Talk 2 Stegral

[Stegral]

I have been Topping the fella mentioned off & on for maybe a year now... If we are both at the playspace & I am in Topping Mode, we play. There have been times I have turned him away & tells me he understands fully when I need personal space or subbie time... Considering my failure with another fella recently (I was WAYYY too soft for his needs, but I did try my best & we are good friends still ) My time Topping is extremely limited both in time (I play at a playspace on saturday nights) & partners (he is the only one I really Top as I need emotional connection). I have seen the PYL "Service Top" tossed about in different spots & wonder if that is more suitable for what I do with him as I don't Dominate him.. his G/F does that...lol

I do understand the draw of power slightly better,
but for me it is more enjoyment of pleasing his needs & making him feel good

I slid out of Domme/Top mode easily once the aftercare was done & we went out to socalize again..
It is a hard thing for me to stay in Top/Domme role.

Thank you all for the comments & encouragement

 

[WolfenPredator]

So Stegral is a chick?

Can you spell "stupid?"

 

[Stegral]

Can you spell "stupid?"

LOL.. just starting the thread I see...

MC is known as a troll I hear...

 

[WolfenPredator]

LOL.. just starting the thread I see...

MC is known as a troll I hear...

Well...

I think the AV gave you away as a female, since most men I know wouldn't want to be photographed in those cute panties...

 

[Stegral]

Well...

I think the AV gave you away as a female, since most men I know wouldn't want to be photographed in those cute panties...

yes.. but I change my AV on occasion...
can't remember what it was then...

(peek at the date)

I think it screwed him up as the topic was driving rigs...
MC figured I was male... nice to know trolls read profiles before spewing eh?

 

[Stegral]

This is just a rant...

this is a rant. Information follows....

*WTF ever happened to COMMON SENSE???

*WTF happened to COURTESY??

*WTF happened to RESPECT???

*Truckers CANNOT read minds.

*Truckers CONTAIN road rage.

*Truckers HAVE delivery deadlines.

*Truckers DRIVE ALL DAMN DAY.

*Truckers DESERVE respect.

*Truckers feel STRESS all damn day.

*Truckers are NOT well paid.

*Trucks DO have blind spots.

*Trucks NEED space to turn/corner.

*Trucks CANNOT stop as fast as car.

*Trucks are ALOT bigger & CAN total a car.

*Trucks might be full or empty, do you know which?

*Trucks might have a new driver or aged one.

Give the damn trucks space, time & whatever the hell else they seem to need...
Remember they are ALREADY or STILL at work, making sure everything is everywhere for everyones convienence while being one of the least respected, least paid "liscenced professions" in this country.
Until trains, boats & planes deliver to the stores, trucks are delivering the goods.
Every time we slam on our brakes to avoid stupid drivers we MIGHT damage the goods inside, which means writeoffs, higher prices & so on. Is the 3-10 seconds you are going to gain REALLY worth it??

Those rigs you see... the truck alone can weigh from 10,000 to 27,000 pounds ON IT'S OWN. The trailers can be from 3,000-5,000 pounds EMPTY... each axle you see on the trailer means it COULD have up to 20,000 pounds of freight, so 2 axles =40,000 pounds, 3 axles=60,000 pounds, if they aren't on the highway they COULD be overweight. I have hauled some through Halifax 2,000-7,000 pounds over the 60,000 pound frieght MAX.

simply put...
an empty truck & trailer could weigh as little as 13,000 pounds but fully loaded it could be 80,000 pounds OR MORE!!!
Do you realize how much your car or the average car weighs? (usually about 3,200 pounds).
Most important to think of when you are about to cut off that rig: do YOU know if it is empty or full, maybe it is on route to the shop to have the brakes adjusted or one of several different factors YOU do not know of may affect it's stopping ability...

Your WHOLE CAR weighs the same as our FRONT END!!!!! ALLOW for this when you cut into that space in front of a truck & slam on your brakes (you have entered the stopping distance they NEED, so effectively you entered the 'kill zone'). Passing on the right is ILLEGAL (in North America)& if you get clipped because you didn't quite make it past us flying up the merge lane or realize there IS a car in front of us & can't get in, too damn bad. We take a while to get going & just as long to stop so MOST of us don't slow once we get our speed up. And in the city?? The engineers that paint those lines on the roads for everyone to STOP BEHIND at intersections knew what they were painting & put them there for a reason, they put them there for the rigs that MIGHT be using that corner as a turn, so unless you WANT to be forced back or have your hood/bumper/front-end removed, stay behind the lines if you happen to look up the road a bit & see a truck coming down. Don't try & beat it to the intersection, you may end up t-boned or totalled & dead.

