
I'm disabled.
I can't drive
I can't get into a vehicle.
And as my muscles slowly start to wear away, the mind is willing. But the body isn't. I can't even grip my cock tight enough to jerk off. I haven't had an orgasm in 11 years.
I wish I can say I will never give up. But unless someone reaches out and really piques my interest, who will be there when I need them, who fills my emotional, physical and fantasy needs, I think I'm done looking. I've finally come to the conclusion I'll never find love again. And I guess it's alright. The more I force myself to get used to being alone, the easier it will be. When you thought you found the one and that ONE is no longer there, it really punches a hole in you that never completely closes.
I just needed to vent. I appreciate whomever reads this. I wish luck on everyone here who is looking as well. I do hope that special person finds you like I thought mine found me.
Gregg
I met someone here in 2015. We hit it off right from the getgo. I was 40 and she was 51. I had always been into older women, but figured I would never find one online, let alone have strong feelings. She PMed me in this forum, which was a first. I usually never get PMs unless I send them first. Like I said we hit it off fast. Even before I saw a pic of her I know she was something special. Then when I saw her, I was flat out in love. After talking for a few months, we knew we were meant to be. But..........she was married and I was with someone. Our relationship was a whirlwind of romance, primal passion and everything in between. We both had opened minds and we both were into the same things, sexually/emotionally and other things. My SO and I broke up amicably. So I moved in with my folks due to my disability. Me and this woman talked everyday. On the phone, skype, chat, however we could. In 2017 she called me before work like usual. I said I'd call her back. When I did, she never answered her phone. And I've never heard from her again. She was who she was. There was no lying in her. She even sent me a pretty big amount of money to get a new bed before moving back home. I never gave her money, nor did she ever ask. To this day I still try and find her. I email just to email, but still nothing. I've tried to find lightning in a bottle again on this site, but it never happens. Not even close.
My personal doesn't really do much anymore. So I think I have to give up on finding love. I have too many things going against me.
I'm disabled.
I can't drive
I can't get into a vehicle.
And as my muscles slowly start to wear away, the mind is willing. But the body isn't. I can't even grip my cock tight enough to jerk off. I haven't had an orgasm in 11 years.
I wish I can say I will never give up. But unless someone reaches out and really piques my interest, who will be there when I need them, who fills my emotional, physical and fantasy needs, I think I'm done looking. I've finally come to the conclusion I'll never find love again. And I guess it's alright. The more I force myself to get used to being alone, the easier it will be. When you thought you found the one and that ONE is no longer there, it really punches a hole in you that never completely closes.
I just needed to vent. I appreciate whomever reads this. I wish luck on everyone here who is looking as well. I do hope that special person finds you like I thought mine found me.
Gregg
