Unsent Messages to Him/Her

[ethereal~minx]

*wrapping my arms around you, holding you warmly against me* I love you baybee.. I am sorry this is a difficult day for you... I heard you when you said it is not about me.. I know this is much much bigger, and I know you are not where (in the big scheme of things) you truly want to be.. I know there is an ache in your heart, an emptiness in your soul that is calling you to "your home," "your joy," (seebelowfor definition of these) and you will show up there.. .. know that this will happen baybee..


"your home/joy" = working w/ earth, animals, on a mountain, w/ your chosen career, w/ your soulmate, w/ your beautiful daughter .... all things you want in your life

 

[ethereal~minx]

would Your voice take away
the nausea i feel
if i heard Your voice
would it be here still
is it my nerves
causing this stir
is this my body
reacting to blur
am i clinging to belief
am i proving misperception
am i really strong
or is it self-deception
i will get through this
i do have the strength!
regardless ofwhat comes
im keeping what i've gained
i'll ride this wave
i will not reach for You
You cannot cure this sickness
this i must do!
i have the answers
they will come in time
this pain won't last long
by faith i will abide
i'm earning respect for myself
i'm learning to trust in me
impetuous insolence aside
one day this will cease
i'd like to say NOW
but now is it certain
to say without a doubt
..it's a matter of perception
we are all human
it's our intention that is heard
above all that is perceived
it will stand understood

 

[ethereal~minx]

when we began, it was as true friends without pretense or guile~~ with total admiration for who we both were individually and when two become a " " relationship somehow the dynamic changes.. you know? like you begin seeing bindings around eachother, invisible ropes and then thin veils of unmet expectations get built up between you and then.... resentments build & then... words get unspoken..or they do but they're misunderstood... you forget you're there because you truly want to be there... because of the ropes, the trappings ... and then one is emotionally charged and the other is emotionally challenged and then the decision is to break free from the chains..... to save the relationship

to be friends again
will it work?
yes it will work
we will be friends
always, in love
for eachother
as soulmates?
that is left to heaven : ) ... because when you hold onto something to tightly, it has a tendency to crush or get hurt


so~~~ I surrender to divine guidance on this one... I KNOW all is well and there is LOVE!!!!!!!because that is truly

ALL THERE IS

 

[ethereal~minx]

I do not want to know that you notice my well being. my well being is very well.......and contrary to what you have believed from the beginning of our relationship, my well being has never been dependent upon validation from you.

in relationships there is something called interdependence... my well being has never been twisted around NEEDING anything from you!!!! OUR well-being has!!!

please don't email me it hurts.

 

[ethereal~minx]

You know, ---oh I don't know ...what can I say? Yeah, I've been caught up in my head lately... I believe in Love, above all else I do

the new love feelings, the un-believable overwhelming passion, You know those feelings I describe...those feelings don't have to go away, ever... they can remain throughout an entire relationship for all eternity~~ do You believe that? I do. there must be a committment to LOVE above all else though, and when that is true, it WILL prevail and LOVE will be sooo powerful & fulfilling, ohhhhh GOD!!!
edited to add that any and all obstacles that are so frozed and deep can be melted or thawed & worked out... because if you always follow your heart (LOVE/innate moving spirit of LOVE in all of us) You will NEVER fail and you will NEVER be sorry!!!!!!!!!

You're in my heart, my thoughts
sending love to blanket You in Angels warmth tonight~

 

[ethereal~minx]

Life is just too short to settle for less than what I want and I want it ALL!!! I had it all once and I'll have it again~~

so, You! if You're getting these messages~~ this is MY life!! I can find sex anywhere! I'm about trust & Love, LOVEMAKING, skin on skin, heart to heart...

Your mistrust has made me feel like a yo yo and I'm not crying about it anymore~~

I'm not a yo yo
I'm alive and I'm love
and I'm your friend
my wish is that you'll see this & trust... but either way, I'll remain as always, Your friend

ladda
*remembering our thoughts manifest our reality! must be mindful, mindful, mindful, heartful, heartful, heartful!!!!!!*
to you!

 

[ethereal~minx]

I wish I wish
with all my might
to feel the arms
of warmth all night
to hear the beat
and feel the swell
to blah blah blah blah blah blah blah
it is so welcoming a thought
I thought I'd tell you


I know these dreams
will come true
I just wish
they could be with you
I feel so much
for the man inside
the initimate~loving man
you ferociously hide

 

[ethereal~minx]

Are you tired of all those stupid, mushy "friendship" poems that always sound good but never actually come close to reality? Well, here is a series of promises that really speaks to true friendship!

