The write in white thread

[hdlynnette]

Is there such a thing as a bouncing pilot....and if so...is that a good thing????

 

[smotherman]

I have finally figured it out

 

[smotherman]

I added new blogs so read them when you get a chance

 

[smotherman]

Thanks to all of you who took the time to write in some encouraging words

 

[Wings27]

It doesn't entice me, it doesn't excite me it only annoys me.

 

[EnglishRoseFox]

Oooo thanks for bumping this thread Wings, I've missed it!

Baby you are so gonna get it. And yes in a good way! (not you Wings lol)

 

[Wings27]

I'm sorry I missed your post, Foxy, I love this thread too.

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I won't stick around while you decide if you can stand me or not. If you can fit me in to your life. I won't do it. My life is much too short and I have other, more important, things to do. I had been hoping to share those things with you but it seems that this is not the direction. Ok. Yeah, I get it. I may be acting very stubborn but I'm tired of shifting my life to keep from making you do something that's uncomfortable. It's called growing. Trying new things. Grow with me or get the hell out of my way.

 

[Gracie29]

It's nights like tonight ... when the loneliness sets in ... that every time I close my eyes, I remember the feel of that child clinging to me. Her sobs. Her begging me not to make her go, to let her stay here with me. And then her screams as they pried her arms from around my neck and forcibly removed her from me. The way she wouldn't look at me as she was carried out the door. And it terrifies me that maybe that will be the memory she carries with her ... that I let her down.

 

[EnglishRoseFox]

It's nights like tonight ... when the loneliness sets in ... that every time I close my eyes, I remember the feel of that child clinging to me. Her sobs. Her begging me not to make her go, to let her stay here with me. And then her screams as they pried her arms from around my neck and forcibly removed her from me. The way she wouldn't look at me as she was carried out the door. And it terrifies me that maybe that will be the memory she carries with her ... that I let her down.

(((((((Gracie))))))) you know where I am if you feel like this again. We can get drunk and abuse members of the clergy if you like!

 

[Gracie29]

(((((((Gracie))))))) you know where I am if you feel like this again. We can get drunk and abuse members of the clergy if you like!

This is why I loves you. You just gave me my first snort of the morning! Damn if that doesn't sound like fun!

 

[Deleted member 1177770]

I think I am quite excited about the next phase of my life. Come to think of it I feel as if I have been waiting for it. I just hope I can work my ass off and pursue at least some of my dreams!

 

[kendra1980]

I think I am quite excited about the next phase of my life. Come to think of it I feel as if I have been waiting for it. I just hope I can work my ass off and pursue at least some of my dreams!

I like this post. I feel exactly the same!

 

[Wings27]

I wish you would leave me alone, I wish you wouldn't. I wish you'd stop loving me and yet I wish you never do. I can't seem to let go of that last thread of hope that one day, one day we'll figure it out. And I know it's not fair to either one of us. Especially when you continue to ask me to come home. My home isn't with you any more. My home is here, this building that I bought, four walls and a roof. The place I painted to match my personality. The place I bought, all on my own, the place that means freedom.

You don't mean freedom anymore, you mean a weight that I can't seem to lose. You are lonely and you turn to me. It doesn't matter, your skankwhore will get off the drugs for a while and beg you to come back and you'll go running. I will not let you hurt me like that ever again. Life is too short to be with someone you don't love with all your heart.

So instead I make you hate me, I make you yell at me and scream in anger. I prefer that, over breaking your heart while you're being nice to me. And you'll never figure out why I do it. You'll never realize that I'm trying to make you go away without hurting you to the core. I still care enough to not want that.

I thought about it, for half a second, this time. I thought about what we used to be, the joy I found with you. It doesn't matter, we can't go back and you will never be my freedom.

 

[smotherman]

Even though the questionnaire stuff is a big pain, you have to be patient

 

[Kinkichoo]

It is kind of hard to see...

 

[Cinner]

Something new for me to do.

 

[sweet_dee]

...feeling ignored sucks. Sometimes people crave to feel special, needed and wanted...it's just sad that sometimes the one trying to make you feel special, needed and wanted is not the same person you want to feel special with...and the one you want, just doesn't feel the same...

 

[Kinkichoo]

OMG, I can so identifiy with that ^^^^^

 

[smotherman]

I wish I knew

 

[Wings27]

You make my heart skip a beat and my face break in to smiles.

 

[Gyps33boi]

I wish I could be there for you, though you probably will never see this, nor want me to be. I hope things get better soon.

 

[sweetpea24]

I hate sitting here night after night alone. Why is this a marriage if we are always apart? I understand the good you are trying to do, but don't forget about me

 

[Wings27]

Don't you understand how hard it is for me to trust again? To give my heart? Every single time I've tried it's been handed back to me, more trampled and battered than before. It just kills me that I finally thought I found someone with potential and you had to go and ruin it. I vowed to not let my past and the shitty things I've done harm my future and the good I can do. And yet here it goes again. I sit here hurt by another person. Good lord, enough already. It's easier to be alone than to keep doing this.

 

[Cinner]

I have not seen this thread in a long while. It's a little daft but I have missed it and want to participate again.

 

[*Twisted*]

I wish that all the people that look to me daily to prop them up to keep them going would realize that I need that too. Instead it's always about somebody else. Except when I go to work. The people that work for me recognize that I'm a good person, and oddly enough show it in many ways, but the people I live with, the folks I'm close to, family etc don't get that I need what they look to me for.