We are both really happy in our relationship, but I also do not feel shame about the shape of some of my previous relationships. I feel sad, and yes, regret, that perhaps some were not healthy but not that they were not monogamous. G is fine with my past shape of relationships, but I can also understand there are times when it feels that it feels life reaches a crescendo, if my fantasising ( which I share openly with him) is not just him and if the relationship advice includes a strong go outside of the relationship suggestion, it can be a tough time to be a monogamist.. He is assured he is my everything. Without him, the me I am now would not be a sexual being at all, i feel utterly loved and in love with him....and fully aware that my fantasy is one that if played out I couldn't cope with now. But....that's the pleasure of fantasy!
Ah, Elle, that's beautiful


I had my first public play (a flogging!) at the LAM afterparty last night. I was so excited and nervous. But it was great fun. I am writing up an account of it I will post on Fetlife. A really nice sadist (yes really) friend obliged me
Daisy - sorry we completely missed you. We arrived rather late to the market and Master had a shopping list to get through
Mindfondler - was great to bump into you and your wife. Glad you had a good shopping day at LAM. One day do stay for the afterparty, I am sure you would enjoy it.
Think I am coming down with a cold. Got that annoying tickling in the throat. Some ginger tea I think...