1. When you are sad, ...I will get you drunk and will help you plot revenge against the sorry bastard who made you sad.



2. When you are blue, ...I'll try to dislodge whatever is choking you.

3. When you smile, ...I'll know you finally got laid.

4. When you are scared, ...I will rag you about it every chance I get.

5. When you are worried, ...I will tell you horrible stories about how
much worse it could be and to quit whining.

6. When you are confused, ...I will use little words to explain.

7. When you are sick, ...stay away from me until you're well again. I don't want whatever you have.

8. When you fall, ...I will point and laugh at your clumsy ass.

This is my oath, I pledge 'til the end. Why you may ask?
Because you're my friend!

Send this to all of your closest friends and get depressed because you can only think of two, and one of them is not speaking to you right now anyway.

Remember: A friend will help you move. A really good friend will help you move a body.

Let me know if I ever need to bring a shovel.

 

[ethereal~minx]

for the misgivings & misunderstandings & hurt feelings & the reactions~ my hearts intention is never to hurt you
my ego maybe but never my heart

I love you and I will never betray your trust! and if you believe I have or ever do, please speak to me... please don't make assumptions... please remember my intention is never to do so

if you lose your peace, if you get upset or feel negative or vengeful toward me please, please be strong and talk to me~~ it may hurt me and it may not be easy for you, you may feel vulnerable w/ your feelings but please know I have only LOVE in my heart for you and ALWAYS HAVE!!!!!

I love you and you can always trust me
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


I do, but when things are bad between us I begin to wonder
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~


of course I'll get the title for you. Never would I not. Do you trust me?

 

[ethereal~minx]

Sep 26 - Oct 9
Focus
New diplomacy. ~~I am focused on developing a new tact in dealing w/ others, a new sensitivity so as not to arouse defensiveness

Test
Recognize the real meaning of what is being said!!! ~~my new tact will be tested because I am trying to also to recognize the real meaning of what is being said

Key
What we admire in another is a reflection of the best in ourselves. ~~I WILL recognize the real meaning of what is being said if I remember that what I admire in another is a reflection of the best inside of me!!!

Action
You ease into a new partnership and discover new ways of communicating with diplomacy instead of ego.

 

[ethereal~minx]

ah, and for cancer

As we turn the pages of time,
we discover hidden mysteries
and triumphs in each new chapter.
Flavia

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Now you know what you have to do
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
?
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Well--sounds good
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I don't want you to think I'm making anything up....here's the link to the horoscope I was talking about : )
> http://www.inlightimes.com/astrology/cancer.htm
by the way, here's what the terms mean:

Focus defines what you will find yourself focused on during this time.
Test is the issue which will test your focus.
Key is a little gemstone which can help you pass the test if you will use it.
Action Is the outcome of what you do at this time.

Sep 26 - Oct 9
Focus
One on one relationships.

Test (this is the ISSUE that is testing your one on one relationships)
Be fair not dominant.

Key
Peace and harmony arrive when antique attitudes of who's the boss leave.

Action
Your ideas of dignity and respect challenge an important relationship. Will you open to a new way of relating to another?. .

 

[ethereal~minx]

Holy Trinity~~ the 3 Pyramids~~ Orion~~ pi~~
mind, heart, spirit~~ spine~~ pyramids & the Nile
ohhh questions questions questions

 

[ethereal~minx]

harem, huh? ~~and i just realized i've not been hearing You
i really don't believe i would like that
communion~~ perhaps, i don't know... hmmm, i'll have to explore that one w/ an open mind

yeah, i just don't believe i can have a true heart connection with a person that *hmmm*

i don't think two people can have a true love/heart/mind connection/communion if they are also fucking other people..... hmmm~~ maybe, i mean~ i know it's out of my integrity to have sex with someone just to get off (expect for certain times in my very very distant single fun party-days past)

and it's not You either, You're not shallow~ you're not into superficial relationships~~ so

can people have "that" connection with more than one person, at the SAME time????

