The Dark (open)

[Bluemage]

He groaned as she continued to thrust into him, being hard and rough now, using enough force that she was actually causing his hips to bounce on the mattress, which resulted in him making upwards strokes without even meaning to. This woman, she was going to milk him dry. He wasn't going to be able to keep going if she kept up like this. He moaned and gasped loudly. If she kept up with the maddening speed and power that she was using, he was probably going to cum again far faster than she really wanted. If that happened, he wasn't going to be able to keep up with her, and if she kept up like she was, then he didn't know what she was going to do.

 

[Perplexia]

She moaned and grunted continuing to use the bed to thrust him up into her. Oh how good that felt, but she wanted more she tried bouncing on him to make the spring back from the mattress go deeper, ooh that was good "More" she grunted and moaned as she road him with still the same amount of energy.

 

[Bluemage]

He thrust up against her as best as he could. He wasn't able to thrust very well of course, but he couldn't do anything else. He continued to thrust up against her he gasped and groaned. It wouldn't be long now before he had cum again, and it was soon the end. He moaned and looked up at her through glassy eyes. He wasn't sure what else he was going to be able to do. He moaned and groaned again, his body twitching slightly as he once again approached his orgasm. She hadn't let up. Usually he had some time to rest, and usually she wasn't this demanding and rough. Something about it was very erotic, but there was no way that she was going to be done with him before he filled her, if she kept this up.

 

[Perplexia]

Raven moaned and bucked wildly as his hot warm seed shot up like a volcano with in her again. She squeezed and moaned trying to milk him for ever drop. She hoped to keep him hard, hoped to continue to ride more she squeezed and moaned moving her hips trying to hips his phallus from going away.

 

[Bluemage]

His breathing was heavy and he lay there, staring at the ceiling. He then looked up at the girl as she tried to keep him hard, but unfortunately it wasn't going to work today. He might have been able to do it again if it wasn't for the fact that he had done all of that with her before in the shower, he might have still had a little bit of energy, but unfortunately he had done that, and he didn't have enough to keep going. He groaned and moaned helplessly as she tried to keep him hard, but he was only able to remain semi-hard, unable to return to his full hard length for her. He moaned softly, unable to do anything.

 

[Perplexia]

Raven tried a bit more growing frustrated. Sulking she slowly rose from him pointing at his phallus she muttered "broken". She went to her clothes and dressed in a pair of sweats and a tank top pulling her hair back and pinning it on her head. Going back to the living room she picked up the sword from the floor. And went back into the tool room. She picked up a couple of daggers and attached the arm devices.
Her nostrils flared lightly, the scent of Xavier's blood still lingered from the sword. This agitated her further. Her mental state off balance the combinations of the hormones, and her emotional struggle. The triple shot of pheromones pushing her over the edge. "love you" she said loud enough for him to hear as she turned the lock on the door and headed out into the dark of the night.

 

[Bluemage]

Xavier lay there, his body beaten and broken. He had made a mistake, a big mistake. He couldn't move. He tried, but found that all of his muscles first screamed at him in pain, and then simply stopped. It didn't help that she had fed on him at the beginning of that little mating session, making his healing process so much slower. He needed to get the strength to get to the fridge to get to blood, but before that he needed to get the strength to move again. He took a long and shaky breath. There wasn't anything that he could do at the moment. He was struggling just to move his hands. He groaned softly and looked at the ceiling. At least he knew where she was going, and he would have an easy time tracking her with her sex overcharged like it was now. He just wasn't sure that he was going to be able to get there in time.

 

[Perplexia]

Raven went down the elevator and past the front desk of security. "ms raven ? where are you going with out Mr Xavier?" She cocked her head and looked at him
"kill Marcus, Xavier Broken". She then turned and kept walking. The security guy radioed outside. "follow her, don't get to close, she could be dangerous"

The security guy ran upstairs to check on Xavier. He knocked on the partially ajar door "Mr. Xavier, its Pete from down stairs are you ok sir?"

Raven continued to walk toward where Marcus had taken her. Her mind seemingly focused on the task at hand. Simply Kill Marcus.

