What do you do when you're depressed to pull yourself up?

[HawkEye38]

Depression's a bitch aint it?

Crappy thing is my life over the last two years has given me good reason to be depressed. Here's the run-down:

Dad squirreled all the college money away and left the family. Essentially disowned me when I tried to keep in contact with him.

Couldn't get any financial aid since he makes 80k+ a year and it gets put on the FASA form whether or not he's going to help pay for it.

Went from planning to go to schools like UPenn to wondering if I would get to go anywhere.

Girlfriend of 2 years left me for a guy who pretended to be my friend to get close to her. Didn't find out untill later just how much he lied to her about me. They stayed together for a month...

Had to move into a much smaller house, my room is still a mess of unpoened boxes.

Settled for a local college that I could pay for working construction in the summer. Still don't have enough to live on campus, so I don't get the social aspect of college.

Outlook on life has sorta gone downhill from there. I don't talk to anyone, noone talks to me, I get up, I go to class, I come home and I sleep. Maybe someday it'll get better... Maybe... Someday...

They don't make pills for a shattered life.

 

[FurryFury]

Depression's a bitch aint it?

Crappy thing is my life over the last two years has given me good reason to be depressed. Here's the run-down:

Dad squirreled all the college money away and left the family. Essentially disowned me when I tried to keep in contact with him.

Couldn't get any financial aid since he makes 80k+ a year and it gets put on the FASA form whether or not he's going to help pay for it.

Went from planning to go to schools like UPenn to wondering if I would get to go anywhere.

Girlfriend of 2 years left me for a guy who pretended to be my friend to get close to her. Didn't find out untill later just how much he lied to her about me. They stayed together for a month...

Had to move into a much smaller house, my room is still a mess of unpoened boxes.

Settled for a local college that I could pay for working construction in the summer. Still don't have enough to live on campus, so I don't get the social aspect of college.

Outlook on life has sorta gone downhill from there. I don't talk to anyone, noone talks to me, I get up, I go to class, I come home and I sleep. Maybe someday it'll get better... Maybe... Someday...

They don't make pills for a shattered life.

Okay that is a lot on your plate. *HUGS*

I wish I knew what would help.

I do know this, you seem to be coping pretty damned well. Hopefully your grades are good. This will pass and yes, life will get better.

The social life at college can fuck up your college experience seriously. I ended up majoring in vodka but I'm still a few hours short of my degree in boozing, damn it.

Anyway, hang in there. I'm impressed at your ability to pick yourself up with all of that shit going on.

Good for you.

Fury

 

[HawkEye38]

Okay that is a lot on your plate. *HUGS*

The social life at college can fuck up your college experience seriously. I ended up majoring in vodka but I'm still a few hours short of my degree in boozing, damn it.

Fury

thanks

But I want a degree in boozing DAMNIT!


(Not really, I just wind up on the couch asking for an asprin)

 

[FurryFury]

thanks

But I want a degree in boozing DAMNIT!


(Not really, I just wind up on the couch asking for an asprin)

LMAO!

I was kinda down the other day, till I spanked myself and that helped.

Fury

 

[FurryFury]

This was kind of funny today, my 14 year old daughter told me she felt depressed. I asked her what specific ways her depression was making itself known to her.

Dizziness, nausea, headaches, and other symptoms were trotted out that I've also been having over a week now.

My son chimed in that he had the same feelings.

My husband too.

She started laughing and giggling at that.

"Do you feel really sad or just sort of out of it?" I asked.

"It never occurred to me I was sick the symptoms come and go and are so vague." She said.

We laughed together about that. She hasn't been significantly depressed since sixth grade, thank goodness!

This thing we have though it does make you feel very strange and out of it!

Fury

 

[Red Sonja]

This was kind of funny today, my 14 year old daughter told me she felt depressed. I asked her what specific ways her depression was making itself known to her.

Dizziness, nausea, headaches, and other symptoms were trotted out that I've also been having over a week now.

My son chimed in that he had the same feelings.

My husband too.

She started laughing and giggling at that.

"Do you feel really sad or just sort of out of it?" I asked.

"It never occurred to me I was sick the symptoms come and go and are so vague." She said.

We laughed together about that. She hasn't been significantly depressed since sixth grade, thank goodness!

This thing we have though it does make you feel very strange and out of it!

Fury

I would definitely take physical sickness over mental sickness any day of the week. I hope you all feel better soon, though.

 

[FurryFury]

I would definitely take physical sickness over mental sickness any day of the week. I hope you all feel better soon, though.

Me too and thank you!

Yeah this is a strange illness, it sort of creeps up on you and then runs away only to creep back when you don't expect it, over and over again for at least a week or two. It makes you feel off balance and sort of not in touch with the real world. It's weird I tell you. It could easily be mistaken for sadness.

