*True Confessions*

[Freya]

* continues to "snuggle" with Freya *
* Glad light is off -- could even wish candle is off but who the hell cares *

*sighs in total contentment*

 

[redelicious]

mmmmmm
me too..you feel so good in my arms

Soron, I could do this all night, but eventually I will fall asleep

Unless . . .

 

[SecretScribe]

*sighs in total contentment*

* thinks about other sighs ... and decides that is for another day *

 

[redelicious]

*leaning up and blowing the candle out*

giving Red a soft kiss

*Feeling his tender lips on mine and the warmth of his touch . .

so nice

 

[Soron]

Soron, I could do this all night, but eventually I will fall asleep

Unless . . .

unless..

 

[SecretScribe]

unless..

unless ????????????

 

[Woodmiester]

Red - You're right. It is guilt. I feel guilty because I feel like I failed as a husband. And by rushing to her side I guess maybe I'm trying to make up for that failure in my head.

..... "I can't end a 17 year relationship without going through some emotional hell I guess." .....

Dan your off the site now and I hope I'm not beating a dead horse here, and Red and Soron sorry for the intrusion but I felt a need to add something here ...

If you don't move on which as has been stated already in many outstanding replies of whish everyone offered some heartfelt advice, those first three sentences if you decide it's true means she has won the game she's playing, and your emotions is her game piece.
Take the advice already offered, and look at this 17 years as a speed bump. It's there to get over, so take the time to do so slowly so as not cause unneeded damage and then proceed on.

Best of Luck Dan

 

[Soron]

Pulling Her Closer

pulling her closer to me and feeling her soft breath

saying goodnight to SS and Freya

mmmmmm closing my eyes

 

[redelicious]

Re: Pulling Her Closer

pulling her closer to me and feeling her soft breath

saying goodnight to SS and Freya

mmmmmm closing my eyes

*drifting off in his arms . . .



Nite to all

 

[Freya]

Dan your off the site now and I hope I'm not beating a dead horse here, and Red and Soron sorry for the intrusion but I felt a need to add something here ...

If you don't move on which as has been stated already in many outstanding replies of whish everyone offered some heartfelt advice, those first three sentences if you decide it's true means she has won the game she's playing, and your emotions is her game piece.
Take the advice already offered, and look at this 17 years as a speed bump. It's there to get over, so take the time to do so slowly so as not cause unneeded damage and then proceed on.

Best of Luck Dan

Thanks Woodmeister....great advice. And thanks for popping in! Don't mind us, we're having a lazy night otnight.

 

[Freya]

* thinks about other sighs ... and decides that is for another day *

*relaxing in total comfort....drifting off to sleep in his arms*

 

[SecretScribe]

Thanks Woodmeister....great advice. And thanks for popping in! Don't mind us, we're having a lazy night otnight.

Da! all I can say.,

It's dark after all

 

[SecretScribe]

* silence descends upon TC *
* many hearts rest, thoughts are calmed *
* one remains *
* life is a process. Beginnings and endings are but moments *
* Process is all *
* why do I feel the way I do? *
* who do I turn to? *
* what do I say? *
* Life is a process and confusion is it's calling card *
* You do the best you can *
* and you still can screw up *
* Even Miss Manners is not infallable *
* to all those who wish me well and even those who wish me ill *
* I am but a man, and suffer the same frailities as you *
* all things must pass *
* and in their wake is life *
* ill or good *
* improve it, if you can *

 

[Batch]

the best time for confessing

late or early when ..mostly one is alone
i slept for a few hours
I almost feel normal

almost


so much is whirling about in my mind
settle down
is hard to settle


so I am awake and out of bed

 

[sortacurious]

*two remain

((((((SS)))))

 

[Batch]

oh yeah...

i wandered away i my head for a moment and
a lapse occurred.........
a whole weekend spent doing the important stuff......
making the environment I will be spending upwards of 8 hours a day clean......
gee....

what do i want to confess to?
working too much
being angry and having someone to be angry with and then no way of expressing that anger

just why would anyone allow their work to get to that state?

i have labels to make for the shelves and for the bins
and am going to start making a list here.........damn
must
stop this
must think of something else
I confess that I must stop thinking about work
what the hell else am I to think about?
masterbating to get relaxed again?

it seems like there is nothing else in possible in my brain TO think about......

 

[SecretScribe]

thanks, i needed

 

[SecretScribe]

Batch -- you care too much.

you are lovely
you are people
kids must love you

 

[Batch]

Batch -- you care too much.

you are lovely
you are people
kids must love you

ah but that makes me good at what I do

kid magnet......

 

[SecretScribe]

ah but that makes me good at what I do

kid magnet......

It is good to be good at what you do.

 

[Batch]

It is good to be good at what you do.

and I could and would talk about it for
hours
and bore the brains out of many in the process....

Dear Secret Scribe,
Why are you up
so late
why are you up so early?
perhaps you are on the other side of the planet?
and this is day for you?

 

[SecretScribe]

and I could and would talk about it for
hours
and bore the brains out of many in the process....

Dear Secret Scribe,
Why are you up
so late
why are you up so early?
perhaps you are on the other side of the planet?
and this is day for you?

no... prob same time zone.
working out a problem in my head
will get no sleep tonite

 

[Batch]

grand passion

It is good to be good at what you do.

and so it goes I am
good at this
and then it gets rolling
and I can rest for a bit and be good at doing the observing
again
and I am getting sleepy
oh yes
she calls to me
she bids me take my place amongst the sleepers
among those that rest........

 

[Batch]

rest you should

no... prob same time zone.
working out a problem in my held
will get no sleep tonite

west coast?

held in your head perhaps?

it isn't night any more it has wandered on into morning............

 

[SecretScribe]

Re: grand passion

and so it goes I am
good at this
and then it gets rolling
and I can rest for a bit and be good at doing the observing
again
and I am getting sleepy
oh yes
she calls to me
she bids me take my place amongst the sleepers
among those that rest........

sleep sweet batchoolus
dream good dreams
be rested.
see the day in new light.
love.