*True Confessions*

[Batch]

sunday confessional

* was walking out of my bedroom with some dishes.....not looking where I was going and.....
smakc, crack...my little pinkie toe is a big fucking purple bruise.....I think I broke it
* have ice on it as I write
*it doesn't want to move....
and now will not curse fluently

 

[redelicious]

Thank you Red... Some parts of life just suck right now...I have myself very stressed and need to sleep but just can't..All I want to do is cry..And I know that does not help any..And yes he does love me.. Thank you Red for being my friend..You are so kind to me..I am very lucky to have you in my life!

Oh Sweetie, I'm the lucky one

Ok, I want you to just relax and take care of yourself a bit. You deserve it. No need to loose sleep. If you can't sleep, read a book, watch some TV, or stay up and chat awhile. Agonizing about it will just make it worse (I am a true insomniac and have learned from lots and lots of experience).



Red

 

[wildone28]

Re: sunday confessional

* was walking out of my bedroom with some dishes.....not looking where I was going and.....
smakc, crack...my little pinkie toe is a big fucking purple bruise.....I think I broke it
* have ice on it as I write
*it doesn't want to move....
and now will not curse fluently

Sorry hon...That hurts like hell when it happens..I hope that you did not break it..you might need to go to the Dr..

 

[redelicious]

Re: sunday confessional

* was walking out of my bedroom with some dishes.....not looking where I was going and.....
smakc, crack...my little pinkie toe is a big fucking purple bruise.....I think I broke it
* have ice on it as I write
*it doesn't want to move....
and now will not curse fluently

Oh no!!!!!!
(has personally broken 4 toes - 1 more than once - walking into doors or dropping things on them)

Red

 

[wildone28]

Oh Sweetie, I'm the lucky one

Ok, I want you to just relax and take care of yourself a bit. You deserve it. No need to loose sleep. If you can't sleep, read a book, watch some TV, or stay up and chat awhile. Agonizing about it will just make it worse (I am a true insomniac and have learned from lots and lots of experience).



Red

x 12

I am trying to relax now..just surfing the net for a few and then going to try to go to bed again..hopefully I will just drift on to sleep..

 

[wildone28]

Think I will go ahead and hit the bed and read in my book I started the other day...Thank you red and Batch for being here for me to cry on your shoulders!!! *hugs* to the both of you!!

 

[Batch]

sunday continued

* am not drinking tonight
got work
*am refusing to put my night gown on and will remain in my bath robe with wet hair as long as I please
*i will get to bed earlier tonight..........
* he called this morning and he is not angry with me...whew...


*the place I work for has not sent out the new contracts.......yet
* i will not accept anything lower than step two......
*if the contract comes with step one on it I will not go to work until it is fix
* will need help being firm on this one....
* sent my 15 year old to his room again, second time today......
* that kid!
i tried to clean off my desk today
* sort of did it but......alas it is still unreachable but cleaner on the top

 

[redelicious]

Think I will go ahead and hit the bed and read in my book I started the other day...Thank you red and Batch for being here for me to cry on your shoulders!!! *hugs* to the both of you!!

{{{{{Wildone}}}}}

Sleep well

 

[TantaLiza]

Re: AV Tantalising

Love the new av, Liza.

Thanks for the compliment...my special friend found it for me...

Liza

 

[Batch]

Re: Re: sunday confessional

Sorry hon...That hurts like hell when it happens..I hope that you did not break it..you might need to go to the Dr..

naw i do this at least once a year....and they don't do nothing for it...lololo

 

[Don K Dyck]

Confessions for a Sunday night...

* Spent day with family (mom, brother..) always leaves me feeling irritated and worthless, and then guilty for feeling that way.

* My Dr. diagnosed me with bi-polar disorder 2 weeks ago - makes me feel even worse?!?

* Found lumps in breast - both half sisters had breast cancer, one died, one is still alive (I'm terrified) Hubby can't cope with being worried - gets all "I need to be alone" - doesn't help me at all. I'm only 28 - Hopes it's just too much caffine??

* Guy who used to make me feel wonderful, happy, beautiful, smart and funny just told me that we can't "be" anymore.

* Feel bad because I don't seem to have anything positive to say right now and I don't want to bring anyone down, but I needed to get it out to someone, somewhere.

