topping from the bottom, and its futility

[shelleb4]

Since coming to lit, ive learned so much about myself. Ive seen that there are many like me, im no freak anymore. I have gained inside information that as a married person and monogamous, id never of been able to otherwise, and i thank everyone for the education ive received.
I now know what i am, what i want i just dont have a partner who wants the same things. I have tried to top from the bottom to meet my needs, but as i was told, this seldom works. But i dont give up easily and went ahead anyway. Unsuccessfully. To persue this venture anymore, i feel is not only futile, but perhaps damaging. Damaging in that i feel frustrated and cross with him. The kink for your so, was not a reciprocal thing it seems. I have learned why my man cannot be my Dom, its not knowledge that i relish, and id rather not know some of the things ive learned through my silly attempts to coerce, cajole a vanilla man into a bdsm marriage.
As a couple, we did have issues, the bdsm venture has brought them to the fore. They certainly werent caused by bdsm, just highlighted eg. how can a man that's financially dependant on you Dominate you?
So for now, im bowing out.
I genuinely thank you, there are some very sincere people here, and ive enjoyed your company.
Ive gained support and understanding and knowledge. That cant be a bad thing in my book, from any experience.

 

[shy slave]

I can only imagine what a difficult time you have been having. {{{{ }}}} Hope you still lurk around the boards even if you have made decisions (which cannot have been easy) about the way forward for you.
Take care Shelleb
xxxxxx

 

[rosco rathbone]

Topping From The Bottom:

don't do it!!!

I've spoken. All questions to the usual address.

 

[mr happy]

Oh why is life so complicated

Sorry that your desires have gone off the rails, but I do hope that you continue your journey with your Lit friends.

It's a great place to hang out and just shoot the breeze.

And as my mother used to say, "You can never have too many friends"

Your Aussie friend