SlaveMasterUK
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Following on from the sleeping thread, I thought I'd start something about dreams. They fascinate me.
I apologise if this has been done before, but I've been away for... quite some time.
I rarely remember my dreams these days. Sometimes the odd snippet will return to me throughout the day, a bit here and a bit there; I know there was always so much more but can never hold the thread long enough to remember it.
Sometimes I have nightmares though. Usually they're the only dreams I remember. To me, there's a very fine line between a nightmare and a nice dream - any dream can suddenly come bad these days, just as a bad dream can come good. For example, I used to have a recurring dream that I bunch of lads were after me, and no matter how many I knocked down more kept coming, until I was battered and bruised and near exhausted. Eventually I'd find out who was behind it all - a gorgeous cute little brunette, who by rights I should have been totally pissed off with, but for some reason it was love at first sight - and what was a nightmare suddenly becomes a romantic dream, the sort that sticks with you all day, the sort that makes you feel giddy and light-headed and just a little love-struck.
A long time ago, after I recovered from my first phase of depression, I learned how to control my dreams. I could catch a dream as it started, then steer it where I wanted it to go. Not happy with the company? Change them for someone more fitting to my desires. Not happy with the supermarket? Change it for a penthouse suite. Superb. I've mellowed out a little since then and I lost that skill quite some time ago, but still sometimes it's possible to steer a dream just a bit - if I realise it's a dream, that is.
I recently dreamt that I was dreaming. That was odd. I was having a nightmare, and I forced myself to wake up because I knew it was a nightmare. So I forced and I forced and I shouted "THIS IS JUST A DREAM!!" And I woke up - breathless and afraid, but I managed to calm down. It wasn't until quite some time later that I realised I was actually still dreaming.
I had another freaky dream recently - one of those dreams that seems real until you wake up, a dream that never gives itself away so that you believe everything is real and then get a shock when you finally open your eyes. I dreamt that I was trawling the web, and I found a site claiming to have various 3D animated porn movies for download. Now being well into the whole cyberbabe thing, I checked it out - I downloaded one that sounded just my style - a bit of enforced lesbianism, some humiliation, a lot of teasing and denial. Just as soon as I started watching, however, I realised in combined awe and horror that it was an animated version of Rhiana, my first erotic novella.
Now for those that don't recall, I was in a very dark place when I wrote Rhiana, and used it as a melting pot to put all the hate and darkness that I had swimming around in my mind. Having conquered that illness now, I find the story chills and frightens me, it disturbs me as much as it turns me on. The animator had used his artistic licence to put the film together; the characters didn't look much like my original design but they acted the way I envisaged they would; Rhiana behaved in exactly the way I had written, right down to the way she begged and cried when she was being humiliated. The story - my story - was so twisted that I wanted to turn it off, but found myself rooted to the seat, unable to move, unable even to swallow the hot, hard lump that had risen in my throat, choking my breath.
It's wierd, having a dream which is both seethingly arousing and hellishly terrifying at the same time.
I have so much more I could talk about, like the time I stopped dreaming completely, or the time I had a dream that lasted an entire summer and is the basis for a novel I intend to write one day... But I'm boring you now, so more of that later. It's your turn now. Join me, and describe your dreams...
ax
I apologise if this has been done before, but I've been away for... quite some time.
I rarely remember my dreams these days. Sometimes the odd snippet will return to me throughout the day, a bit here and a bit there; I know there was always so much more but can never hold the thread long enough to remember it.
Sometimes I have nightmares though. Usually they're the only dreams I remember. To me, there's a very fine line between a nightmare and a nice dream - any dream can suddenly come bad these days, just as a bad dream can come good. For example, I used to have a recurring dream that I bunch of lads were after me, and no matter how many I knocked down more kept coming, until I was battered and bruised and near exhausted. Eventually I'd find out who was behind it all - a gorgeous cute little brunette, who by rights I should have been totally pissed off with, but for some reason it was love at first sight - and what was a nightmare suddenly becomes a romantic dream, the sort that sticks with you all day, the sort that makes you feel giddy and light-headed and just a little love-struck.
A long time ago, after I recovered from my first phase of depression, I learned how to control my dreams. I could catch a dream as it started, then steer it where I wanted it to go. Not happy with the company? Change them for someone more fitting to my desires. Not happy with the supermarket? Change it for a penthouse suite. Superb. I've mellowed out a little since then and I lost that skill quite some time ago, but still sometimes it's possible to steer a dream just a bit - if I realise it's a dream, that is.
I recently dreamt that I was dreaming. That was odd. I was having a nightmare, and I forced myself to wake up because I knew it was a nightmare. So I forced and I forced and I shouted "THIS IS JUST A DREAM!!" And I woke up - breathless and afraid, but I managed to calm down. It wasn't until quite some time later that I realised I was actually still dreaming.
I had another freaky dream recently - one of those dreams that seems real until you wake up, a dream that never gives itself away so that you believe everything is real and then get a shock when you finally open your eyes. I dreamt that I was trawling the web, and I found a site claiming to have various 3D animated porn movies for download. Now being well into the whole cyberbabe thing, I checked it out - I downloaded one that sounded just my style - a bit of enforced lesbianism, some humiliation, a lot of teasing and denial. Just as soon as I started watching, however, I realised in combined awe and horror that it was an animated version of Rhiana, my first erotic novella.
Now for those that don't recall, I was in a very dark place when I wrote Rhiana, and used it as a melting pot to put all the hate and darkness that I had swimming around in my mind. Having conquered that illness now, I find the story chills and frightens me, it disturbs me as much as it turns me on. The animator had used his artistic licence to put the film together; the characters didn't look much like my original design but they acted the way I envisaged they would; Rhiana behaved in exactly the way I had written, right down to the way she begged and cried when she was being humiliated. The story - my story - was so twisted that I wanted to turn it off, but found myself rooted to the seat, unable to move, unable even to swallow the hot, hard lump that had risen in my throat, choking my breath.
It's wierd, having a dream which is both seethingly arousing and hellishly terrifying at the same time.
I have so much more I could talk about, like the time I stopped dreaming completely, or the time I had a dream that lasted an entire summer and is the basis for a novel I intend to write one day... But I'm boring you now, so more of that later. It's your turn now. Join me, and describe your dreams...
ax