What Are You Thinking? Continued 14

[Bry1313]

OP live your life and leave me alone. I do not respect you as a person, and you do not respect me. I posted vaguely to try and avoid calling anything out directly but maybe this will finally stop things.
I find you toxic and deceitful-your lies of omission, which so many defined as lies in this very thread, started at the beginning of our “friendship”. You have claimed it was so hard for you to not be honest but you were never were and neither was Bry, the person that was supposed to be my closest friend.
I had opened up to both of you, about so many things, even comforting you when you were upset that Bry had not told you we had been together and telling you to not be upset with him that he was still your friend and just being a ding dong. You let me do while the two of you were together having already lied once and then lying again when asked if there was anything going on between the two of you. So please do not try to claim you do not know why I was upset.

Were my emotions too big. Yes, because what I had lost was not real. I had believed that my friends were honest with me and I was shown to be wrong. It sucked. Did I blame you more than I blamed Bry? Initially, yes but I also knew he would not have told me if it wasn’t for you. But it was easier to blame you more and it allowed me to try to find a way to still be his friend.

Did I use my words in my poetry thread to sort through things? Yes, I did. Was there anger and sadness? Yes, there was. Did you and Bry come into that space and mock me, yes you did. More than once. I have reacted to you and I have instigated things but it is not one sided and the one thing I have not done is come to fight anyone else’s battles or try to pile things on like you three do. It has happened over and over.

Honestly, I don’t think about any of you except when you make it too hard to avoid you. Then yes, it comes up for me and sometimes I react or engage. You like to say I am a gaslighter and toxic but that is the pot calling the kettle black.

I skipped you in your thread. That is my most recent crime. Was it petty? It was but I also had nothing to say to you and was surprised at what the poster above you had said. I’m not excusing it, I should not have commented and I’m sorry I did it. Usually, I do my best to avoid all of you and it has meant I’ve distanced from folks I like. But I don’t pretend to have you on fake ignore and write about it all over lit. Usually i just don’t engage.

I’m not sure what threads I have “no right” reacting in or what your friends see when they have decided I am fake ignoring you. I have friends that go in lots of threads and while I avoided some threads initially it seems that it has been long enough were we that really shouldn’t be necessary.

Please stop thinking everything is about you. It’s not. I’m not trying to shade you but that does not mean I need to put up with the incessant bullying behavior of you, CCG and Bry. It is old and unnesessary.
We don’t like each other and that is fine. This is a big playground there is no reason for us to interact.

And to everyone that has been forced to see this crap unfold hopefully now that it is out in the open it can end. If I’m tired of it I can only imagine how you all feel.

There was no desire to rile things up this past week. You wrote a poem in your thread that was very similar to others targeting me, and next thing I knew you started visiting the spaces hosted by your “bullies”. While in those spaces you were not the greatest guest and yes, things did get unpleasant. Additionally, none of the bullies have participated in your hosted spaces, so the engagement this past week has been your doing, not those you accuse of bullying you.

You were in a separate, very close, relationship, when the lie of omission was committed. It was very clever of you to conduct that survey without giving context, while overtly claiming it was not about us, but now subsequently stating it was absolutely about us. (That is a lie of commission) Yes, in its beginnings, I did not inform you of what was happening because I wasn’t certain myself other than I was having fun with someone very fun, smart and clever. I’m sure you weren’t sharing every one of your Lit relationships the moment they happened either. I’m sure very few people, even those coming out against lies of omission, in this thread, have fully documented all of their flirtations to the greater world. If everyone did, the tea would be overflowing daily.

Avoiding conflict is easy, don’t go to the hosted space of someone you don’t like, or if you do, don’t behave rudely to the host. I’ve not referenced you or engaged with you for months, until you engaged on what were safe space for those you profess not to like. If we avoid each other’s spaces, it should all be easy.

I’d love nothing more than to give you and your new partner, all the space and peace you’d like, I just ask the same in return.

 

[RosewoodTulip]

I don't have that experience. I've never been a parent. But I could see how there could be a certain form of isolation to it. I mean, one loves one's children, but you can't make them your friends. You can't make them your confidants.

And you've got this. I also have found that walking in parks or (for me, especially) cemeteries (during the day) has been very helpful. Being outside with nature and not cooped up in the same four walls every day is helpful. And as a bonus, if you're in a cemetery, the people there won't complain or be annoying.

Pro tip - hang out with dead people.

I joke but I actually find cemeteries to be really calm spaces.

Feel free to drop me a message if you ever make a grilled cheese again haha

Happy to talk should you need a friend

 

[Shady_nz]

Why does it take so long for my tag line to change? It used to be relatively quick but these days...

 

[Desiree_Radcliffe]

Pro tip - hang out with dead people.

I joke but I actually find cemeteries to be really calm spaces.

Feel free to drop me a message if you ever make a grilled cheese again haha

Happy to talk should you need a friend

They are the best. I really would just make a thread of cemetery pictures if there were interest. The cemetery here is mildly creepy and huge and a joy every time. And I will happily make you one. I started using keto bread (because I am diabetic) and it has been good. I only ever used bread for grilled cheese, so it was sad when I couldn't have it anymore. Also, pimento cheese has, like, 1g of carbs per serving. So I win.

Thank you so very much. Very much the same.

 

[ImpishSeraph]

Mother F'cker, piece of sh!t, scum of the earth, f'cktard, wimpy a$$, weak F'KING A$$HOLE!!!!!!!