 

[Bluemage]

Xavier continued to stare at the ceiling. Pete was there. Well, maybe this wasn't so bad after all, "Pete...I am going to need some blood. If you sent someone after Raven...I don't know...tell them not to interfere. She's likely to kill anyone who tries to stop her, or even to help her, and if they follow her into whatever building she's going in, she's likely to just go into a mad rage and kill everyone in there...no point in us having one of our men die for nothing." He continued to stare up at the ceiling, "How long until sunup, Pete?"

 

[Perplexia]

Pete went into the kitchen grabbing a few bags of blood out of the fridge and bringing a glass. He walked in and looked at Xavier on the broken bed, with torn sheets. Trying to figure out what had happened. "He poured the blood and leaned down helping him to start to drink it.

"About four hours to sunrise boss. "Geo called, stated she's walking at a good pace down Wilshire. Seems to be going down to the rough side of town. Thought he saw a flash of silver on her wrist. Thinks she's armed." He poured Xavier another glass of blood helping him to sit up now. "Whose Marcus?" Pete asked then turned his head. It was really none of his business and certainly not his place to ask. "Sorry Sir" He mumbled . "Do you need the third bag sir, or should i put it back in the fridge?"

 

[Bluemage]

Xavier looked at him, "I'll need the third bag...and even then I'm not sure I'm going to be able to recover in time to catch her." Xavier turned his eyes back to the wall before him, "Marcus is some sort of freaker or something. A punk crossed with a pimp. She's definitely armed, yeah, so we can't get the police involved in this one, because then she could get called in on this, and we can't make too much of a scene about it either, because her with all of those weapons will get too many questions." He turned his head slowly to look at Pete, "She's in a hormonal rage, she might do perfectly fine against him and his gang, but there is also a possibility that she won't do so well. This is happening too quickly. I didn't get a chance to slip anyone into his organization, and any more than one guard and she'll know she's being tailed and probably either lash out or try to lose them, and one guard isn't going to be enough to save her. If I don't recover in time to get there, I'm not sure how much of her will be left to get after Marcus and his gang is through with her, or how much of them will be left to collect after she's done with them."

---

Marcus smiled softly, as he sat in the far corner of the room, looking at a group of people playing pool, and the door that led into the little club room. He had been shamed by that Xavier guy, but he had gone through some things to take some preparations against him to make sure that didn't happen again. He still was in a foul mood, and so were a few members of his gang if he was reading them correctly.

One of the guys playing pool sighed softly, "Too bad we haven't gotten any new tail in here. Why is that Marcus? I though you had that girl who was supposed to be an amazing fuck. What happened to that?" They continued to play pool.

The other guy playing pool smiled softly, "There was some sort of kung fu bastard that kicked the shit out of some of our guys. He was crazy. I was there, man." His smile had turned into a frown half way through the conversation, "Too bad we didn't get to keep the bitch though, she looked fine, I wouldn't have minded bending her over this pool table."

There were a few other men in the room that were just standing around, some of them drinking and whatnot, but it really didn't look like there was a bit of a gang formed there, and there was no telling how many people were in the floor above.

 

[Perplexia]

Raven stopped for a moment and looked around she felt as if she were being watched. She cocked her head and listened. Nothing but motor, a car. She continued to walk quickly in that direction she had run from just the night before.

***
Pete poured another bag for Xavier and spoke
"Geo has a tranq gun, he's a good shot if you want him to try to bring her down. It will if anything slow her to allow you to get to her. No offense Sir, but what makes you think you can stop her if you do reach her?

 

[Bluemage]

Xavier shook his head, "If you tranq her it will work for sure, or it will just slow her down?" He moved to the next question, "Either way, I'm pretty sure that I'll be able to keep her down, because the reason she ran away was because I couldn't keep going sexually anymore. She fucked me into my condition. A firecracker in bed." He smiled as he looked at Pete, sipping at the blood, "Don't think that you can stop her that way though. She'd probably kill you for touching you, and if she didn't and decided to take a liking to you, she'd definitely fuck you to death." Xavier closed his eyes. With her having fed off of him before leaving he wouldn't have questioned that what he was going to agree to was a bad idea, but with her having been through two rounds of sex, she might have been worn down a bit. It might have worked, it was still iffy if the tranq would have any effect on her hormone driven system. As far as he knew the pheromones would counteract it and she would just go even more into a rage. He shook his head slowly. Even if the tranq knocked her out, if Marcus had his people looking for her, they could swarm Geo's car, and then steal her without resistance.

