Vana

[FallingToFly]

I can add nothing but tears. For your strength and sorrow, for her grace and enduring spirit. I never cry, because it just makes me feel worse, but for you, in the last few weeks, I have cried more than I thought possible.

Peace be with you, and my love and sympathy is with you. I wish I had the power to perform miracles, and make all of this a passing dream, and everything perfect. Because that is what you deserve.

to you Vana.

 

[rgraham666]

*HUGS* Vana. That's all I can do.

 

[Roxanne Appleby]

I am humbled. For once I am speechless.

Vana -

Vella -

 

[cloudy]

I love both of you, Vana & Vella. I can't offer an "I know how you feel" because I absolutely don't, but I still hurt for both of you.

 

[feeeriek]

*because words can not express...*

 

[Samandiriel]

Is it possible to love you any more than I already do?

 

[SEVERUSMAX]

Everyone here cares about you and is thinking of you. Just a reminder.

 

[S-Des]

I always wanted a child, but was getting too old and was running out of time. Then it happened by accident. Every day, I felt like I was on pins & needles, afraid to hope that she'd be OK, she'd be perfect, she'd be my little girl. I was incredibly lucky that she went through the pregnancy all right. That she was born healthy (despite the moronic doctor telling us she had Downs Syndrome). That she has grown up as the most amazing, loving child I could have possibly dreamed of having.

I thank God every day that my one chance turned out so well. So I can only remember the months of nightmares about what I was afraid could happen to possibly understand (even a little). I'm more sorry than I can possibly express. I can't understand, but I swear if I was there, I'd give you the biggest hug you've ever had. I wish there was a way to do more.

 

[Nirvanadragones]

I always wanted a child, but was getting too old and was running out of time. Then it happened by accident. Every day, I felt like I was on pins & needles, afraid to hope that she'd be OK, she'd be perfect, she'd be my little girl. I was incredibly lucky that she went through the pregnancy all right. That she was born healthy (despite the moronic doctor telling us she had Downs Syndrome). That she has grown up as the most amazing, loving child I could have possibly dreamed of having.

I thank God every day that my one chance turned out so well. So I can only remember the months of nightmares about what I was afraid could happen to possibly understand (even a little). I'm more sorry than I can possibly express. I can't understand, but I swear if I was there, I'd give you the biggest hug you've ever had. I wish there was a way to do more.

In the NICU I learnt to redefine a " healthy baby". There, a parents' love, and hope goes beyond any kind of disability or abnormality. It's about survival - our strongest desire as human beings.

I heard endless prayers of " I have faith in you" . It was beautiful.

Everyone here cares about you and is thinking of you. Just a reminder.

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Is it possible to love you any more than I already do?

​

 

[Nirvanadragones]

I can add nothing but tears. For your strength and sorrow, for her grace and enduring spirit. I never cry, because it just makes me feel worse, but for you, in the last few weeks, I have cried more than I thought possible.

Peace be with you, and my love and sympathy is with you. I wish I had the power to perform miracles, and make all of this a passing dream, and everything perfect. Because that is what you deserve.

​

Your tears are healing.​

I am humbled. For once I am speechless.

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I love both of you, Vana & Vella. I can't offer an "I know how you feel" because I absolutely don't, but I still hurt for both of you.

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*because words can not express...*

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*HUGS* Vana. That's all I can do.

​

More than enough, thank you.​

 

[Belegon]

I'm not pouncing anyone...too many of my beloved ones are hurting...but I will take your hand, bring it to my cheek and then touch my forehead to yours and finally embrace you softly but with strength...

I adore seeing you online again, milady...and I am still thinking of you throughout my days...

 

[Nirvanadragones]

I'm not pouncing anyone...too many of my beloved ones are hurting...but I will take your hand, bring it to my cheek and then touch my forehead to yours and finally embrace you softly but with strength...

I adore seeing you online again, milady...and I am still thinking of you throughout my days...

And I believe I owe you a " snog*

 

[damppanties]

 

[Nirvanadragones]

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[Belegon]

And I believe I owe you a " snog*

gladly accepted and returned..

now I'd best be writing...must move this along more tonight.

 

[Just-Legal]

I haven't been through this hell... but had a taste. I've always been cursed with heavy and irregular periods, so at first I didn't think anything of it, but when the clots started coming I knew something was wrong.

I still remember the Doctor telling me she was sorry... And being so confused as to why, and then the sudden, awful, sick realisation that I hadn't known I was even pregnant, and already what would have been my first was gone. I cried for what felt like days, and I know now that was the day I left my ex in my heart, because all he could say, was "well its gone now".

That one taste hurt in so many ways.

Gods Vana, you have more strength than I can imagine, or ever hope to have.

 

[deathlynx]

Much love surrounds you Vana...You will not be allowed to forget that any more than you should forget the experience or the precious, if too brief, gift...

 

[TE999]

Vana:

My heart goes out to you, dear lady.

I was profoundly moved by your remembrance of your daughters last moments of life.

I cannot comprehend the sorrow you must feel.

I can offer my deepest condolences for your loss.

May the healing hands of time ease the ache in your heart and the pain in your soul.

Peace.

Tom (TE999).

 

[deathlynx]

Crosspost from Mood thread...

I'm smiling

My day started off with:

Dear .........,

I am writing to you on behalf of the Organising Committee of 14th
International Conference on Learning. Your proposal has now been
reviewed, and I am pleased to be able to inform you that it has been accepted for
inclusion in the conference program.

This means back to work for me. I mean real work. As in at the office. . . and getting up in the morning at like 5: 30 am to start my day. I havn't done that in months. Correction - I havn't been to my office since November last year

The routine will be good for me, but I do know I still need time to heal, and time to adjust to my new meds. So I'll give myself till end of December, and work from home. Then it's back to work.

I'm looking forward to it - the Conference holds many benifits for us, particularly on a new HIV/ AIDS program we have been working on. My hands are burning to pick up a pencil and start designing.

I wish you all a beautiful day

Congratulations Vana!
What was the proposal for?

 

[Nosferatuness]

Fantastic news!

 

[feeeriek]

 

[SEVERUSMAX]

In the NICU I learnt to redefine a " healthy baby". There, a parents' love, and hope goes beyond any kind of disability or abnormality. It's about survival - our strongest desire as human beings.

I heard endless prayers of " I have faith in you" . It was beautiful.

​

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Still thinking of you, dear Vana. Very happy that something good has happened to cheer you up. It sounds like this conference work is exactly what you need right now. HUSG.

 

[FallingToFly]

 

[damppanties]

 

[JRaven]