Well... I think I'm finally going to do it....

[DustyWolfe]

I think I am finally going to start to transition a little between female and male. I'll never be totally male, but I'm going to do enough transition over the next few years that perhaps I will finally be more comfortable in my own body.

I mean it is my body and I should be comfortable with it. I'm not and it causes a lot of confusion for me.

I'm going to start taking Testosterone pretty soon. From there I'm not sure where I will go next. But T is a nice start.

 

[Jessalynvix]

I think I am finally going to start to transition a little between female and male. I'll never be totally male, but I'm going to do enough transition over the next few years that perhaps I will finally be more comfortable in my own body.

I mean it is my body and I should be comfortable with it. I'm not and it causes a lot of confusion for me.

I'm going to start taking Testosterone pretty soon. From there I'm not sure where I will go next. But T is a nice start.

Yes indeed and you need to do that so you are more comfortable with yourself.

I think breast reduction is what comes next.

 

[Netzach]

Go you!

I think it's important for you to find the spot you are comfortable at. Not every guy transitions "fully" physically.

Sometimes the middle is a good place to be, too. My guy takes a regimine of 'mones that places him at the more androgynous/femme side of dude, which works for him best.

Whatever you wind up doing, your own happiness is paramount. Kick ass for you going for it!

 

[girls on top]

congratulations! where abouts do you live Dustygrrl? If you're in the right part of the woods, I might know a few trans resources and communities for you. i don't know of a single trans person who isn't terrified under all the relief.

ooh but the current object of my desire is a FTM trans boi who's been transitioning for about a year. he showed me the treasure trail he's been growin under his bellybutton the other night and the jizztastic-ness of the whole experience wasn't even that i got to touch it, it was how excited he was about it being there

happy transitioning!

 

[College_geek]

Good luck with your transformation. Whatever makes you happy and comfortable is what matters. Just curious....are you going to keep your name or are you thinking if changing it? (Name in reality, of course, not Lit name.)

 

[Bitchslapper]

Dustygrrl, good luck with...whatever it is you're doing. Y'know, the thing. I forget...

But anyway, good luck with it.

 

[DustyWolfe]

Go you!

I think it's important for you to find the spot you are comfortable at. Not every guy transitions "fully" physically.

Sometimes the middle is a good place to be, too. My guy takes a regimine of 'mones that places him at the more androgynous/femme side of dude, which works for him best.

Whatever you wind up doing, your own happiness is paramount. Kick ass for you going for it!

I dont think that I will go all the way. The bottom surgery is a bit intimidating as far as I'm concerned. But most of the other stuff isn't that big of a deal.

I'm going to start taking T pretty soon, I just need to make sure I'm stable in my job first. At this moment it's not that stable. I've going to start back to taking DHEA next week at the earliest and that will increase my Testosterone naturally.

Thanks for the support, I'm way excited.

 

[DustyWolfe]

congratulations! where abouts do you live Dustygrrl? If you're in the right part of the woods, I might know a few trans resources and communities for you. i don't know of a single trans person who isn't terrified under all the relief.

ooh but the current object of my desire is a FTM trans boi who's been transitioning for about a year. he showed me the treasure trail he's been growin under his bellybutton the other night and the jizztastic-ness of the whole experience wasn't even that i got to touch it, it was how excited he was about it being there

happy transitioning!

I'm in Texas in the Austin area. I've been looking for some resources and trying to find a trans friendly doctor and therapist but I have no idea where to start.

That's awesome about your boi... I'm sure I'm going to be a hairy guy, I have a bit of mustache without the hormones lol. My body produces more Testosterone on it's own than it should.

 

[DustyWolfe]

Good luck with your transformation. Whatever makes you happy and comfortable is what matters. Just curious....are you going to keep your name or are you thinking if changing it? (Name in reality, of course, not Lit name.)

I am thinking about changing my name legally. I've got a short list of what I am considering. Dusty of course, because everyone calls me that anyways. So that's top of the list.

