Talk 2 Stegral

[NorthernPA4U]

No problem ... I was just hoping to be able to read better news about now. But at some point I will read the good news that you are back to work, a little stiff perhaps but basically pain free.

Just, make sure when you go out in public you wear a t-shirt that says ... "No Yanking, Please!"

 

[Stegral]

No problem ... I was just hoping to be able to read better news about now. But at some point I will read the good news that you are back to work, a little stiff perhaps but basically pain free.

Just, make sure when you go out in public you wear a t-shirt that says ... "No Yanking, Please!"

good idea !!! It just keeps getting worse it seems... thursday just past something moved & pinched a nerve so my right arm/hand was numb most of the day. I could manipulate it but couldn't tell if I had hold of anything or not. I am thinking in traffic making a corner with an 18+ wheeler might not be a good thing to try... hardly slept since wednesday & ended up just passing out sunday afternoon... woke up on the kitchen floor about an hour later & crawled into bed & slept for 6 hrs... I hate being hurt, it freaking SUCKS !!!


on a totally different note...

I have found lately that my mind is wandering back about 5 years... Back to a time I was engaged to a guy that went by "Cronus666". He was a womanizer that could melt me with a look, a word, or a touch... He was years ahead of me on the kinky path & would be shocked to see what I have become due to my being a hard core 'nilla at the time. He never communicated his needs but rather found outlets outside of our relationship so when I found out about "her" I was devastated. I walked away but never really left him behind, he never really got out of my head & now he is back up front... I miss him in a sick & twisted sort of way but thankful he started me down this path by wanting to know what "she" offered that I couldn't. I can still hear his voice, remember his scent & see him in my mind... I miss him. I wonder what he would think of me now? I know it shouldn't matter but I just can't get him back behind his door... dammit...

My life fucking sucks...

 

[NorthernPA4U]

good idea !!! It just keeps getting worse it seems... thursday just past something moved & pinched a nerve so my right arm/hand was numb most of the day. I could manipulate it but couldn't tell if I had hold of anything or not. I am thinking in traffic making a corner with an 18+ wheeler might not be a good thing to try... hardly slept since wednesday & ended up just passing out sunday afternoon... woke up on the kitchen floor about an hour later & crawled into bed & slept for 6 hrs... I hate being hurt, it freaking SUCKS !!!


on a totally different note...

I have found lately that my mind is wandering back about 5 years... Back to a time I was engaged to a guy that went by "Cronus666". He was a womanizer that could melt me with a look, a word, or a touch... He was years ahead of me on the kinky path & would be shocked to see what I have become due to my being a hard core 'nilla at the time. He never communicated his needs but rather found outlets outside of our relationship so when I found out about "her" I was devastated. I walked away but never really left him behind, he never really got out of my head & now he is back up front... I miss him in a sick & twisted sort of way but thankful he started me down this path by wanting to know what "she" offered that I couldn't. I can still hear his voice, remember his scent & see him in my mind... I miss him. I wonder what he would think of me now? I know it shouldn't matter but I just can't get him back behind his door... dammit...

My life fucking sucks...

You know, I've read through your thread, and while you have had some trying times with men, and while this current situation with your health definitely sucks, I think you have handled things quite well, considering everything.

The pinched nerve thing must really suck. I have one nerve that has a problem going through the slot on my left elbow, and my pinky and ring finger on my left hand always feel as though they are asleep. My get can bite there and hardly draw any attention. But I don't have to drive ... that must be very frustrating for you. I hope that aspect of your problem has since disappeared. I'm guessing that even a week and a half later, you probably still aren't cleared for work.

As for your ex- is there any reason you can't just contact him, ask how he's doing? It doesn't have to automatically lead to something uncomfortable.

 

[Stegral]

You know, I've read through your thread, and while you have had some trying times with men, and while this current situation with your health definitely sucks, I think you have handled things quite well, considering everything.

The pinched nerve thing must really suck. I have one nerve that has a problem going through the slot on my left elbow, and my pinky and ring finger on my left hand always feel as though they are asleep. My get can bite there and hardly draw any attention. But I don't have to drive ... that must be very frustrating for you. I hope that aspect of your problem has since disappeared. I'm guessing that even a week and a half later, you probably still aren't cleared for work.