---

Marcus smiled softly as he flipped through a book, "Well, In any case, I'm sure something will fall into our laps soon enough. Everything always does."

 

[Perplexia]

Pete Radioed to Geo, and Geo Sped up into view of Raven just as she slit open the throat of one of the men at the door. "too late Geo replied shes on her way in, one of his down so far. She's fully vamped out"

Raven wasn't thinking which caused her to walk into the layer of thugs without hesitation. It was the second floor of Marcus' gang that ended up in her demise. Before they arrived to the screams of the guys yelling for help she had gone bizerk on all that came near her. Marcus stared at her with eyes as wide as glaciers the fear feeding her hatred and rage As she cornered him she was grabbed from behind. She managed to kill three out of the 7 in the room before she was finally held by the other four. Marcus smiled and strolling to close, she kicked his face hard knocking out several of his teeth and smashing his nose. Four grown men had a hard time restraining her, but eventually had her stripped and tied over the pool table.

Marcus was the first to rape her, taking her hard an fast the others lined up for their turn, one after the other, one hole after another. One made the mistake of shoving his cock in her mouth and she bit it off. Now there were only four left including Marcus. Dead bodies and blood stenched the building. Geo Radiod in
"Its too quiet, i think they have her"

 

[Bluemage]

Marcus had been amazingly surprised when Raven had shown up and dispatched of so many of his men. She had never been like this before. So strong, so full of rage. He was filled with fear when he saw her advancing on him, and then the other men had pulled her back. He smiled at that. It looked like she was maybe not as strong as she thought she was. He smiled as the boys held her down and then advanced on her chuckling, "We're gonna have some fu-" It was at this point that he had caught the foot in the face which knocked him on his ass and made him spit out his teeth before bringing up his hands to check to see if his nose was broken. Luckily for him he had taken the brunt of the blow to his chin. He narrowed his eyes and got up again as the boys began stripping her.

One of them laughed softly when he pulled down her pants, "She isn't wearing panties boss. She definitely came for a fucking."

Marcus smiled at her naked body as they tied her to the pool table, "That she definitely did. And she's going to get all of the fucking that she can handle after what she did to our men, again." He smiled and slid in behind her. He was the first to fuck her, had, fast, relentless, pounding into her hard enough that her hips smacked against the pool table with every stroke he made. He continued like that until he had spilled his seed inside of her, and then he passed it onto the next one, they all continued, each taking a different hole until someone went for her mouth and they discovered that wasn't a good hole to take. He had threatened to shoot her in the head, but Marcus had put a quick end to that though.

After they had all had their turn with her, or died due to stupidity, Marcus came up behind her again, smiling as he leaned over her once more before whispering softly into her ear, "It doesn't look like Mr. Kung Fu is coming to save you this time." He smiled as he lined his shaft up with her again, "Don't worry though, babe. I'll take care of my new fucktoy. If you moan for me and tell me how much you love my big cock, I'll make sure you get top treatment." He smirked and then thrust his hips forward and began to fuck her hard and fast again, knowing that he'd be able to last a little bit longer since he had already spilled his seed into the girl's tight lips once tonight.

He smiled as he remained leaned over her and continued to pound into her sex, his balls slapped against her clit with every stroke that he made into her. He chuckled and looked over to the other guys who were still around, "Even after all that, she's still as tight as a vice. I guess she really does get off on this." He smiled softly and kept pounding her, moaning softly as he did so, "I'm not sure how Mr. Kung Fu ever let you go, or how you ran away. He must have a small penis, so you came here to get some real man, eh? Now you'll get it all night long."

---

Xavier had been recovering on the bed and had been listening to the radio. He narrowed his eyes when the message came in that it was quiet and they thought that she had been caught. His eyes changed colors, quickly turning red. He pushed himself up off of the bed and with a shaky step stepped forward.

