LupusDei
curious alien
- Joined
- Jul 3, 2017
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There's things that can't be not written.
Then there's fear I will someday forget the stories living in my mind. I have some of them in the forest, to be found again going by, but that's fleeting as well. Things change.
Writing however, is hard, and just as futile, really. And the story changes while written, even when you think you can recount every word chapters ahead of where you apparently abandoned it last year.
Then there this absurd mission syndrome, the sharp conscious alienism, the incredible arrogance to think I -- we -- carry something universally valuable but rare and nearly lost or misunderstood misinterpreted and mispresented, the sense of being part of many millennia old propaganda war.
And then the doubts, nobody did ask me to, nobody approved, nobody would care, and why I am to ever hope to express what I had never known for real.
Wait we're supposed to talk about porn, right?
Even there... There's apparently simply isn't the story I really want, so once again no much choice.
Not that I have published anything, or even finished anywhere close to publishable, yet. Someday I probably will.
Then there's fear I will someday forget the stories living in my mind. I have some of them in the forest, to be found again going by, but that's fleeting as well. Things change.
Writing however, is hard, and just as futile, really. And the story changes while written, even when you think you can recount every word chapters ahead of where you apparently abandoned it last year.
Then there this absurd mission syndrome, the sharp conscious alienism, the incredible arrogance to think I -- we -- carry something universally valuable but rare and nearly lost or misunderstood misinterpreted and mispresented, the sense of being part of many millennia old propaganda war.
And then the doubts, nobody did ask me to, nobody approved, nobody would care, and why I am to ever hope to express what I had never known for real.
Wait we're supposed to talk about porn, right?
Even there... There's apparently simply isn't the story I really want, so once again no much choice.
Not that I have published anything, or even finished anywhere close to publishable, yet. Someday I probably will.