We watch 30 to 70 feet of equipment, it only takes the time to blink & you can dissappear into a blind spot, or for us to not see you just ripped out into the intersection as we were checking our mirrors.

Please use some common sense & realize they can't stop fast, need space & sometimes can't see you.

Think of an elephant & a dog... the dog moves fast but one bad move & the dog gets stepped on & is not so fast anymore.

A good friend of mine is trying to deal with a car cutting in front of him from the RIGHT lane to make a LEFT turn. I can't say what the driver was thinking as had they waited 30 seconds, stayed behind the truck & turned the car driver & the passenger MIGHT still be alive today. My friend is STILL trying to think of how he might have avoided it but he can't. The car was at TOTAL fault, but HE is scarred with killing 2 people because of someone's inability to sit behind a truck for less than a minute.

I have taken people in my rig for a shift & the attitudes change once they SEE what we deal with...
Think about what you are doing around tractor trailers it might just save damage or a life.

Gods help us if truckers have a road rage day...

 

[firespin]

Nice rant. Most truck drivers are excellent drivers. We appreciate getting our stuff delivered.

I know cars seem small, but 1200 pounds would be less than a Smart car. Most cars on the road are 3,000 (for a small one) to 5,000+ (for a big SUV)

 

[Lady Reiha]

hope your having a better day Stegral.

 

[TheJestersAdvocate]

*gives a big warm bearhug* Hope you're doing allright, Stegral.

 

[Stegral]

having a really shitty week

Well... good thing I had some painkillers still in my place...
I can't understand how parens let a child under 5 out of sight.
I was leaving the reptile show this afternoon with my animals in containers/coolers & doesn't a little fella come ripping around a corner full bore & BANG STRAIGHT into my left knee... I hyperextended that one a little while ago & the pain was overwhelming... All I got out was "Holy FUUCCKKKKK" as I dropped the cooler with 2 snakes in it, somehow kept hold of the rubbermaid with the skink in it, fell to the ground & started crying it hurt so bad. The mother of said child came around the corner & looked at me all pissy, told me I should watch my language, took the child's hand & stormed off. I couldn't respond I was in so much pain. I limped out to my car (which I unfortunately decided to park at the far end so the visitors didn't have to park out too far) & was in tears again once I got in it felt like my leg was broken it hurt so bad. I got home, got the animals in the cages & found the pain meds... Took 2, grabbed the ice pack & headed to bed. I was supposed to go help paint after the show but I just slept... Got it re-rapped now in the "soft cast" stuff from last time & am now wide awake at 2AM

With all the fear of kids going missing & with the crowds there that day I personally would have been keeping a shorter leash on my child, but I guess some parents just don't care. I have even more respect for parents that "harness" a child. I have never thought it was derogatory or anything, rather a very good safety measure especially if you have one that is prone to bolting off or if you have more than one to watch. but that is just my opinion.

 

[Stegral]

never again Wendell, never again.

You don't call for a month (even then you were drunk),
you haven't shown interest since before valentines day...
you think you can come over to my car after work & charm me over???
you not calling or texting hurt..alot...
hearing you were over "there" hurt.. even more than no calls...
seeing you at work & barely getting a wave from you was just nasty.

I know why you came over to the car tonight... you are lonely... I know you wanted to lean in & kiss me because my neck wasn't available but you didn't because someone MIGHT have seen. I know if you had have gotten at my neck my resolve would be goo. I think you are cute still & yes, I still harbour SOME desire for you. Luckily the pain & hurt I have felt since new years is still fresh in my mind & heart. You told me "someone was occupying your time" which is why you didn't call, so now since that didn't work out you come back to me, figuring you can pick up where you dropped me??? Talk about driving the knife in deeper & twisting it for good measure.. So I am a filler I guess, not a keeper. I finally get you off my car, get home, barely in the door & you have the gall to call & ask to come over, repeatedly????
What part of NO didn't you fucking understand???

FUCK YOU !!!​

You ripped my heart to shreds & it is still healing.
Add insult to injury since you still want "us" to be kept quiet, like you are ashamed to be seeing me.
If I can't have you in plain sight like an ordinary couple then I DON'T WANT YOU !!!
I did up a quick pro's & con's list, you suck !!!
there will be no more chances, no matter how much my body wants to have you,
my heart will remind me of the inner pain & turmoil you bring.

"don't love me part-time, love me full-time"

Can't do it?? oh fucking well... YOUR LOSS!!!

I am sure sometime before I die & can still appreciate it I will become involved with SOMEONE that respects me, loves me, cherises me & wants to KEEP me all to themselves

P.S. Lisa you bitch.. if you googled this name, fuck you too... I hope you print this off & show him.