 

[ethereal~minx]

i see that love is the higher truth
my love your You leaves me bruised
my heart aches to feel your touch
tell me do you remember that love

do you know you throw me away
each and each and every day
i give and i give and i want nothing back
together i feel i'm under attack

i say again love is the higher truth
no! i'm not really alone and abused
i know your intention is not to hurt me
your thoughtless words they burn and they sting

again i say No! love is the higher truth
stop reacting as if you're abused
nobody can hurt you unless you allow
but my tears come back each and every tomorrow

my angels are strong and guide my way
keeping me from the pain of every day
my mind continues to do what it wants
because i know I KNOW blah blah blah blah blah blah

so we "talk" to satisfy yourself
then you cut me off--leave me in Hell
i say again love is the higher truth
my tears fall down my heart is abused

 

[ethereal~minx]

i say again love is the higher truth
overlooking my heart that is so bruised
i smile with love to see your eyes
the divine heart loving the one you hide

over and over we replay the days
always the same--the sceneries change
i look for the reason i choose this fight
i believe in the love in which i write

Love IS the higher truth
but not at this expense
so many times misunderstood
LOVE is my ONLY INTENT

trust & sex go hand in hand
communion sacred promised land
without one the other is lost
now we both pay the cost

but damnit love
IS the higher truth
i want to go see you
& hear "I LOVE YOU"
but i'm the only one
to express this truth
i don't want to be hurt
mistreated or abused

i'm sobbing at this realization
it's so painful to see
i've did this in the name of love
but what about me

i love you
i love you
i love you -my intentions are clear
i want to be with you
beyond time right here
i want our shared/common
dreams to all come true
each and every one of them WITH YOU
i know in my heart
you want the same thing
you show me you love me
without saying a thing
it's the words that
you do say
that get in the way

 

[ethereal~minx]

my angels will keep me in good grace
i will not hide when i see your face
but it's time for me to go without saying goodbye
or again i'll get wrapped up in your magic blue eyes


yes! love is the higher truth
TRUE loving communion will come to be
i will never stop loving you~
but now my angels are guiding me

I LOVE YOU

 

[ethereal~minx]

Faith Hill

Baby tell me where'd you ever learn
To fight without sayin' a word
Then waltz back into my life
Like it's all gonna be alright
Don't you know how much it hurts

When we don't talk
When we don't touch
When it doesn't feel like we're even in love
It matters to me
When I don't know what to say
Don't know what to do
Don't know if it really even matters to you
How can I make you see
It matters to me

Maybe I still don't understand
The distance between a woman and a man
So tell me how far it is
And how you can love like this
'Cause I'm not sure I can

When we don't talk
When we don't touch
When it doesn't feel like we're even in love
It matters to me
When I don't know what to say
Don't know what to do
Don't know if it really even matters to you
How can I make you see
It matters to me

 

[ethereal~minx]

nope nothing wrong with being alone
but when you're with someone~
when you do have a friend
there is no need to ever be
and if you are
you need to look inside
and find
what is right
and weigh all
and decide
is the friend a friend
after all?

I've said so many times before
I am choosing to close the door
the last time I did I was weak
I have to choose now
your good
or me

I'd rather have a heart to heart
was a connection even there at the start
no, I won't second guess what was there
I know the depth of love that we shared
that is the very love I've held on
somewhere for some reason that love is gone
I can't keep saying it'll come back again
I fall deeper & only you win

as I say again Logan, you know the depths of my heart
I have loved you ~ you've known this from the start
this will not change and I thank God for you
but my heart is saying to my own heart be true

I wish you could too

 

[Nomar69dragon]

WOW is all i can say...

Erthnal Minx and vixenshe are by far dam good poets and wrtie with flare and heart. I was entranced with the feelings behined those poems and writeings. I can but say there are some ver talented people on this site and i am proud to be apart of it in some small way. I talked to one other with yahoo chat and she told me this site was a close knit community with good frienships going on here. I can't bragg about anything until i have my own woman with me but i can sure make friends with you guys if you want. The minds here are just amazing. I never felt so welcome going to a web site before and my subby look at me with concern as i write this. hehe they did not read what was posted yet they are to tied up at the momuent but they will. I need to ask a question to how do you guys find those sexy little pics and put them on your posts? hehe i must be clueeless about that.
Thanks for the mind muchies you guys write.
Nomar69
Oh on Yahoo i am Nomar6969dragon them bums would not let me have my handle (grumbles at yahoo)

 

[Nomar69dragon]

WOW is all i can say...

