*True Confessions*

[babydoll_73]

I miss everyone too. Figures that I come back when everyone is gone. I hope I start seeing people again.

HI NG, CF, Oman, Winter, Happy and everyone else I missed. Hope you guys have a great evening.

Babydoll

 

[InLust]

Wow! There were some people here!!!!

 

[happyparadox]

Wow! There were some people here!!!!

Just goes ta show ya. Who could have guessed.

 

[Henry]

Leaves fresh coffee, orange juice, tea, scones, muffins , bagels and fruit for all to enjoy....


Sending out good thoughts and prayers to any or all who may need them


Fades even further into the darkness...

 

[Jewelz]

Happy Tuesday, TC!

 

[happyparadox]

Good morning everyone. Hope all are well and happy.

 

[Curious_Fem]

I no longer believe there is an all well condition in life. But I believe we can be well in the midst of it all. So, I'm doing OK. Things aren't what I dream but not bad and the dreams are still there.

I think it would be really good if we could meet at the coffee shop and have a good long chat.

I must agree with you completely. Holding onto the dream is a major driving force in life.

That coffee shop idea is one of the best I've heard in a very long time. It would be my pleasure.

Hello, Beautiful.

Hello sweetheart.


Waving madly at everyone else.

 

[happyparadox]

I must agree with you completely. Holding onto the dream is a major driving force in life.

That coffee shop idea is one of the best I've heard in a very long time. It would be my pleasure.

Well you know I travel in your neck of the woods to visit family. Maybe we can make that happen sometime.

 

[dansretreat]

Catching Up.

Hey Everyone,

Been a LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONNNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGG time between posts. I see this place is getting quieter and quieter.....so, not sure how many people are gonna get this message, but what the heck.

What a difference a date makes. January 1, 2005. You know, I never really believed in all that New Years B.S., about how this year is gonna be so much better than last year, I'm gonna do this certain thing this year....resolutions...***** is gonna get better...etc. But WOW....I have to believe it now.

Last year, for Sorta and I, was such a disaster. Not between us, but with everything else life through at us from her g-ma disrupting our life, to financial upheavel to TWO major hurricanes, to her brothers death and burial and two trips to CA...the list just goes on and on. It was a mess, but our love stayed strong through it all and we persevered. Sure we had the usual "new couple" growing pains but the way we communicate and pull together and are constantly striving to make each other feel loved and a priority, even in the midst of chaos, was an incredible feeling.

New Year's Eve, we kept telling each other, next year is gonna be our year. Next year life is finally gonna calm down and give us a chance to truly enjoy this incredible love we have for each other to the fullest. And while I hoped we were right, like I said, I was never much for putting faith in a date....it was just another day on the calendar to me....boy was I wrong.

This year has been phenomenal. After making some tough decisions, I walked away from my three business with my brother and partner and for the first time in 15 years, re-entered the job market. I have to admit I was not thrilled with the idea. I make a great boss, but a lousy employee..lol. Janaury 3rd we posted my revised resume all over the net....within 48 hours my cell phone was going nuts with offers. Who the hell would have known?? I figured nobody was going to want to hire a 37 year old Real Estate Attorney/Mortgage Broker/Title Closer who has been self-employed his whole career figuring......"he won't listen to us, he's used to doing everything his own way."....and they would have been right!! LOL

I hooked up with a headhunter who specializes in placing people in the Real Estate and Mortgage fields. She saw that when I first graduated Law School, I was working for a Real Estate Attorny doing title closings, until I opened my own practice. She wanted to know if I was interested in a full-time temp position doing that again or if I wanted her to find me another job in the mortgage banking field. Well, having just walked away from my own companies and it leaving a bitter taste in my mouth, along with staring at all those red numbers in our checking account...I figured what the hell. It was the best move I could have possibly made. Within a few days, the attorney I was working for and his staff and I hit it off, and he fired the person I was hired to help, and put me in charge of a 200 unit condo conversion project. Basically he told me...."You know what to do...just do it and make sure I dont have to deal with any of it. Keep these people as far away from me as possible..lol. Hire whoever you need, buy whatever equipment you need, etc." He basically, made me my own boss...the perfect position for me!!

