What Are You Thinking? Continued 14

Curious about post/lit stalking. Lit has a green light feature that some people leave on, which will say if someone is online and if they are online, also what thread they are in or if they are looking at their PMs. Is it normal or creepy, if someone has the green light on, to stalk where people are on lit, and then make conclusions on the information the green light gives away. If you think I’m talking about you, I’m definitely not.
Yeah I turned that off as soon as I knew I could. It's bad enough we can't block people from seeing us. Them having the ability to follow us around is just stressful.
 
Life doesn't need to be so complicated. Treat others the way you would like to be treated. Online and offline. No one is perfect but that's the one rule to try to live by.

Life is also a lot easier and happier when you have empathy. Avoid people who behave in a way that doesn't jive with you. You don't need to be a push over and accept being treated in a way that makes you upset or uncomfortable. But the best thing to do is to wish those people well and just avoid them. I do this offline and really hope to do this online.

But it has been tough online because it seems like one person purposefully tries really hard to annoy every few months with subtle trolling. To the one person who I think does this (yes I am talking to you), I'm sorry if I have it wrong, but that's what it feels like to me from my perspective. So I have been unkind a couple of times when it's been done because it feels highly annoying. I'm sure you will say you're not doing this, but I'm telling you that's what it feels like from here so you know and can maybe be kind enough to consider it.

It gets really hard to just ignore you. Because I'm a human being with emotions too. I'm sorry for the times I have lost myself and escalated. I don't actually want you to feel bad. It just gets so hard when it feels like you are doing things on purpose to annoy and it takes a saint to read all your passive aggressive posts that perfectly describe your prespective and framing of whatever you think happened. But its not about us so its okay, even when you obviously knew we would read it as about us because you said so. My point is, even when its not about us, maybe you could be sensitive enough to not post something like that during the couple of days when theres so much trolling back and forth. I'm not proud of my part in it and I'll apologize for engaging. But. it. is. so. hard. not. to. But I promise I'll stop if you stop.

This is what I generally do when you don't think you are trolling me because I don't actually want to to be annoying or make you feel angry or upset. I don't go into your threads. I don't comment on your posts. I don't fake ignore you by skipping you in thread. I don't make posts about you or posts that even sound like it could be about you (unless your posts have annoyed me enough by doing the things I'm listing so I start trolling you back, which I actually hate because a troll is not who I am or who I want to be). I even put you on real ignore after the last time I got really annoyed by you so I can live in peace. But ignore doesn't work well because I can still see you reacting in threads you have no reason to be in and when you fake ignore me, other people can still see it and tell me. So yea I've been looking at your posts for the last couple of days and getting more and more annoyed.

But I actually dont like being annoyed. I don't like shading anyone. I don't enjoy any of it. And I really don't care to make you upset. Id really rather you be happy even if I don't like you. And even though I will never understand what made you so upset in the first place, I'm sorry you still are. I'm sorry if you think I ever did anything to you. I would like to just acknowledge we don't like each other but leave each other alone so no one has to be upset. I really wish you happiness and peace. Please be so kind as to consider my feelings too when you post. Thank you.
 
Life doesn't need to be so complicated. Treat others the way you would like to be treated. Online and offline. No one is perfect but that's the one rule to try to live by.

Life is also a lot easier and happier when you have empathy. Avoid people who behave in a way that doesn't jive with you. You don't need to be a push over and accept being treated in a way that makes you upset or uncomfortable. But the best thing to do is to wish those people well and just avoid them. I do this offline and really hope to do this online.

But it has been tough online because it seems like one person purposefully tries really hard to annoy every few months with subtle trolling. To the one person who I think does this (yes I am talking to you), I'm sorry if I have it wrong, but that's what it feels like to me from my perspective. So I have been unkind a couple of times when it's been done because it feels highly annoying. I'm sure you will say you're not doing this, but I'm telling you that's what it feels like from here so you know and can maybe be kind enough to consider it.