*Thanks you all for listening!

Hi Samananthak,

Can certainly understand your position, but being new here, I have been surprised by the huge support that people get at Lit.

Big C I know nothing about, fortunately. However, there is an Australian former vet, Ian Gawler, who has achieved extraordinary results with deep meditation. I have been fortunate enough to meet this inspirational man.

But Bipolar or MD I have researched. Seems to be related to the supply or utilisation of the vitamnin B complex and an undersupply for high individual needs due to any of a number of factors, especially if you are lefthanded.

I successfully dampened the mood swings with 4 - 6 grams per day of vitamin B complex supplemented by micro-nutrients. Another Australian remedy is Lithium carbonate. Frontal lobotomy is generally considered a little extreme.

Diet is extemely important. A swing to raw foods and eliminating white sugar, caffiene (ouch!! still trying to do that) and fast food has been shown to work in Ca.

Best wishes, you have many friends at Lit.

Don

 

[Batch]

Re: Re: sunday confessional

Oh no!!!!!!
(has personally broken 4 toes - 1 more than once - walking into doors or dropping things on them)

Red

I have broken both the big toes at least twice
and have broken this little toe
at least three times
just love the bruising.....
thank you God for ice!

 

[Batch]

Think I will go ahead and hit the bed and read in my book I started the other day...Thank you red and Batch for being here for me to cry on your shoulders!!! *hugs* to the both of you!!

being the addict I am I am usually here in the evenings and you can PM me whenever you want to , okay?
and there is always the email...
hugs to you
hope that sleep finds you soon

 

[Don K Dyck]

Welcome Back

thanks Liza, nice new AV. so, I hear ya'll been worried about me huh?

Sorry if I spooked ya a bit.

Hey Naded! Great that your back on air!! Tret yourslf kind, man.

 

[redelicious]

Re: Re: Re: sunday confessional

naw i do this at least once a year....and they don't do nothing for it...lololo

Yeah, they usually just tape my toes together and charge me a bunch. The last time I didn't go though and now my toe is a bit funny looking. Oh well

Red

 

[Batch]

Re: Re: Re: Re: sunday confessional

Yeah, they usually just tape my toes together and charge me a bunch. The last time I didn't go though and now my toe is a bit funny looking. Oh well

Red

Yeah I guess I will tape them together...soon.....thank you for reminding me that I needed to do that

 

[TantaLiza]

Sunday night confession...

It's great to have so many new editions to our little family!!! Welcum....confession and friendship is good for the soul!!!

Now for mine...

*is very disgusted with myself for allowing someone to take advantage of me again....

*often secretly wonders how pathetic my family, sis in particular, thinks that I am....

*wonders how much longer before I fall apart...

*is so glad that I met my new special friend...

*got domestic and cooked today...margarita pie, pasta salad with fresh veggies...

*is so glad I only have to work 2 days this week....vacation here I come!!

*can't seem to sleep well anymore...

*inadvertantly hurt someone today...

*is feeling very depressed...

*doesn't like to admit the above...

*always feels alone in a room full of people...

*is hoping that Jewelz and Phe are having the time of their lives...

*is hoping that Naded will have a speedy recovery....and the nurses will be able to keep him comfortable....

*caught herself listening for the phone to ring....

*is ready for life to change for the better....

*loves her child and family so much it hurts...

*wishes that her closest of friends didn't live so far away...miss them terribly!!

*hopes that my daughter won't lie like a certain teenager she just encountered...

*is hoping and praying that everyone is doing well....


Take care all....

....more to cum....maybe tomorrow....

Liza

 

[Don K Dyck]

Re: sunday continued

* am not drinking tonight
got work
*am refusing to put my night gown on and will remain in my bath robe with wet hair as long as I please
*i will get to bed earlier tonight..........
* he called this morning and he is not angry with me...whew...
* still am not sure if i will stay away from my special friend on Tuesday ..night....damn...if I try and pull a three hour session with him I will be absolutely dead at work on Wednesday
* am getting to old and tired to play all night
*the place I work for has not sent out the new contracts.......yet
* i will not accept anything lower than step two......
*if the contract comes with step one on it I will not go to work until it is fix
* will need help being firm on this one....
* sent my 15 year old to his room again, second time today......
* that kid!
i tried to clean off my desk today
* sort of did it but......alas it is still unreachable but cleaner on the top
* tried to listen to that Neil Young song..but I got ..emotional.......missing L.... won't ever see him again

. . . and another achievement the BIG HUNDRED 100 !!! Time for an avatar!!