Fury

 

[Lady_Prowless]

what do i do....

i think of all the good things ive done and things ive accomplished in life to bring me up,and too i think that it could be worse,always remember that someone else out there has it worse than you do,so make the most of what you got.

 

[HawkEye38]

I would definitely take physical sickness over mental sickness any day of the week. I hope you all feel better soon, though.

Ahmen to that

Sometimes I wonder if the mental sickness is just something that comes with the territory... niyh

 

[HawkEye38]

New addition for this week...

Block my Ex-girlfriends IM id so she can't message me about how great her life's been since she ditched me.

 

[lil_elmo]

I am not sure how long I have been away from the boards. My depression is getting bad again. My medication has had to be changed. I am now on 2 types of sleeping pills.

Work (I went back) is not going good at all. I try so hard to treat every guest in the restaurant on how I want to be treated and the same goes for my staff. I am a supervisor.

Last week, I had to call 911 as a girl was being beat by her SO. I had to hide her in the back of the restaurant, "staff only area". This did not help with my depression as my first marriage was abusive and brought back memories.

Then about 2 shifts later, I almost had a fist fight in my store between 2 gangs of guys. I yelled at them to take it outside. Now I find I am scared of confrontation and I get scared if more than 2 guys come in the store.

I just don't know what I need to do differently so I don't get overwhelmed with emotions, fears etc. I try the deep breathing etc but I still get panic attacks etc

I wrote up my resignation last night thinking I would leave, but my boss found out and came down to the store to talk me out of it. I am such a whimp when it comes down to "we really need you, we have no one else" " you are good with guests" etc. So I am now staying

Sorry for the long rant and long absense

lil elmo

 

[FurryFury]

I am not sure how long I have been away from the boards. My depression is getting bad again. My medication has had to be changed. I am now on 2 types of sleeping pills.

Work (I went back) is not going good at all. I try so hard to treat every guest in the restaurant on how I want to be treated and the same goes for my staff. I am a supervisor.

Last week, I had to call 911 as a girl was being beat by her SO. I had to hide her in the back of the restaurant, "staff only area". This did not help with my depression as my first marriage was abusive and brought back memories.

Then about 2 shifts later, I almost had a fist fight in my store between 2 gangs of guys. I yelled at them to take it outside. Now I find I am scared of confrontation and I get scared if more than 2 guys come in the store.

I just don't know what I need to do differently so I don't get overwhelmed with emotions, fears etc. I try the deep breathing etc but I still get panic attacks etc

I wrote up my resignation last night thinking I would leave, but my boss found out and came down to the store to talk me out of it. I am such a whimp when it comes down to "we really need you, we have no one else" " you are good with guests" etc. So I am now staying

Sorry for the long rant and long absense

lil elmo

*HUGS and HUGS*

I'm so sorry things are difficult for you right now Lil Elmo. I'm glad they feel they really need you because I LOVE to be needed. You know?

The Golden Rule is a lovely concept, it just doesn't always work I've found. Many people don't want to be treated the way I want to be treated they have their own ideas of how they want to be treated, you know?

I hope things get better for you very soon.

Fury

 

[shy slave]

Lil _elmo, depression is hard work and exhausting at times.

Those days where the most simple of decisions is just too difficult a thing to do are the days that I have found hard.

You are in a stressful job, any role that has a 'dealing with the public' element is stressful.

I hope the tablets are helping ease the anxiety and panic attacks as well as help you sleep. Lack of sleep makes everything seem more intense and emotional.

When I had anxiety attacks a couple of years ago, I tried to focus on a small part of what I had to do next. If I needed to make a call or speak to someone I would plan out the first part of the conversation in my mind and mentally try to take back some of the control I felt I had lost due to my anxiety.
It worked in short bursts for me. I also stopped making lists of things I needed to get done that day, instead I would give myself one task and I would not decide what task until the morning of the day. If I thought about it the night before i would become anxious and not be abale to sleep.

As I started to feel better i realised that the anxiety was not necessarily connected 'normal' anxious feelings (like waiting for exam results) but it came out of nowhere and I could become very stressed and anxious without being able to say specifically what had made me feel that way.

That helped alot, I stopped trying to explain it to people. It freed me from needing answer to the 'what caused it and why' question.

Keep letting us know how you are, lots of people here understand how difficult it can be.
Love shy

 

[alice_underneath]

You are in a stressful job, any role that has a 'dealing with the public' element is stressful.

My first husband (let's call him "X") was diagnosed with bipolar depression when our children were toddlers. At the time, X was a litigator - frequently involved in acrimonious conflict with other attorneys.

X's doctor referred to depression as The Beast.

And he told X, over & over again: "Conflict feeds The Beast. If you are spending your days going head-to-head with other human beings, you are counteracting the beneficial effects of the medication, and helping the Beast maintain its strength."