Peter looked up suddenly, "Master, are you sure you're in condition to go in there? We could send a squad..."

Xavier let a hiss escape his mouth as he turned his head to look at him, "I'm the only one who can do it." He walked into the training room and armed himself with a few bladed weapons. He then turned his head to looked back to Peter, "I'm going to destroy him, and his gang." His eyes still crimson he took a long breath, "Keep your men out of there. I'm going in, but only she and I will be coming back out." He then closed his eyes and headed towards where Marcus and his gang were going to be. He was going to be killing tonight.

---

Marcus had continued to pound into the girl who was tied down to the pool table and helpless. He moaned and groaned. He was approaching his limit. He continued to pound into her, his thrusts now getting more desperate as he did it. He continued to pound into her and then let out a very long and low moan and then gave her one final thrust before again filling her sex with his seed. He smirked softly and then slowly withdrew from her and looked over to the other men, "Alright, boy's who's next?" When he turned around however it was to look to the door to the basement where they were. The room was filled with the crack of gunfire and Marcus immediately doubled over, his hands holding at his groin, blood spraying from between his fingers.

Xavier was standing in the door, a smoking pistol in hi hand, his expression a mask, hiding all emotion. He was wearing a long trench coat, and the inside of it seemed to be lined with various sharp weapons. His eyes were still a frightening crimson. He spoke in a voice that spoke of the fires of hell, "None of you will escape." He brought his hand to his hip, pulling out several copies of what appeared to be some kind of flat metal knife. His next move was a flurry of motion and before any of the men could even head back towards their pants to retrieve their weapons he had thrown the flat knives, killing all of the men left in the basement with the exception of Marcus.

Marcus was still doubled over. He had fallen onto his knees, his face against the floor, "Mother fucker..."

Xavier had walked silently over to where the pool cues were, taking one of them off of the wall before walking over to where Marcus lay doubled over on the floor. He spun it around in his hand, and then without having to look at Marcus he jammed the cue up the man's ass, as far as he could go, which with his vampire strength was very far indeed. This caused Marcus to bleed rather profusely but also kept his body propped up in that position. Xavier looked at the man's body, and then looked at Raven, who was still tied to the pool table. He reached over to the throat of one of the men that he had struck with one of the flying knives and drew the weapon out, so that he could cut her bindings. He then draped the trenchcoat around her, her up in it and picked her up, cradling her in his arms. He said nothing to her as he carried her out of the basement and into the street where Geo was still waiting as he had been instructed.

The vampire man didn't even turn his eyes to Geo before speaking, "Level it."

Geo raised an eyebrow, "Excuse me sir?"

"Destroy it. Blow it up. Burn it to the ground. I don't care. I don't want to ever see this building again unless it is on fire on the evening news." He looked at Geo with his fiery red eyes, "Destroy this building. Understand?" Geo nodded and quickly went to work radioing back to base for the things that he would need. Xavier opened the back door to the black vehicle and slipped Raven into the back seat before sliding in to sit next to her. He still hadn't said anything to her, because he wasn't sure what he should say, and he blamed himself for what had happened to her. He closed his eyes tightly and just tried to relax a little in the back seat. He let out a long sigh and then reached over offering the girl his wrist.

 

[Perplexia]

After she'd succeeded in killing another of Marcus' gang by biting off his cock the world became dark. She went into a stage of shock, blacking out the events that occurred to her and the sounds around her. She remembered a flash and floating. Being cradled in arms she knew, a scent that was familiar and calming. Raven sat motionless in a ball, a blank look upon her blood spattered face. Her entire body covered in bruises and blood of the men whose lives she'd taken so effortlessly.
It was if she weren't even there in this body, so lifeless and unresponsive.

When Xavier held his wrist to her she still stared blankly in the position he'd placed her. The combination of the hormonal rage and the blinding blood lust was more then the young vampires mind could take in.

As they arrived home, Xavier carried her inside depositing her briefly on the couch as he shed the coat and arsenal. With loving arms he carried her naked body to the shower where he sat with her under the hot water washing her body clean and looking for wounds. Amazingly other then bruises from the pool table and the interior ripping and mind damage she'd endured due to the rape she was unscathed.