They through a ridiculous amount of money at me, and told me to hire an assistant. Well....who else could I think of but my princess.. I lied and told them she had experience in the title field as a processor and they through a ridiculous amount of money at her too. The person I replaced had screwed it up so bad that they were about to lose this multi-million dollar account and were willing to do anything to get me to take it over. And now, the client is so thrilled that they are lining up other projects all over the state that they want me to take over when this one is done.

So, in the midst of this all, here comes Sorta....faking it the best she can in the beginning. Nodding and trying to look and sound like she actually knows this shit. And then as soon as we would be alone, I would give her crash courses on how it all works.

She has TOTALLY amazed me. This was such a foreign field to her and she picked it up so fast. The office loves her and she's made me look like a genius for hiring her. I knew she could do it, but I never thought she would take to it like this. Not this fast or this easily. When I suggested her, I was thinking...ok, we need the money...I'll pull her through this somehow. Was I wrong. She loves the job and with the experience she's getting now, she'll be able to walk into any title company she wants in the future and get top dollar. She's amazing. She acts like she's been in this field for years. I am so damn proud of her. I loved her for a million reasons before...now it's a million and one.

So, with two steady paychecks coming in, we've been able to catch up on everything and FINALLY get her stuff out of storage in CA and moved here. (side note: I could have bought a really nice car for what the storage fees and move ended up costing!!) But most importantly...we've been able to get a wedding budget together and start serious planning.

We hired a phenomenal wedding coordinator who has taken all of the stress of planning this even in just 6 months off of Sorta. We spent an entire day scouting out locations and now our ceremony and reception site is booked...November 4th. And monday night, she got to go wedding dress shopping with her mom and Danielle (our coordinator) for the first time. OMG...I dont think I've ever seen her happier than she was when she came home that night. She had the time of her life and narrowed it down to three dresses that shes gonna go back one more time and choose from. She told me how she always dreamed of what that day would be like, trying on dresses and all, and said it was better than she ever dreamt. One dress had her mom in tears. The boutique treated her like royalty and she thanked me over and over for making all of her dreams come true. She told me she felt like she was floating on clouds all night long. Making her happy is all I care about, and seeing her like that just made me feel so incredible inside.

We still have the usual daily stresses that the whole world has....still some issues with her g-ma hanging around, my knees have been pretty bad and I'm off to see the doctor to get them looked at, she still has hard moments thinking about her brother, etc....but this stuff doesn't interfere with our life anymore. Doesn't take away from the happiness we feel for finally finding each other.

Our connection is stronger now than its ever been. It seems like our relationship is finally clicking on all cylinders and we are so relaxed and enjoying it and our life together. And I can trace it all back to one day...January 3rd...a new year....a new start for us both.

I'll never doubt the power of New Year's again.

I hope everyone here who reads this realizes one thing....no matter how much crap life throws at you, no matter how bad it may seem, no matter how many things are going wrong....there's always something better ahead. The hardest part is making the tough decisions to chase after it and not give up. God knows I've done that before in my life. Let depression eat away at me. But things can change, things can get better.

Walking away from my businesses was incredibly hard. I built them from scratch and they were like my children. It was one of the hardest decisions I've made. But, it took me to the place I needed to go. The place I truly belonged. Making that incredibly hard decision opened up an entire world of freedom and happiness to me.

Ok, I've rambled enough. I hope everyone is doing well, is being true to themselves, and chasing their dreams.

 

[omahaman2]

Im so happy for youguys!!! Im so glad this year has brought such wonderful changes for you two!! Thanks for giving us all encouragement that life can
get better, that things can and will change when things are looking dismal.
It seems this is our down year with our car being stolen,and quitting my good paying job thinking i had a better one then it falling through and having trouble finding one that pays any$$$$$.
Sorta and NG once talked about living in parallel universes with each other.
It seems we do too with you. We are going through the hardship year now but
a new years day also changed our lives when we became engaged!! Changed my life forever!!

 

[Henry]

Leaves fresh coffee, orange juice, tea, scones, muffins , bagels and fruit for all to enjoy....