Dusty
Kameron
Aerin
Bailey

It will be a hard choice when the time comes lol.

 

[DustyWolfe]

Dustygrrl, good luck with...whatever it is you're doing. Y'know, the thing. I forget...

But anyway, good luck with it.

LOL thank you. I'm basically transitioning almost completely to male.

 

[thickspear]

i want to encourage you dustygirl but since i don't really know you everything i think of sounds trite..or worse..

but i'm happy for you..though it may seem like destiny to you, i think most people appreciate that it shows courage too..

i think too that if you are content with who you are then anything you decide to do has already started out well..

please keep us informed

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

Have not properly met but wanted to wish you good luck anyway. Being comfortable in one's skin is always important...

I don't think I will ever be completely comfortable in mine...

 

[DustyWolfe]

i want to encourage you dustygirl but since i don't really know you everything i think of sounds trite..or worse..

but i'm happy for you..though it may seem like destiny to you, i think most people appreciate that it shows courage too..

i think too that if you are content with who you are then anything you decide to do has already started out well..

please keep us informed

Thank you very much. It's taking a lot of courage on my part actually because I'm very nervous about how my family is going to react to this.

But your support is very much appreciated by me. I need all I can get.

 

[DustyWolfe]

Have not properly met but wanted to wish you good luck anyway. Being comfortable in one's skin is always important...

I don't think I will ever be completely comfortable in mine...

Nice to meet you. Yes, it sucks to not be comfortable with who you are.

Well, I hope that eventually you will be happy and comfortable with who you are.

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

Nice to meet you. Yes, it sucks to not be comfortable with who you are.

Well, I hope that eventually you will be happy and comfortable with who you are.

heh...my lack of comfort comes from being a bit TOO feminine (in build) as opposed to my normal thought process... (soft butch) they just don't jibe...

As for the other thing..I have seen the results (and loved a bi boi) who went 1/2 way through the process...He made a beautiful *grrl* and a very sexy boi...and he was happy with how he ended up..(as was I)...

So then, do what feels right to You..regardless of what your Fam may think...in the end it's about what sets you free and not what others want. I will be rooting for you...

 

[DustyWolfe]

heh...my lack of comfort comes from being a bit TOO feminine (in build) as opposed to my normal thought process... (soft butch) they just don't jibe...

As for the other thing..I have seen the results (and loved a bi boi) who went 1/2 way through the process...He made a beautiful *grrl* and a very sexy boi...and he was happy with how he ended up..(as was I)...

So then, do what feels right to You..regardless of what your Fam may think...in the end it's about what sets you free and not what others want. I will be rooting for you...

What you are saying makes TOTAL sense to me. My problem is I am really short... I really hate that. I was on Ritalin from age 6 to 19 and it stunted my growth... so I'm about 4 inches shorter than I should be. Not to mention fat from going off the Ritalin.


I bet your boi was very happy. The idea is as much thrilling as it is scarey.

 

[thickspear]

well...i think most people are not perfectly satisfied with who they are...and the ones who say they are satisfied don't see themselves honestly..

not to diminish the vast difference between who you know you are.. and what you see in the mirror and the way the world relates to what they see..

everyone has their griefs to bear..like a cross...some before jeering masses...

so don't let your spirits flag because while you are dragging your cross you'll come across others dragging theirs...and if it's me...let's wink and giggle..just a laugh between pilgrims

 

[DustyWolfe]

well...i think most people are not perfectly satisfied with who they are...and the ones who say they are satisfied don't see themselves honestly..

not to diminish the vast difference between who you know you are.. and what you see in the mirror and the way the world relates to what they see..

everyone has their griefs to bear..like a cross...some before jeering masses...

so don't let your spirits flag because while you are dragging your cross you'll come across others dragging theirs...and if it's me...let's wink and giggle..just a laugh between pilgrims

I know what you are saying. This is something that I knew I would do since I was like 5 years old. Up until I was near puberty I would go around with no shirt on because I wanted to be like the guys... I was messed up! lol

Well, I hope whatever your cross is that you have to bear that it's not too heavy. Mine isn't yet. Thankfully

 

[Luna_Wolf72]

What you are saying makes TOTAL sense to me. My problem is I am really short... I really hate that. I was on Ritalin from age 6 to 19 and it stunted my growth... so I'm about 4 inches shorter than I should be. Not to mention fat from going off the Ritalin.