 

[Stegral]

For all the people out there that have Mom's to call & say Happy Mothers Day to or are taking Mom out for lunch/supper, or had the kids make Mom breakfast in bed (don't make her clean the mess they made!!!) I am glad you enjoy this day.

For all of those that are grieving a loss of a Mom that is gone I am sorry that you miss Her so much. You must have had a wonderful bond growing up & I consider that fantastic. I am glad Mothers like that stay in their childrens hearts, no matter how old they get I am sorry you have to endure this day.

For those that wonder why our "Mom" is still alive & hurting all she speaks to & wishes whatever power would have taken ours instead of someone that was truely loved. I am sorry society demands respect to one not deserving of it. I fit into this category as I wonder why mine is still alive & creating pain & anguish wherever she goes instead of one of those ones that truely would have made it a better world, even if only for a few people.

If God "works in mysterious way" then he is one sadistic bastard.
From what I see things are getting worse & understand more each day why I choose not to follow that god fearing path.

I did get 2 wonderful messages from my teenage sons, so I am glad I am special to mine. the one that birthed me will never get a "Happy Mothers Day" from me in my lifetime. The stepmom that raised me more than her sure as hell will get a phonecall later today from me thanking her for taking over when my own mother couldn't be bothered.

 

[Stegral]

getting the winter blues out of the apt.

Well I have started my cleaning.
I KNOW you are symbolicly supposed to do it in the spring but I wait till it is nice enough to keep the windows & door open so I can smell the fresh air coming in as I clean. I have been working on getting Emily's cage ready for about a week now (she is my only legged pet, a Blue tounged skink) I got all the old crud out/off of it, got MORE dirt for her cage today (had extra from the small cage fill ups but not enough for this one), got her a deep bathing dish, the heat pad secured in the corner under said dish, fresh water in it & warming as we speak I need to put her plastic plants in, transfer her off & I can clean out her cage & get it ready for Digger to go into After that is done I will be tackling the rodent stuff, a few cages (+ diggers old tank) have to make a few lids for the cages (seems I have more cages than lids), mix up the food, clean the bathroom, finish leather project I have on the go, get showered and dressed for Illusions tonight... Tomorrow I tackle the kitchen, livingroom, do laundry, vacuum, dishes, do the weigh in & then go out photographing with a friend + dinner. Monday I hope to finish up whatever I missed (hopefully work DOESN'T call me in)

Happy Victoria Day Weekend !!!​

 

[Stegral]

Thanks for re-writing the bylaw to be NOTHING like the rough draft.
Thanks to the asshat that signed it .
Thanks to you ALOT of "prohibited" animals are going to be relaesed now as the local shelter DOES NOT take repiles. Any idea what this is gonna do??
(Thanks goodness I am part of a PRIVATE group that DOES take them)

This means that those 7 species of Boids are gonna free roam until caught.
This means that in a very perverse way the feral cat population is going to come down, small dogs left unattended & possibly infants on the ground crawling around if they are hungry & desperate enough..
Hopefully it is your prized cat or dog to get it first.
This means that there are species that are going to be unknowingly introduced to the ecosystem in this area & upset the already fragile balance. Granted a mexican iguana eating the yellow dandilions on your lawn might seem cute, or the monitors basking on the patio stones because the owners just let them go, but think of the ones you WON'T see... the african rocks, the retic's, the burms & yes the anacondas that MIGHT now be under your porch watching your dog or cat or on a worst case, unwatched small children now because they are prohibited & the owner decided freedom was better than death or having to hand over a calm, perfectly heathy animal to be put down. These SNAKES get 15 to 30 feet long!!! They are NATURAL predators!!! by taking them out of the safe stable enviroment the owners had them in with this by-law you put EVERYTHING at risk. I could undersand putting down an animal if it SHOWED agression & bit someone but not the ones we Herpers keep & tame & watch for irratic signs.
All I can say is at least you passed it in the spring so they at least have 2 seasons to get settled before winter hits...(snakes can/do hibernate)

BTW... do you know which critters are venemous? do you realize by making all venemous snakes & all arachnids illegeal you are putting the public at risk all summer due to releases???

You shit heads NEVER think of the ripples do you??
Just like "dangerous breed" dog owners... THE LEGIT ONES are NOT the ones you have to worry about because they ensure the pets they have are CALM & TAME!!! It's the jerks that perpetuate the base instinct & bring them back to wild animal tendancies you should be targeting.