Medication made a huge difference in X's battle against The Beast. But so did a change in jobs.


lil_elmo -

*hugs*

My personal opinion is that no one should be allowed to dine out unless they have worked as a waitress for at least a month.

Please don't take this post as a recommendation that you leave your job. I am really only agreeing with Shy that stress makes things worse.

Afflictions and situations vary so much from person to person. I hope that the doctor prescribing your medication can help you make decisions about how to deal with the stress in your life.

Please come back often and let us know how you are doing.

Alice

 

[Marquis]

Fuck!

I want to be a litigator!

 

[rosco rathbone]

Lately, cooking.

 

[Marquis]

Lately, cooking.

Excellent therapy bro.

 

[FurryFury]

There are few careers, or for that matter lifestyles, that aren't stressful and which don't have dealing with people as a significant part of them.

Fury

 

[shy slave]

There are few careers, or for that matter lifestyles, that aren't stressful and which don't have dealing with people as a significant part of them.

Fury

I agree, but some jobs involve talking to people on a more personal/care level than others.

Working in any high volume customer care can be more stressful than some jobs where people to people contact is minimal.

 

[FurryFury]

I agree, but some jobs involve talking to people on a more personal/care level than others.

Working in any high volume customer care can be more stressful than some jobs where people to people contact is minimal.

*nods*

I hear ya Shy Slave,

A law degree is a great thing to have for many different careers. There is some stress in almost every career. That's all I'm saying.

Fury

 

[Clint Taurus]

So right now I'm feeling useless.

I can't write the way I usually do on the sexual or other role play threads.

I feel like I'm letting people down.

I feel I've been let down by someone I really cherished. I don't know why. If I did something wrong, got boring or he is just busy. *sighs*

I also feel like there is a certain person I can never make happy for long, which makes me not even want to try.

I want to write about blood and suicidal urges but that would probably be considered icky and wrong, wouldn't it?

So I'm trying to pull myself up.

Dennis only knocked out a few windows and power for a few hours, so that's good.

I have a wonderful life really.

Did two great gigs today.

Still I'm very draggy and blue.

Any ideas?

Thanks for listening if you got this far.

Fury

I always feel depressed after gigging, its such an anti-climax and
my adrenalin is still pumping with nowhere for it to go.
I have found that playing some really chill out songs and trying to relax really helps.

 

[Clint Taurus]

This was kind of funny today, my 14 year old daughter told me she felt depressed. I asked her what specific ways her depression was making itself known to her.

Dizziness, nausea, headaches, and other symptoms were trotted out that I've also been having over a week now.

My son chimed in that he had the same feelings.

My husband too.

She started laughing and giggling at that.

"Do you feel really sad or just sort of out of it?" I asked.

"It never occurred to me I was sick the symptoms come and go and are so vague." She said.

We laughed together about that. She hasn't been significantly depressed since sixth grade, thank goodness!

This thing we have though it does make you feel very strange and out of it!

Fury

Just a thought, these are all syptoms of carbon monoxide poisoning too
if you have gas appliances it might be worthwhile checking them out.

 

[FurryFury]

I always feel depressed after gigging, its such an anti-climax and
my adrenalin is still pumping with nowhere for it to go.
I have found that playing some really chill out songs and trying to relax really helps.

What kind of gigging do you do? I'm curious, always.

Just a thought, these are all syptoms of carbon monoxide poisoning too
if you have gas appliances it might be worthwhile checking them out.

Thanks for mentioning this dangerous possibility.

I did check out the c/o detectors in the house.

We do have some gas appliances.

The symptoms are very similar to c/o poisoning I agree but since all the detectors are working, I don't think that is the problem.

Thanks for your intelligent catch that it could be though.

Fury

 

[Clint Taurus]

What kind of gigging do you do? I'm curious, always.





Thanks for mentioning this dangerous possibility.

I did check out the c/o detectors in the house.

We do have some gas appliances.

The symptoms are very similar to c/o poisoning I agree but since all the detectors are working, I don't think that is the problem.

Thanks for your intelligent catch that it could be though.

Fury

I play guitar and sing blues music and some home songwriting and recording.

 

[Kajira Callista]

What kind of gigging do you do? I'm curious, always.





Thanks for mentioning this dangerous possibility.

I did check out the c/o detectors in the house.

We do have some gas appliances.

The symptoms are very similar to c/o poisoning I agree but since all the detectors are working, I don't think that is the problem.

Thanks for your intelligent catch that it could be though.

Fury

change the air in your house. there are other toxins besides c/o that can make you feel that way.
I do this daily...turn off heat, go through house and open every window....sit with my winter coat on for 20 mins then close everything back up. Also try simulated sun bulbs in lamps. The winter sun is not strong enough to keep me happy past nov. by feb i wanna crawl under the bed and never come out. the sun bulbs work wonders on me.