Kiss My A$$$ POS



***edited: I'm sorry. This is not about anybody here on LIT, but RL. I just had to get that off my chest, so my kid didn't hear me say it

 

[fsa52]

Mother F'cker, piece of sh!t, scum of the earth, f'cktard, wimpy a$$, weak F'KING A$$HOLE!!!!!!!

Kiss My A$$$ POS

Hope things get better!
Hugs!!

 

[fsa52]

Hallelujah, Praise the Lord!!!

 

[Chillygirl]

Emotions are high today.

 

[Secretintoelderly]

Must be the seasonal change

 

[Bry1313]

Yes. I have told you my existential dreads. That is a fuel for that engine.

Your dreads got you PM sympathy (no boobs), I didn’t get shit for my dreads. Big man hug.

 

[Shady_nz]

Mother F'cker, piece of sh!t, scum of the earth, f'cktard, wimpy a$$, weak F'KING A$$HOLE!!!!!!!

Kiss My A$$$ POS

But this might help more..
.

 

[Desiree_Radcliffe]

Must be the seasonal change

We're getting into vampire mode for Halloween. Some of us are brooding, morose vampires. Others of us are angsty, fuck you vampires. It's OK.

 

[UnquietDreams]

In all seriousness, though, I did almost cry. I don't imagine myself to have any redeeming qualities, nor am I looking for anyone to list them. I know that, at this point, if that happened, I would not believe anyone. I sincerely appreciate your kind words. You have been nothing but kind to me, even when I have been very cranky toward you. Any distaste or anger I may hint at you, is really directed at myself. Thank you for your thoughtful words.

Too use a colloquialism, I don't blow smoke. I am not one to lie, even if I feel it would make someone feel better. If I say I saw something in a person, I observed it. Just so you know. As always, I wish you the best.

 

[Wand3rlust]

Your dreads got you PM sympathy (no boobs), whine whine whine whine whine whine whine. Big man hug.

FIFY

 

[MindYaBitness]

We're getting into vampire mode for Halloween. Some of us are brooding, morose vampires. Others of us are angsty, fuck you vampires. It's OK.

Can I be a fun vampire? I definitely feel like I'm the party vampire type. Queue the music...
https://i.giphy.com/media/v1.Y2lkPTc5MGI3NjExMTNwdXFxNjd2eHpscmlnbWlicHV4dDJ4YzRzNTJuang2NDUxNXRpdCZlcD12MV9pbnRlcm5hbF9naWZfYnlfaWQmY3Q9Zw/l0MYBCl7CYbz1Wsc8/giphy.gif

 

[UnquietDreams]

Really interesting conversation here.
Self awareness and self image and extroverts and introverts.

Not sure what my personal thoughts are.

I think I'm hyper aware of how I may come across. I'm someone who overthinks everything she writes. Who, if she receives a reaction or a reply will go back to the post and check it still comes across how it was intended.

I spend quite a lot of my time alone too with only my internal echo chamber for company. I am working on getting back into the world but it's very daunting. That isolation can make me question and doubt every single thing.

I am unkind to myself which is maybe why I try so hard to bring kindness here as much as I can and I appreciate others that do the same too.

I go out of my way to find your posts. I find them interesting and well thought out. You have made me smile, and you have made me think. For what it's worth.

 

[Desiree_Radcliffe]

Too use a colloquialism, I don't blow smoke. I am not one to lie, even if I feel it would make someone feel better. If I say I saw something in a person, I observed it. Just so you know. As always, I wish you the best.

Thank you. I appreciate it and I am sorry for my skittishness. I wish things could have been different.

 

[UnquietDreams]

Aw. You guys.

(Did I do that right?)

I think you have made good progress today.

 

[Desiree_Radcliffe]

Can I be a fun vampire? I definitely feel like I'm the party vampire type. Queue the music...
https://i.giphy.com/media/v1.Y2lkPTc5MGI3NjExMTNwdXFxNjd2eHpscmlnbWlicHV4dDJ4YzRzNTJuang2NDUxNXRpdCZlcD12MV9pbnRlcm5hbF9naWZfYnlfaWQmY3Q9Zw/l0MYBCl7CYbz1Wsc8/giphy.gif

I am here for this, definitely!

 

[Bry1313]

FIFY

 

[Xerxes82]

Can I be a fun vampire? I definitely feel like I'm the party vampire type. Queue the music...
https://i.giphy.com/media/v1.Y2lkPTc5MGI3NjExMTNwdXFxNjd2eHpscmlnbWlicHV4dDJ4YzRzNTJuang2NDUxNXRpdCZlcD12MV9pbnRlcm5hbF9naWZfYnlfaWQmY3Q9Zw/l0MYBCl7CYbz1Wsc8/giphy.gif

Vampires are undead, murdering monsters. Not sure they really give off a fun vibe.

That said, I'm a big enough sucker I'd probably still party with a sexy enough vampire.

Before I gave her the wooden stake, anyway.

 

[JustAnotherFlower]

Vampires are undead, murdering monsters. Not sure they really give off a fun vibe.

That said, I'm a big enough sucker I'd probably still party with a sexy enough vampire.

Before I gave her the wooden stake, anyway.

Before you gave her your wood...
You totally missed the opportunity for an amazingly bad pun.

 

[Secretintoelderly]

I’m in for it

 

[Desiree_Radcliffe]

Vampires are undead, murdering monsters. Not sure they really give off a fun vibe.

That said, I'm a big enough sucker I'd probably still party with a sexy enough vampire.

Before I gave her the wooden stake, anyway.

I had an idea for a movie about a late night talk show host who is also a vampire. I mean, it could totally work.

 

[MedicalMuse]

Jesus fuck.