I want to begin this telling everyone here what I'm going through right now. However, I know introductions and explanations are necessary.
I'm a 22 year old straight submissive girl. I've known my whole life that I was weird, and I've known the words for the things I like since about 14.
I've done my own research, I've read several books, and I've met many people. I've experienced my fair share of kinky and vanilla experiences.
I have one unique fetish, however, which makes it nearly impossible for me to find a suitable partner. I adore bones. I like seeing bones under someone's skin,
and I like touching them even more. Try explaining that you can't help but want your boyfriend to drop 20lbs immediately, they're usually not that thrilled.
Haha, I think a woman would take it less harsh in most cases. However, this isn't the particular problem that I came here to address.
I play World of Warcraft. Yes, I'm a gigantic nerd! I also have a very loving fiance, who happens to be the laziest man alive, I'm quite sure.
He believes in efficiency over effort. To say that he goes straight to point C and skips A & B (the best parts!) entirely would be a gross understatement.
I've spoken with him about it, we're very honest with each other. He knows everything I desire, but for the life of him, he can't even summon up enough
energy to try it out. In a way, he fears failure, but I can understand that. Unfortunately for me, I fell in love with him despite all of these things.
Well, I became very attracted to an online friend whom I played World of Warcraft with. It was at first, merely an admiration of his quick wit and sharp tongue.
Without getting too much into game technicalities, his character was a higher level than mine. I became distressed about a situation in our guild, and I quit the guild,
preferring to gain experience by myself. It was at this point in time where he came to me and asked me to come back because I was a good friend, etc.
I promptly told him that I desired him, and to my shock, he already knew. He told me that ever since he first talked to me over the voice chat program our guild uses,
he'd been attracted to me, despite the fact that he had a girlfriend. He acted so professional about it and really just said that we should be friends and I should
come back to the guild. So I rejoined, only seconds later to have him turn around and essentially sexually tease and torment me. I knew he was getting off on it,
he knew I was getting off on it (or rather enjoying the way it slowly built up over a long period of time). The entire time this was going on, my fiance was completely
aware. He himself admired and respected this guy. I can't really explain it better than this guy just said the right words at the right time, he was just very good at teasing.
I was the happiest and most productive I've ever been in years. Then one night, he admits to me that he has deep feelings for me. Honestly, I only adored his personality,
and the way he said things and what he said. I didn't know him or feel like I knew his actual person. The next morning, he announced to me and the other guild members
that he was quitting World of Warcraft for good, and he gave us each a different reason for doing it, none of which involved me. He assured me that it wasn't me, and
made me promise to contact him on myspace. I was rather upset, but I did it, and he never responded back.
The problem isn't even the situation. I knew I'd never hear from him again.
However, I was getting something I needed there, I was getting something I've always wanted. Even though I was deprived of it before, now the void he left behind is much more
apparent. Another problem is I'm quite sure I prefer this type of interaction to most other things. My mind was eager to fill this void, even if it was through a game.
When I was a child, I was constantly nervous, I always thought there was some monster in the shadows, just waiting to get me, and I'd run and run, only to end up powerless in its arms.
When I finally gave in, I was tied down and teased verbally and tortured, this monster was all eyes, teeth, fingernails, and voice, and it was incredibly arousing.
I loved the fear and fascination of it all, of being helpless to something greater than myself.
These things that this man did, it's not just something I can explain to someone. A man has it, or they don't.
I'm not sure what I'm saying here. Certainly any advice you can give me will be taken to heart. I can't even seem to find stories online which feature characters talking
to each other in this way. It's all straight to business and physical, not seductive and aloof, all insinuations and threat.
If anyone else has similar desires, I'd love to know about them. Or if anyone knows of any places where I can find stories that are more verbally involved, not with
interrogation, but with cold-hearted, witty, and sarcastic teasing...
Thank you for reading all of this. I hope I was at least entertaining. ^_^
I'm a 22 year old straight submissive girl. I've known my whole life that I was weird, and I've known the words for the things I like since about 14.
I've done my own research, I've read several books, and I've met many people. I've experienced my fair share of kinky and vanilla experiences.
I have one unique fetish, however, which makes it nearly impossible for me to find a suitable partner. I adore bones. I like seeing bones under someone's skin,
and I like touching them even more. Try explaining that you can't help but want your boyfriend to drop 20lbs immediately, they're usually not that thrilled.
Haha, I think a woman would take it less harsh in most cases. However, this isn't the particular problem that I came here to address.
I play World of Warcraft. Yes, I'm a gigantic nerd! I also have a very loving fiance, who happens to be the laziest man alive, I'm quite sure.
He believes in efficiency over effort. To say that he goes straight to point C and skips A & B (the best parts!) entirely would be a gross understatement.
I've spoken with him about it, we're very honest with each other. He knows everything I desire, but for the life of him, he can't even summon up enough
energy to try it out. In a way, he fears failure, but I can understand that. Unfortunately for me, I fell in love with him despite all of these things.
Well, I became very attracted to an online friend whom I played World of Warcraft with. It was at first, merely an admiration of his quick wit and sharp tongue.
Without getting too much into game technicalities, his character was a higher level than mine. I became distressed about a situation in our guild, and I quit the guild,
preferring to gain experience by myself. It was at this point in time where he came to me and asked me to come back because I was a good friend, etc.
I promptly told him that I desired him, and to my shock, he already knew. He told me that ever since he first talked to me over the voice chat program our guild uses,
he'd been attracted to me, despite the fact that he had a girlfriend. He acted so professional about it and really just said that we should be friends and I should
come back to the guild. So I rejoined, only seconds later to have him turn around and essentially sexually tease and torment me. I knew he was getting off on it,
he knew I was getting off on it (or rather enjoying the way it slowly built up over a long period of time). The entire time this was going on, my fiance was completely
aware. He himself admired and respected this guy. I can't really explain it better than this guy just said the right words at the right time, he was just very good at teasing.
I was the happiest and most productive I've ever been in years. Then one night, he admits to me that he has deep feelings for me. Honestly, I only adored his personality,
and the way he said things and what he said. I didn't know him or feel like I knew his actual person. The next morning, he announced to me and the other guild members
that he was quitting World of Warcraft for good, and he gave us each a different reason for doing it, none of which involved me. He assured me that it wasn't me, and
made me promise to contact him on myspace. I was rather upset, but I did it, and he never responded back.
The problem isn't even the situation. I knew I'd never hear from him again.
However, I was getting something I needed there, I was getting something I've always wanted. Even though I was deprived of it before, now the void he left behind is much more
apparent. Another problem is I'm quite sure I prefer this type of interaction to most other things. My mind was eager to fill this void, even if it was through a game.
When I was a child, I was constantly nervous, I always thought there was some monster in the shadows, just waiting to get me, and I'd run and run, only to end up powerless in its arms.
When I finally gave in, I was tied down and teased verbally and tortured, this monster was all eyes, teeth, fingernails, and voice, and it was incredibly arousing.
I loved the fear and fascination of it all, of being helpless to something greater than myself.
These things that this man did, it's not just something I can explain to someone. A man has it, or they don't.
I'm not sure what I'm saying here. Certainly any advice you can give me will be taken to heart. I can't even seem to find stories online which feature characters talking
to each other in this way. It's all straight to business and physical, not seductive and aloof, all insinuations and threat.
If anyone else has similar desires, I'd love to know about them. Or if anyone knows of any places where I can find stories that are more verbally involved, not with
interrogation, but with cold-hearted, witty, and sarcastic teasing...
Thank you for reading all of this. I hope I was at least entertaining. ^_^