After the shower, he sat her upon the kitchen counter and slowly pried her mouth and forced blood down her throat. Still she sat motionless, staring blankly as if she were in her own world a place that only Xavier would have the power to bring her from with his love.

 

[Bluemage]

Xavier had stared at her, feeling weak and useless. He hadn't been able to save her. He hadn't been able to help her, and as a result, she was in the state she was in now. He placed her on the couch for a moment, looking her over quickly to do a first check for wounds. If he saw anything that was noticeable, then when he put her in the shower like he planned, the water would cause them to sting rather terribly, and he didn't really want that, especially after she had been through so much.

He took her to the shower and washed her under the hot water, doing his best to wash off the blood and other bodily fluids that had gotten all over her body thanks to those monsters who were part of Marcus's gang. He continued to run his hands over her body, washing her. Once she was clean and dried, he carried her off to the kitchen placing her on the kitchen table, and feeding her the blood that she would need to begin her physical recovery.

He tried to look for something positive that he could take out of this, to make it easier for both of them to deal with, but the only thing that had come up in his mind that was even close was the fact that he now wasn't going to be allowed to own a pool table, and that wasn't really a positive thing. It was also kind of the last thing that he was supposed to be thinking about, since she had lost a lot more than that.

He stared into her eyes for a few moment, noticing that she was still broken and distant. He then scooped her up in his arms and brought her back to the bed sitting down at the head of the bed and pulling her down in front of him so that her back was pressed to his chest. He took a long breath and then placed his chin on her shoulder, "I'm sorry, Raven...This...this is all my fault." He looked forward at the rest of the room, "I shouldn't have let this happen to you. I should have kept you here with me, or been there to save you." He closed his eyes and hugged her a little bit tighter, "I should have trained you more, and asked what it was that you were going to do. I shouldn't have used my pheromones on you like that." He clenched his eyes shut, but still tears escaped the corners of his eyes and rolled down the sides of his face, "Come back to me...please come back to me. I'll make it up to you somehow. I promise. I'll never let you out of my sight again. I'll always be there to protect you." He opened his eyes, the tears still rolling freely down his cheeks, "Please don't leave me. Please...please..." He let out a silent sob and kissed at her shoulder, "Please come back to me."

 

[Perplexia]

The warmth, the scent, and the sound of his voice as his tears hit her flesh caused her eyes to flutter. Everything came rushing back as if a movie played in front of her head. As if she wasn't there, but only watching it. Raven screamed and began to shake violently over the terror that unfolded before her eyes.

She'd almost killed Xavier was the part that attacked her the worst, then that she had been so foolish to almost get herself killed, the blood everywhere, men crying out as she murdered them all. The sound of Marcus gloating over finally getting to fuck her. Then the rest was blank other then the flash, Marcus screamed and she floated.

Raven screamed and cried out as tears came rushing to her, the terror an pain of the night hitting her as Xavier's arms held her so tightly. She turned and buried her face in his chest clinging to him so tightly. "i'm so sorry please don't hate me i love you so much" words that came from her repeating them over and over as she cried hysterically in his arms.

 

[Bluemage]

Xavier hugged her tight to him, pulling her head down against his chest and letting his chin rest on top of her head. He sat there, running his fingers over her back slowly. He had heard her scream, had heard the beginning of her crying, knew that the images were playing through her mind, that she was reliving it all, including the rape. He patted her back, tears still flowing down his cheeks.

It was when she apologized and begged him not to hate her that he had choked out another sob himself and just stroked his hands up and down her back, "It's alright Raven. You're save now. It's alright." He kissed the top of her head, still crying, "I..." He closed his eyes tightly, "I won't fail you like that again." He kissed her head, "I'll make sure that I never let you out of my sight. I'll make sure that no one ever hurts you. Just please stay here with me. Please forgive me..." He kissed her head still crying, "I'm sorry...I'm so sorry." He closed his eyes, his lips still against the top of her head, "I'm so sorry..." He continued to whisper the words, his lips against her head.