I bet your boi was very happy. The idea is as much thrilling as it is scarey.

heh I am 5 feet tall with 34 DD breasts...

you know the type of chick that usually sports timberlands and jeans, no make-up, short hair, and STILL looks like she is gonna pop outta her clothing?? Yeah well that would be me..add the fact that I buff up easily...and I look like a little well built boi from the back ...

(Not to even talk about the festish photos I get drug into because of how I LOOK)

As for my baby boi...he looked beautiful..he was half Asian..small framed to begin with but the hormones made him softer, more curvier...he did not really grow breasts (though he wanted em) and he kept all his pertinent parts...but he was lovely..damn near hairless, slim waisted, high assed...just perfectly androgynous...and yummy...Sometimes...i REALLY miss him.

Another thing I noticed that changed was his voice...it became almost Toni Braxton like..that yummy smoky type of contralto...

 

[lark sparrow]

Pat or Patrick Califia... transgendered, SM writer. Do a search.

Here's a start: http://www.nerve.com/dispatches/scholar/patrick/main.asp

 

[DustyWolfe]

heh I am 5 feet tall with 34 DD breasts...

you know the type of chick that usually sports timberlands and jeans, no make-up, short hair, and STILL looks like she is gonna pop outta her clothing?? Yeah well that would be me..add the fact that I buff up easily...and I look like a little well built boi from the back ...

(Not to even talk about the festish photos I get drug into because of how I LOOK)

As for my baby boi...he looked beautiful..he was half Asian..small framed to begin with but the hormones made him softer, more curvier...he did not really grow breasts (though he wanted em) and he kept all his pertinent parts...but he was lovely..damn near hairless, slim waisted, high assed...just perfectly androgynous...and yummy...Sometimes...i REALLY miss him.

Another thing I noticed that changed was his voice...it became almost Toni Braxton like..that yummy smoky type of contralto...

Wow... My voice is already pretty deep... But it's going to get deeper. We shall see though right?

Yeah my breasts are bigger than I would like

 

[DustyWolfe]

Pat or Patrick Califia... transgendered, SM writer. Do a search.

Here's a start: http://www.nerve.com/dispatches/scholar/patrick/main.asp

Hey thank you, I checked that out.

 

[DustyWolfe]

update!

I went to see a wonderful doctor today. I was really nervous about it till I got into the office today and saw the myriad of colors on the walls. Every wall was painted a different bright color... It was quite rainbowish....

When I was filling out all my medical history stuff I accidentally starting filling out the male part. She laughed and said "We don't have transgender issues do we?" so I blushed and said "Yeah...." so we talked. I've been really sick since October so she was more concerned about getting me well.

I go back in three weeks and we she will run some labs and figure out which hormone I start off on and such. So I'm really excited. Though if I'm still sick we will have to put it off yet again.

I will be seeing her off of my insurance and paying out of pocket so that I don't screw myself.

 

[MzChrista]

Thats a big change to make but I lnow you got your head on straight so I am sure it will be the right thing for you.
You ought to stick with Dusty. Its a good name for Texas. You can tell people you are a cowboy!

 

[Jessalynvix]

Thats a big change to make but I lnow you got your head on straight so I am sure it will be the right thing for you.
You ought to stick with Dusty. Its a good name for Texas. You can tell people you are a cowboy!

Yes indeed and I think we are leading towards Dusty since everyone calls her that anyways.

Yep it is a big change but we will work it out for it will be a slow one.