transporting and scary...subspace?

[Etoile]

I know we've had plenty of threads about subspace, but I don't always read them because I don't know that I've ever been in subspace. But I think it might have happened yesterday...definitely something weird happened.

Daddy and I were fucking pretty normally; I wasn't tied up or anything. I was just riding on top and wearing a corset (cheap one, not laced tightly) - I've been on top before but I don't remember actively fucking with one on before, maybe it contributed to what happened. So anyway, I was getting really into it...and then all of a sudden I was overcome with a very bizarre feeling. As I described it to Daddy afterward, if I believed in alternate/parallel realities then I would have thought I had been transported into some other place. I felt scared, paranoid...generally just freaked out. I was also suddenly freezing cold. Daddy held my arms out, gripping my wrists, and I made several bizarre movements and took rather a long time to open my eyes and come back. Afterward I was still scared, uncertain of what had happened or where I had gone, and cold.

So I'm wondering...does anybody else experience subspace this way? I wasn't actually subbing at the time - we were just fucking. Is subspace ever transporting and scary like that? Was this maybe just some bizarre endorphin rush, potentially with the corset contributing...maybe altering my breathing pattern?

I am just very confused as to what happened and I would like to talk about it.

 

[LadyNatasha]

I know we've had plenty of threads about subspace, but I don't always read them because I don't know that I've ever been in subspace. But I think it might have happened yesterday...definitely something weird happened.

Daddy and I were fucking pretty normally; I wasn't tied up or anything. I was just riding on top and wearing a corset (cheap one, not laced tightly) - I've been on top before but I don't remember actively fucking with one on before, maybe it contributed to what happened. So anyway, I was getting really into it...and then all of a sudden I was overcome with a very bizarre feeling. As I described it to Daddy afterward, if I believed in alternate/parallel realities then I would have thought I had been transported into some other place. I felt scared, paranoid...generally just freaked out. I was also suddenly freezing cold. Daddy held my arms out, gripping my wrists, and I made several bizarre movements and took rather a long time to open my eyes and come back. Afterward I was still scared, uncertain of what had happened or where I had gone, and cold.

So I'm wondering...does anybody else experience subspace this way? I wasn't actually subbing at the time - we were just fucking. Is subspace ever transporting and scary like that? Was this maybe just some bizarre endorphin rush, potentially with the corset contributing...maybe altering my breathing pattern?

I am just very confused as to what happened and I would like to talk about it.

Sounds like subspace to me... The out-of-body feeling and the cold is very common. You don't necessarily have to be 'subbing', it's really just euphoria rather than subspace technically but that's what it's called. We Domly types experience it as well.

 

[serijules]

Subspace is such a funny word, because it makes you feel like in order to be in it, you have to be subbing, or you have to be in this incredible space that has this big flashing neon sign with the little arrow pointing "you are here!". Sometimes it's really really simple, so simple you might not even recognize it as out of the norm.

Last weekend, I was with my Domme, her other sub, and that subs sub (yeah, confusing, we are a very interesting family). That subs sub (lets call her B) and I were naked from waist down and laying out side by side on this big overstuffed chair/ottoman thingy, and they were both beating us with various implements.

From the moment I laid down, I felt a little odd, a little tense, although I had no reason to be whatsoever. And as soon as they started playing....I started to go deeper and deeper into this really weirded out space. I felt like I was going to panic at everything, even though I was *enjoying* the attentions. I felt cold and shiver-y...and not in my normal "my hands are shaking from endorphins" way that I get when in subspace. I had no idea what was going on. It wasn't a panic attack to begin with, but the longer I allowed myself to stay in that frame of mind, the more like a panic attack it became until I think I actually MADE it into one just because the space felt so weird to me that I had to find some logical understandable reason for it.

I got in big trouble for not safewording at that moment, for trying to deal with it myself instead of letting them know what was going on. Sigh...

Anyhow, was it subspace? I think it was. Subspace isn't always this dreamy floaty place. Sometimes it's more...wicked. More of a mindfuck. Perhaps the act of being on top left you feeling more in charge/control than your subconcious wanted to be just then. Perhaps Etoile-the-submissive (or whatever term you choose for yourself) really wanted to be out at that moment than Etoile-the-lover and your subconcious had a little tantrum.

Maybe you just needed to turn the heat up. *grin*

Seriously though...I know the feeling. It's hard to describe or analyze...it was just there. So you are not alone.

 

[John Doe]

You have to be careful when entering subspace that your warp coils are properly aligned and that your matter-antimatter ratio is EXACTLY 1:1.

 

[incubus'_sub]

Etoile, that's a pretty good description of what happens to me. I went to the other place the very first time Incubus & I played together. At the time I was totally unaware of the term subspace and was very surprised when I described where I'd been that it had a name. I find it a very interesting experience when it does happen.

 

[Netzach]

I also think that subspace can be a very varied trip, sometimes floaty and euphoric, sometimes weird and creepy, sometimes just a really cleansing opportunity to scream and shout and stamp your feet. The cliche of the blissed out floating in the clouds thing is not all there is.