 

[Perplexia]

"please don't leave me, I'm so sorry" she found herself repeating the same words back to him. For the first time she was unable to console him, her mind to shattered as she clung to him so tightly. "I'll never go, please don't hate me, I love you so much, i almost killed you, I'm so stupid please forgive me, how can you ever look at me the same, I'm tainted, I'm a murderer, the crying continued as they both continued their sobbing over the occurrences of the evening. At some point she had fallen asleep buried into his chest with his arms around her so tightly, his head upon hers.

For the next couple of days anytime he moved she had to be with him. She would find herself panicking if he left the room for more then a few minutes. Making love hadn't been an option, but slowly each day he could touch her a little more with out her balling up. His words of love were her healing. Always fearful he would change his mind, and slowly building back to the place they had been. Days turned into weeks and weeks into months. Every day he'd been patient, a saint, attentive to her needs, never stopping the fight to bring back his Raven.

It took Raven a couple of months before she was ready to allow Xavier to make love to her again. Her mind had mended for the most part with his help to understand that he saw her the same way. She was always his, and would always belong to him. "I'm ready she said softly as his hands roamed over her body, glad to be able to touch her again without her wincing or pulling away. He understood it wasn't him she was pulling from, it was how unclean an unworthy of him she felt. "I'm sure Xav" she said softly reassuring him that she wasn't doing it to appease him, but that she herself needed to feel him again. To be one with him. It was the final step in overcoming the trauma they'd incurred.

 

[Bluemage]

For the few months that Xavier needed to let Raven recover, he himself had been feeling unworthy of her sex as well. It had been because he had used his pheromones on her that she had gone crazy and ran off, and while he was sure there was a time and a place to use that much pheromone on her, it wasn't when she was contemplating something like killing off a gang of thugs, so he had made the decision that he wasn't going to use the pheromones, at all. He wasn't sure he was ever going to be able to build her trust of him back up to what it once had been. He had failed her. He had let her down. He had pushed her to doing what it was that she had done, and then it had resulted in so much pain, so much suffering. If she hadn't trusted him enough to tell him that she wanted the training so that she could kill Marcus and end her suffering before she had done it, then he couldn't believe she would ever trust him enough to let him to let him know if something was wrong in the future, and as a result, he couldn't ever use his pheromones on her, even if being fucked to death didn't sound like such a bad idea.

For the first month, he hadn't even felt that he was worthy of touching her, but when she had asked him to, he decided he wasn't in a position to deny it to her. He was a simple servant, doing whatever he could to make her feel better, doing whatever it took to help her get over the pain of the experience that night when he had flooded her system with pheromones and a perverted punk had tied her to a pool table and raped not only her body, but her mind and spirit as well. He had done whatever she had asked, and when the tension had built and he needed release he would proceed to the bathroom to do it himself while thinking of better days when he and Raven would spend so much time in the shower, doing anything but getting clean.

On the day that she had finally said the words 'I'm ready' he had pulled his hands away from her and almost pulled his body away from her. She was ready, but was he? The guild still hung in his heart. If he started this again then it might become a vicious cycle where he accidentally let out his pheromones and drove her into another rage where she got hurt. He stared at her, unsure of what he should really do. He wasn't sure he was ready for this. He wasn't sure he was ready for her to forgive him. What he had done had been so wrong. What he had done had cost her so much. He closed his eyes tightly as she said the words 'I'm sure Xav'. He tightened his hands into fists. He couldn't deny her. He knew that. She obviously felt that she needed this...but, he wasn't worthy of her. He looked up at her, trying to reason with her, trying to let her know that he didn't deserve to touch her like he had so far, but no words came from his mouth. He stared at her and swallowed, his mouth and throat having become very dry. He turned his head to the side and stared at the bedsheets, "I...don't deserve it, Raven...I don't..." His eyes screwed shut, tears rolling down the sides of his face, "But if you ask, I won't deny you. I can't deny you." He slowly looked back up to her, still unsure of himself, "Even if I'm not worthy enough to touch you, I'm not worthy enough to deny you anything that you want."