Erthnal Minx and vixenshe are by far dam good poets and wrtie with flare and heart. I was entranced with the feelings behined those poems and writeings. I can but say there are some ver talented people on this site and i am proud to be apart of it in some small way. I talked to one other with yahoo chat and she told me this site was a close knit community with good frienships going on here. I can't bragg about anything until i have my own woman with me but i can sure make friends with you guys if you want. The minds here are just amazing. I never felt so welcome going to a web site before and my subby look at me with concern as i write this. hehe they did not read what was posted yet they are to tied up at the momuent but they will. I need to ask a question to how do you guys find those sexy little pics and put them on your posts? hehe i must be clueeless about that.
Thanks for the mind muchies you guys write.
Nomar69
Oh on Yahoo i am Nomar6969dragon them bums would not let me have my handle (grumbles at yahoo)
HI Lunar

 

[ethereal~minx]

Re: WOW is all i can say...

Erthnal Minx and vixenshe are by far dam good poets and wrtie with flare and heart. I was entranced with the feelings behined those poems and writeings. I can but say there are some ver talented people on this site and i am proud to be apart of it in some small way. I talked to one other with yahoo chat and she told me this site was a close knit community with good frienships going on here. I can't bragg about anything until i have my own woman with me but i can sure make friends with you guys if you want. The minds here are just amazing. I never felt so welcome going to a web site before and my subby look at me with concern as i write this. hehe they did not read what was posted yet they are to tied up at the momuent but they will. I need to ask a question to how do you guys find those sexy little pics and put them on your posts? hehe i must be clueeless about that.
Thanks for the mind muchies you guys write.
Nomar69
Oh on Yahoo i am Nomar6969dragon them bums would not let me have my handle (grumbles at yahoo)
HI Lunar

thanks for the compliment Nomar69, interesting name btw~~~
and I agree, vix is beautiful!

I have to agree also with what you were told though I have no personal knowledge or experience w/ the friendships here... people are however very kind and generous..

have fun!

 

[ethereal~minx]

march 03 revisited

shameful rouge
exposing fear
fear that ohhhh
of the unknown
pulse quickens
pain begins
look inside
faith within
too busy for a moment of time
i understand i am blind
heart knows not why
practical mind
logic pervades
fears bind
tables turning
black widow He
venomous bite
torments she
now afraid
last nights dream
spider crawling
above the knee
to its kill
up the thigh
she struggles to free
the fear strikes
no longer a dream
the spider is real
it's venomous bite
no longer concealed
to perceive the light
its clouded in darkness
stormy and wet
perfect for spider
to get and to get
feeding off warmth
will she regret
providing a sacred place
for the spider to forget

will I ever learn????

 

[ethereal~minx]

march 03 revisited

shameful rouge
exposing fear
fear that ohhhh
of the unknown
pulse quickens
pain begins
look inside
faith within
too busy for a moment of time
i understand i am blind
heart knows not why
practical mind
logic pervades
fears bind
tables turning
black widow He
venomous bite
torments she
now afraid
last nights dream
spider crawling
above the knee
to its kill
up the thigh
she struggles to free
the fear strikes
no longer a dream
the spider is real
it's venomous bite
no longer concealed
to perceive the light
its clouded in darkness
stormy and wet
perfect for spider
to get and to get
feeding off warmth
will she regret
providing a sacred place
for the spider to forget

will I ever learn???? the spider's bite stings on Mondays, not Fridays... every Monday! and back & forth all week~~
strength strength strength love love love love
to your own heart be true!!!! what's it going to take???
"..lie cheat and steal..." "are you a black widow?"
were those clues given sooo long ago?
will I ever know
*slap*
what are ya, stoopid?
@ self!!!!!

 

[ethereal~minx]

that's all it took~~ March revisited~~
to be told that was the plan
the other girl
all along

ahhh, thank you very much!

so where are my angels now???

 

[ethereal~minx]

figure it out~ I don't want to hear you say I told you so
I don't need you to confirm to me the last thing I heard you say

regarding your intentions all along just so it can help you feel better.

it will not make me feel better to listen to you
if what you have to talk about is along these same lines, or something
less personal like "get your bookcase, or will you help me get the title"
you can do that here, in email

as far as I'm concerned, time spent in your presence is time wasted and only
self-fulfilling to YOU.

so again, if you have something to talk about~ let me know and it can be at 4