Sending out good thoughts and prayers to any or all who may need them

 

[dansretreat]

Change

Im so happy for youguys!!! Im so glad this year has brought such wonderful changes for you two!! Thanks for giving us all encouragement that life can
get better, that things can and will change when things are looking dismal.
It seems this is our down year with our car being stolen,and quitting my good paying job thinking i had a better one then it falling through and having trouble finding one that pays any$$$$$.
Sorta and NG once talked about living in parallel universes with each other.
It seems we do too with you. We are going through the hardship year now but
a new years day also changed our lives when we became engaged!! Changed my life forever!!

I'm sorry to hear about your troubles this year Oman. I can relate to the whole car thing as Sorta and I went through something similar with that last year as well on top of everything else I listed...

One of the reasons I've been self-smployed my whole life was because I never wanted to have to depend on anyone else providing me a paycheck every week, for the very reason you listed....you never know when its gonna not pan out. So for me, making the change to becoming an employee again was drastic. Maybe you need to do the opposite? I dont know what you do for a living....but maybe if you can't find someone thats willing to pay you what you're worth, you should think about doing it for yourself.

I guess what I've found is things in life snowball. And sometimes the only way to stop the avalanche is to find a different mountain to play on. I was spending so much time and effort and energy fighting with my brother and partner to salvage my companies...to stay on my mountain...that I let the snowball turn into an avalanche. And it was amazing...as soon as I decided to go play somewhere else....the avalanche stopped.

Just some crazy words of wisdom from a guy who should be asleep right now..lol.

Hang in there.


Edited because I keep forgetting to call her Sorta online and not her real name!!

 

[InLust]

Morning all. I attempted to post yesterday, but got kicked back for too many graphics I didn't think 144 dancing bananas was too much when one is talking about the end of the term....end of the school year.....end of homework jail for a couple of months. And then just 2 more terms and the ole sheepskin is mine.......surely a few dancing bananas is allowed

 

[Wintermute]

Morning all. I attempted to post yesterday, but got kicked back for too many graphics I didn't think 144 dancing bananas was too much when one is talking about the end of the term....end of the school year.....end of homework jail for a couple of months. And then just 2 more terms and the ole sheepskin is mine.......surely a few dancing bananas is allowed

144 dancing bananas? That's a "Gross" misuse of resources!

I sure hope I'm not the only one who appreciates that reference.

 

[omahaman2]

times 24

for lusty

 

[InLust]

144 dancing bananas? That's a "Gross" misuse of resources!

I sure hope I'm not the only one who appreciates that reference.

groan..............only you

 

[InLust]

times 24

for lusty

Thanks Oman I think when something really good happens, a person ought to get as many dancing nanners as they want. Guess I 'll just have to break out the old abacus and figure out how to do that

 

[Henry]

Leaves fresh coffee, orange juice, tea, scones, muffins , bagels and fruit for all to enjoy....


Sending out good thoughts and prayers to any or all who may need them

 

[InLust]

Good to see you Henry! Hope things are going well....or at least better.

 

[Henry]

Good to see you Henry! Hope things are going well....or at least better.

Hugggggs IL...things are gradually getting better here thanks.

Hope things are going well for you

 

[JennyOmanHill]

Hi TCers

Today's confessions:

• Spending too much time on the computer today; tired of being a week behind in emails, yet not tackling most of the things I should be doing!
• Happy that Oman and I enjoyed a delicious (and kinda fancy) dinner last night.
• Feeling too anxious about the week ahead and finding it hard to stay in the moment. I feel I've gone a bit backwards these last two weeks.
• Hoping all of us enjoy a safe, happy, healthy and overall good weekend.

 

[cymbline]

True Confession:

sometimes I just want to crawl under the covers and never come out.

 

[omahaman2]

TRUE CONFESSION

Jenny I love you!! I know,I know!! sorry about giving away our secret!!

 

[Bandit58]

TRUE CONFESSION

Jenny I love you!! I know,I know!! sorry about giving away our secret!!

LOL that's about a much of a secret as the love Gil and I share!

 

[gina3]

I want him

I want him

DAMNIT I want him!!

Why can't I let it go?

Sigh...