 

[Xelebes]

Sounds more like a state of euphoria (which subspace may be of) that causes you to transcend from your senses. It sometimes happens to me when I do something for a real long time (like dancing at parties when I dance spans of 3 hours or more). It might be even a state of psychosis, but I'm not too into psychology.

I'm just letting you know that I know the feeling while having not quite experienced it through the means you have experienced it.

 

[Etoile]

Subspace is such a funny word, because it makes you feel like in order to be in it, you have to be subbing, or you have to be in this incredible space that has this big flashing neon sign with the little arrow pointing "you are here!".

Yes! That's how I felt about it. That was why I figured I'd never experienced subspace, because I didn't have that neon sign. I'd certainly never felt that way before.

Anyhow, was it subspace? I think it was. Subspace isn't always this dreamy floaty place. Sometimes it's more...wicked. More of a mindfuck. Perhaps the act of being on top left you feeling more in charge/control than your subconcious wanted to be just then. Perhaps Etoile-the-submissive (or whatever term you choose for yourself) really wanted to be out at that moment than Etoile-the-lover and your subconcious had a little tantrum.

I definitely don't like being on top anywhere near as much as I like being on the bottom. There was a specific reason for it this time, but I don't normally prefer it! If that's what subspace feels like for me, though, I'm not sure I want to feel it again. It was scary, and not in a good way. Daddy was holding onto me the whole time, and part of me could feel that, but I also felt like e didn't know that I was going somewhere I hadn't been before.

 

[serijules]

I know what you mean, having a "bad trip" for lack of better explanation leaves me a little less desiring subspace the next time around, I always think...what if its like that again? It is weird and scary. I think of endorphins as a natural form of chemical drugs almost sometimes...you don't always have a good experience with them.

I used to get so spaced out that after the scene I couldn't function anymore, I would just lay there all spaced out. With my Domme, after the scene I am expected to do certain things (clean up, put away toys, etc) so I have learned to snap myself out of that quicker, and sometimes not having as much down time as I am used to turns that subspace around into this...not so good feeling. Not always, but sometimes.

 

[Belle The Pixie]

I had never heard about this before until right now.

How very interesting

 

[Etoile]

I had never heard about this before until right now.

How very interesting

Oh, definitely check out the library sticky - we've had lots of threads on subspace!

 

[s'lara]

I had never heard about this before until right now.

How very interesting

Take a look through the Subspace Section of our Library. Lots of informative talks there.

 

[Etoile]

Take a look through the Subspace Section of our Library. Lots of informative talks there.

s'lara, do you think it would be appropriate to add this thread to the library category?

 

[John Doe]

You have to be careful when entering subspace that your warp coils are properly aligned and that your matter-antimatter ratio is EXACTLY 1:1.

Well, I thought it was funny...

 

[~hellbaby~]

Endorphins are a very powerful force. I've only been there once, during a spanking. The feeling was more intense than any drug or orgasm. It wasn't scary though, it was totally euphoric and triggered a really creative period. I crave that feeling.

 

[AvaAdore]

Well, I thought it was funny...

I know what subspace is. There are lots of different kinds. For example, a vector subspace is a vector space that is contained in another vector space!

 

[YinandYang]

I have felt this way before, but it didn't happen during a scene. I was just lazing in the bath and i sort of felt like I was a million miles away, like I didn't belong where I was. Its kind of hard to describe, a huge detachment of sorts. I didn't really like the feeling as I began to feel a bit panicky and insecure in my surroundings. When it happens I need to go get a cup of tea to snap out of it and come back to reality.
I'm not sure if I could descibe 'subspace' though, I think it must be a personal feeling associated with what ever the person is doing at the time. When my master uses a crop (the worst kind of pain for me), I find the feelings are intense at first, and I struggle not to use my safe word, but then as he carries on the feelings kind of merge together and become pleasant. I always know I get to this point. I feel a kind of release, (like how you would feel if you are totally stressed and beat a pillow up lol). Its like the letting go of everything, along with the 'aahh' factor. I suppose for me that is 'subspace'.
The detached feeling I described above, for me I have always looked on this as a spiritual thing, I regulary have OBE's and meditate alot so i normally put it down to that.

 

[~hellbaby~]

When my master uses a crop (the worst kind of pain for me), I find the feelings are intense at first, and I struggle not to use my safe word, but then as he carries on the feelings kind of merge together and become pleasant. I always know I get to this point. I feel a kind of release, (like how you would feel if you are totally stressed and beat a pillow up lol). Its like the letting go of everything, along with the 'aahh' factor. I suppose for me that is 'subspace'.

That is just what happened to me. The safeword was right on the tip of my tongue and I was just about to use it, He let up a little before really letting me have it- that was when I slipped into that floating place. I stopped fighting the pain and let it take me. That was a feeling like nothing I'd ever felt before, it was like a drug that makes you float over everything, a feeling of being disconnected.It wasn't until the next day I realized something happened to me, it was hard to explain, I couldn't really understand it until He explained endorphins to me.