It gets really hard to just ignore you. Because I'm a human being with emotions too. I'm sorry for the times I have lost myself and escalated. I don't actually want you to feel bad. It just gets so hard when it feels like you are doing things on purpose to annoy and it takes a saint to read all your passive aggressive posts that perfectly describe your prespective and framing of whatever you think happened. But its not about us so its okay, even when you obviously knew we would read it as about us because you said so. My point is, even when its not about us, maybe you could be sensitive enough to not post something like that during the couple of days when theres so much trolling back and forth. I'm not proud of my part in it and I'll apologize for engaging. But. it. is. so. hard. not. to. But I promise I'll stop if you stop.

This is what I generally do when you don't think you are trolling me because I don't actually want to to be annoying or make you feel angry or upset. I don't go into your threads. I don't comment on your posts. I don't fake ignore you by skipping you in thread. I don't make posts about you or posts that even sound like it could be about you (unless your posts have annoyed me enough by doing the things I'm listing so I start trolling you back, which I actually hate because a troll is not who I am or who I want to be). I even put you on real ignore after the last time I got really annoyed by you so I can live in peace. But ignore doesn't work well because I can still see you reacting in threads you have no reason to be in and when you fake ignore me, other people can still see it and tell me. So yea I've been looking at your posts for the last couple of days and getting more and more annoyed.

But I actually dont like being annoyed. I don't like shading anyone. I don't enjoy any of it. And I really don't care to make you upset. Id really rather you be happy even if I don't like you. And even though I will never understand what made you so upset in the first place, I'm sorry you still are. I'm sorry if you think I ever did anything to you. I would like to just acknowledge we don't like each other but leave each other alone so no one has to be upset. I really wish you happiness and peace. Please be so kind as to consider my feelings too when you post. Thank you.
OP live your life and leave me alone. I do not respect you as a person, and you do not respect me. I posted vaguely to try and avoid calling anything out directly but maybe this will finally stop things.
I find you toxic and deceitful-your lies of omission, which so many defined as lies in this very thread, started at the beginning of our “friendship”. You have claimed it was so hard for you to not be honest but you were never were and neither was Bry, the person that was supposed to be my closest friend.
I had opened up to both of you, about so many things, even comforting you when you were upset that Bry had not told you we had been together and telling you to not be upset with him that he was still your friend and just being a ding dong. You let me do while the two of you were together having already lied once and then lying again when asked if there was anything going on between the two of you. So please do not try to claim you do not know why I was upset.

Were my emotions too big. Yes, because what I had lost was not real. I had believed that my friends were honest with me and I was shown to be wrong. It sucked. Did I blame you more than I blamed Bry? Initially, yes but I also knew he would not have told me if it wasn’t for you. But it was easier to blame you more and it allowed me to try to find a way to still be his friend.

Did I use my words in my poetry thread to sort through things? Yes, I did. Was there anger and sadness? Yes, there was. Did you and Bry come into that space and mock me, yes you did. More than once. I have reacted to you and I have instigated things but it is not one sided and the one thing I have not done is come to fight anyone else’s battles or try to pile things on like you three do. It has happened over and over.

Honestly, I don’t think about any of you except when you make it too hard to avoid you. Then yes, it comes up for me and sometimes I react or engage. You like to say I am a gaslighter and toxic but that is the pot calling the kettle black.

I skipped you in your thread. That is my most recent crime. Was it petty? It was but I also had nothing to say to you and was surprised at what the poster above you had said. I’m not excusing it, I should not have commented and I’m sorry I did it. Usually, I do my best to avoid all of you and it has meant I’ve distanced from folks I like. But I don’t pretend to have you on fake ignore and write about it all over lit. Usually i just don’t engage.

I’m not sure what threads I have “no right” reacting in or what your friends see when they have decided I am fake ignoring you. I have friends that go in lots of threads and while I avoided some threads initially it seems that it has been long enough were we that really shouldn’t be necessary.

Please stop thinking everything is about you. It’s not. I’m not trying to shade you but that does not mean I need to put up with the incessant bullying behavior of you, CCG and Bry. It is old and unnesessary.
We don’t like each other and that is fine. This is a big playground there is no reason for us to interact.

And to everyone that has been forced to see this crap unfold hopefully now that it is out in the open it can end. If I’m tired of it I can only imagine how you all feel.
 
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