Weekend depression: akin to sub/top drop?

[Cirrus]

Ever since school started I've been getting in this damn MOOD every weekend. I lean toward the pessimistic normally, but I'm actually an upbeat pessimist, if that makes any sense. I'm usually in good spirits, but when anticipating an outcome of a situation, I lean toward the negative.

Anyway, this mood, this thing, has been leaning toward the paranoid when it happens. A friend is 2 minutes late calling me back? She hates me. My boyfriend is 2 minutes late calling me back? It's over, he's fucking another woman. The whole world sucks and everything in it.

But now I think I figured out what it is. It's weekend depression. At least that's what I've dubbed it. My weeks are BUSY!!! I have 9 credits in college plus a full time job. I'm also a peer tutor once a week. I routinely pull 12 hour days, often more.

On the weekend, though, it all stops...like that. As jazzed as I've been all week, talking to people and doing things, it's just *poof* done. And that's why I crash into this dour mood. Kinda like dropping after a scene, I would figure (although THAT hasn't happened to me to a serious degree).

Sound reasonable? Anyone else go through anything similar?

 

[serijules]

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Anyway, this mood, this thing, has been leaning toward the paranoid when it happens. A friend is 2 minutes late calling me back? She hates me. My boyfriend is 2 minutes late calling me back? It's over, he's fucking another woman. The whole world sucks and everything in it.

Sound reasonable? Anyone else go through anything similar?

I go through this any time I visit my friends or they visit me, even if it's not for a playdate (although it usually is). I own a business and do a lot of freelance computer work besides that, and the nature of my business is very time consuming and keeps me home a lot...thus, I have very few friends in my area. Whenever I get together with my friends face to face, it brings the reality of how smothering my chosen profession can be on my social life sometimes, and when we part company, I'm left feeling much like you described above for days, even weeks afterwards, especially the paranoid part.

I wouldn't really classify it as sub-drop either because most of these said friends are people I play rather casually with, so it is something different than that (although how I react is much the same as how I react in subdrop too..) but this reaction seems so much more unreasonable to me. I can understand that after the intensity of a scene or weekend with someone that I submit to, that pushes my limits...how I would be more vulnerable to those feelings, but after just playing casually or hanging out with friends, it always frustrates me to feel and act that way.

After awhile of nothing changing (no instances of them suddenly hating me, ignoring me, not wanting to meet anymore, etc) I grow out of it. Guess it's a defense mechanism as a result of all the times I have been hurt by so-called friends.

 

[artful]

Sound reasonable? Anyone else go through anything similar?

Dream does!