 

[Perplexia]

Raven turned to him wrapping her arms around him. "you're so wrong" she said softly whispering in his ear. "I should have told you, i shouldn't have kept from you what was in my head. I should have trusted in you enough to understand. But my human side still lingered, it still believed that what i was going to do was wrong, that you would have stopped me. I wanted to tell you, i got to the point to where i was going to tell you. But i was so torn over it, over the betrayal and guilt i felt from holding it from you. You couldn't have known the reaction i'd have because i failed you, i failed us. I should have believed in you more then i did, i should have believed in us more then i did. I was still torn, i hope you will one day forgive me. Forgive me for putting you in that position, for the pain i almost caused you, for almost killing you, and for becoming soiled. I don't know how you can look at me, why i thought you would want to touch me again. I'm used goods now. Its my fault, and mine alone."

 

[Bluemage]

He narrowed his eyes and then shook his head slowly to everything that she said, only listening to half of it. He wanted her to stop. He wanted her to stop blaming herself for what he had done to her. He wanted her to stop seeing herself as unclean. He grit his teeth when she said that she was used goods and it was her fault alone, and then spoke in a soft but firm voice, "Stop." He opened his eyes staring directly at her and then brought his hand up, making sure that she looked directly into his eyes, "If I had spent more time training you. If I had asked why you needed the training. If I had handcuffed you to the bed before using those pheromones. If I had stopped using them and just told you what I wanted earlier on. If I had been able to stay up long enough to satisfy you. If I had demanded that you let me come with you. If I had Geo tranq you before you even got close to Marcus's base. If I had recovered faster..." He stared into her eyes, "If I had changed a single thing that I did that day, really anything that I did, the events wouldn't have continued, like removing a domino from a line." He stared into her eyes and then looked away, "It's my fault that it happened, and I wan't fast enough of strong enough to save you. I am not worthy of you."

 

[Perplexia]

Her eyes blinked as he told her all the things he'd thought he should have done. Blaming himself for what was her fault. "I love you Xavier" she finally said softly after listening to him.
"We need to agree that we are both responsible and let it go. I am not strong enough to do this alone. I can understand why you may have a hard time looking at me or touching me. But i don't see you as you see yourself. You could have walked away, but you still brought me home. When you could, you came for me bringing me back to you where i belong" the tears fell from her eyes as she continued to look into his. "I need you to love me and want me again, I need you to let me love you and we need to forgive ourselves for what was. I still have the right to choose who my heart belongs to, and i choose you. It will be yours for as long as i live. It is your choice to accept it, or deny it. If you deny it, then i will go and we will both suffer alone and apart. If you accept it, then we will join as one force and allow the past to rest and move forward. I can't make you allow yourself to forgive yourself. I can't make you feel that you deserve me. You have to make the decision if i'm what you want. If we can put this behind us and go forward. I can accept that you may not want me. But i'm giving you that decision, not making it for you." she kissed him softly on the mouth and rose from his arms.
He needed time to digest what she had said. To make a decision if they could survive this or not.
She placed on his shirt and went out to the balcony to enjoy the view of the night sky. She smiled as she touched the railing replaying in her head where she told him she loved him. She played with the ring on her finger, remembering how she turned it so that she belonged to him. They could blame themselves for a life time, or move past it and enjoy eternity together.

 

[Bluemage]

Xavier had gotten up slowly and followed Raven a few moments after she had gotten up and left. He looked around his room and then pulled on a back robe, tying the knot at the front and sighed softly. It would let him follow her most anywhere she had gone, and that would be nice. He took a long breath and then followed her onto the balcony. He brought his head forward and let his chin rest on her shoulder, "You look sexy in my shirt." He stared down at the scenery, enjoying it and the feel of her held against him. He took a long breath and looked down at her ring. He smiled softly at that and brought one of the hands that were wrapped around her up to take hold of her hand. He smiled as he looked at the ring on her hand. He smiled softly and kissed at the side of her neck and then let go of her hand before whispering softly, more to himself than to anyone else, "For better or worse." He smiled softly and turned his eyes to look back to Raven, "I'm not really sure that this is where I wanted to make love to you again, I think I'd much rather take you to the bed back inside." He looked forward again and then smiled softly, "I'm still not sure that I deserve you, but that decision isn't up to me." He smiled softly and then kissed at her neck again and sighed softly, "My shirts definitely look a lot better on you than they do on me."