As for your ex- is there any reason you can't just contact him, ask how he's doing? It doesn't have to automatically lead to something uncomfortable.

Thanks for the kind words...
I am a tough cookie I guess been kicked down most of my life.
I actually get to go back monday or tuedsay (if everything is closed for natal day up here on monday) my shoulders hurt still on occasion but I am gonna deal with it.. I still get to go to physio once I go back so it is good

The ex is in another province... the only way to ask him is through friends & when I even HINT I am curious how he is, I am told to stop because he hasn't changed & I will get hurt again... I pick up bits & pieces & have learned the one that drove us apart isn't with him anymore. apparently He sent HER packing... so that bit of irony I savour slightly.

I do still wonder tho...

 

[TheJestersAdvocate]

*hugs* Hope you're doing allright Stegral. Keep your chin up, a good soul like you will have the happiness she deserves soon enough....sometimes ya just gotta be patient, which is the lousy part of the deal.

And my two cents for the ex.....I'd say -if- you were going to meet him, do so in a neutral place. Personally speaking, I would probably not meet with an ex, especially if we had a similar history.....there's a reason why they are an ex. I am sure you will make the right choice in that regard and whatever you decide to do I wish you the best of luck.

 

[Stegral]

Kinky fun on Saturday Night

Burned again..

I think I will get me a toy or two & give up on men for a while...
Seems I have more fun without a S/O & it hurts less.

~~Steg~~

 

[Stegral]

WOW...

Just goes to show how often I am in here.

I am off elsewhere but things have been climbing upwards.
I am dating again.. A kinkster we circled each other & watched for months to be sure before going out for supper & a movie. then chats online, then dinner & ending up at a play party to try the toys in my bag on each other..
I am NOT into flogging, canes, spanks or the other such "percussion" types of play & neither is he.. he is a rope person. I have to work on this as I am terrified of being tied up. He is curious about my "sensory play" toys & enjoyed them saturday night He runs a few bondage pic sites on the side that cater to the "damsel in distress" or girl next door fantasy type of galleries. he is willing to try to learn some shibari to make me look pretty in rope. I have pics to attach.

I just hope all goes well as we are going slow & in stages.
we have almost all of our core values on the same page.

Wish me luck


Bluebraid was at X-mas, first try at hair bondage.
sexshow is me on the bed outside the dungeon that the local kinksters staffedfor all the "other peolpe" to come see, ask questions & play if they wanted to during a weekend show up here in jan
sexshow hair ties shows another hair bondage done for the show..

 

[Holy Devil]

WOW...

Just goes to show how often I am in here.

I am off elsewhere but things have been climbing upwards.
I am dating again.. A kinkster we circled each other & watched for months to be sure before going out for supper & a movie. then chats online, then dinner & ending up at a play party to try the toys in my bag on each other..
I am NOT into flogging, canes, spanks or the other such "percussion" types of play & neither is he.. he is a rope person. I have to work on this as I am terrified of being tied up. He is curious about my "sensory play" toys & enjoyed them saturday night He runs a few bondage pic sites on the side that cater to the "damsel in distress" or girl next door fantasy type of galleries. he is willing to try to learn some shibari to make me look pretty in rope. I have pics to attach.

I just hope all goes well as we are going slow & in stages.
we have almost all of our core values on the same page.

Wish me luck


Bluebraid was at X-mas, first try at hair bondage.
sexshow is me on the bed outside the dungeon that the local kinksters staffedfor all the "other peolpe" to come see, ask questions & play if they wanted to during a weekend show up here in jan
sexshow hair ties shows another hair bondage done for the show..

You're dating again? Wow. Good for you. I haven't dated in so many donkey years. Think I've forgotten to already. gush.

 

[Stegral]

Wow...

been over 8 months since I squeaked about that date...
Things are going very well, including the normal bumps..

I have relocated to his place & am slowly becoming accustomed to country living. I am not yet working as the accident in 2008 still has me crippled but he is fine & is in no hurry to send me off to work.

He meets all my unbendable needs.
I really hope this continues being the wonderful relationship it has grown to be

Suppertime

 

[boytoyjoy]

Missing you, Steg. It's been ages but some of us haven't forgotten. Hope you're well.