 

[samanthak1721]

Don - thanks, I've been pretty good about the caffine - Dr. told me to cut down when we found the lumps - I went from about 7 Mountain dews a day to 1 coke - lots of water!! That was hard, but I survived it (with a few headaches!)
Vitamin B Complex - as in pill supplements or specific foods high in Vitamin B? I'm not very educated in the ways of vitamins and such, so any more info you could give me would be appreciated (esp. w/ the Bi-p)

 

[Batch]

Re: Re: sunday continued

. . . and another achievement the BIG HUNDRED 100 !!! Time for an avatar!!

Oh, Luv,
and if you could see this big grin on my face....
am out shopping for my avatar as I write

 

[TantaLiza]

Re: Re: Re: sunday confessional

naw i do this at least once a year....and they don't do nothing for it...lololo

I'm the same way...with my right ankle and my toes....just finished some PT and it's still not right...oh well...age I guess...

Liza

 

[Don K Dyck]

MD and ADD

Don - thanks, I've been pretty good about the caffine - Dr. told me to cut down when we found the lumps - I went from about 7 Mountain dews a day to 1 coke - lots of water!! That was hard, but I survived it (with a few headaches!)
Vitamin B Complex - as in pill supplements or specific foods high in Vitamin B? I'm not very educated in the ways of vitamins and such, so any more info you could give me would be appreciated (esp. w/ the Bi-p)

Hi Samanthak,

In order,

1. A great achievement with caffiene, the three day withdrawal headaches are a bitch, but worth it. I once got off caffiene by intention and had the most extraordinary six weeks until I made the mistake of having a coffee, then boing! down again. The only way is cold turkey - but its worth it.

2. I use a <vitamin B complex plus micronutrients> pill supplement and discovered by trial & error that my individual needs in the stressful environment I choose to be in were 5 - 6 gm per day rather than the 500 mg (1/2 gm) recommended by manufacturer. B-group vitamins work as a group, not individually like vitamin C and A. Furthermore, B-group are water soluble and so you cannot overdose because it is excreted in fluids. But I took the levels up slowly, and did it deliberately because I am a cantankerous "need to know" ADD person.

3. Caffiene destroys the vitamin B supply or intake or function. Low Vitamin B "causes" stress or is present when stressed. MD mood swings occur when vitamin B levels low. Also an out of balance diet exaccerbates the situation.

4. MD and ADD are treated with the same drugs but at different dose levels. Therefore to a trained research worker like myself, you think that there may be alink between these two behaviour expressions. Actress Patty Duke wrote about her MD experience in "A Briliant Madness - Living with Manic-Depressive Illness", 1992, Bantam paperback.

As we all know the highs are exhilerating and the lows are the pits!!! Funy though, when you moderate the swings, life has a different perspective.

5. There has been little research on vitamin B and the necessary dosage levels because you cannot patent the vitamin. But Ruth Adams & Frank Murray wrote "Body, Mind and the B Vitamins" 1972, Larchmont Books NY. Also the Lithium treatment was described by Ronald Fieve in "Moodswing", 1976, Bantam paperback. We had a book shop for many years so I collected them, but you may be able to get them at Amazon or a good secondhand bookshop.

Best wishes, Don

 

[samanthak1721]

Thank you, Don - I'm definately going to look into this -
I'm so glad I stumbled into this site/thread - everyone is so kind!

 

[Batch]

I confess that I am notw going to go to the story index and try and find somehting...to .......ummmmm..........relax.....me......lololo
see you all tomorrow
nighty night

 

[ShiningEyes]

Doesn't quite feel like me, but I am here.

Hey there. Sorry I missed your entrance. I'm really glad you are home or where you can get on to say hello. Have been worried about you!!! You are in my thoughts and prayers, sweetie!!!!!!

And I'm not at all discouraged from sky diving!!!! I wish you a very speedy recovery!!!!!!!!!!!! Sooooo sorry about the accident!