Thanks, I will be getting the enclosures ready for the influx of reptiles found.
Thanks to you the kids in my area can't see my animals anymore because I can't bring them outside to bask or be touched so you have just perpetuated more ignorance for these wonderful animals. Just because they aren't warm blooded & furry dosn't mean they don't deserve to be loved & give love. click here to see you can cuddle with a reptile.

Steg.

P.S. This bylaw is just that A BY-LAW, we CAN & WILL relocate any brought to us to outside this fucked up municipality you should have put the ban on SALES of them & a grandfather clause for those already in secure stable enviroments...

 

[Stegral]

Industrial Accident

On the 11th I was picked up (literally) by one of these at work... It took me about 10 feet up & the pin that was holding the container it was TRYING to unload angled & slid out so the whole truck, chassis & I hit the ground.

All I could think of while in the air was :
"this is gonna hurt......"

It did & still does... After 4 hrs in a posture collar & being x-rayed from eyebrows to knees I was told I am "lucky" my back is strong (all those physically demanding jobs I guess) so nothing was fractured/broken/compresed. End result? no casts or splints to visually justify my time off but the "extensive soft tissue damage" has me off on some nasty painkillers till at least the 20th. The pain is a dull constant throb throughout my entire body with occasional sudden "ice pic in the flesh & muscle" kind of pain IF I move the wrong way or if I am lax in taking the pain meds. The hydromorphone makes me sleep alot because I rarely even take extra strength tylenol for pain, which usually works very well. I am sure the ibeuprofin is helping the doziness too. I am still going shack wacky as I am VERY limited to what cleaning I can do, I shouldn't drive, shuffle instead of walk & I can't sit on the comp for long either. I still go for physio for my ankle all though they did have to "alter" my exersizes to accomodate my recent pain until they get the go ahead to start working on my back too.. & THAT I am dreading, I took physically demanding jobs to strengthen my back so I would AVOID the back issues all the females in my family have had... I guess you can't change genetic probability... only allay it for a while.

I am in & out, off & on...

generally fucked up & worried.

 

[Guest]

On the 11th I was picked up (literally) by one of these at work... It took me about 10 feet up & the pin that was holding the container it was TRYING to unload angled & slid out so the whole truck, chassis & I hit the ground.

All I could think of while in the air was :
"this is gonna hurt......"

It did & still does... After 4 hrs in a posture collar & being x-rayed from eyebrows to knees I was told I am "lucky" my back is strong (all those physically demanding jobs I guess) so nothing was fractured/broken/compresed. End result? no casts or splints to visually justify my time off but the "extensive soft tissue damage" has me off on some nasty painkillers till at least the 20th. The pain is a dull constant throb throughout my entire body with occasional sudden "ice pic in the flesh & muscle" kind of pain IF I move the wrong way or if I am lax in taking the pain meds. The hydromorphone makes me sleep alot because I rarely even take extra strength tylenol for pain, which usually works very well. I am sure the ibeuprofin is helping the doziness too. I am still going shack wacky as I am VERY limited to what cleaning I can do, I shouldn't drive, shuffle instead of walk & I can't sit on the comp for long either. I still go for physio for my ankle all though they did have to "alter" my exersizes to accomodate my recent pain until they get the go ahead to start working on my back too.. & THAT I am dreading, I took physically demanding jobs to strengthen my back so I would AVOID the back issues all the females in my family have had... I guess you can't change genetic probability... only allay it for a while.

I am in & out, off & on...

generally fucked up & worried.

{{{hugs}}}} hope you feel better soon

 

[NorthernPA4U]

Lots of well wishes for you. I hope you have excellent doctors, and that your friends there locally are able to help you out a bit.

 

[Stegral]

Ty MSL & Northern.
I am now off till the 7th of july AT LEAST...
Doc re-asess's me weekly.
I have had to call in a few friends to help & I do have some mobility still, just not great.
I can't reach up too high (like geting stuff off top shelves) or it hurts, I cant bend & push (mopping or cleaning the bathtub) or it hurts, I shouldn't drive because I really can't turn my neck too far without pain.
Physio actually started on friday for my back...
I need to learn how to word things..
I know I had been thinking of working on my tan, having time off & wishing I could get paid for it... but I really DIDN'T want it THIS way... I was hoping for a lottery, not a constant dull body ache...

Reminds me of that old story "the monkey's paw"
be careful what you wish for, you might just get it...
just not the way you envisioned it..

 

[NorthernPA4U]

Ty MSL & Northern.
I am now off till the 7th of july AT LEAST...
Doc re-asess's me weekly.
I have had to call in a few friends to help & I do have some mobility still, just not great.
I can't reach up too high (like geting stuff off top shelves) or it hurts, I cant bend & push (mopping or cleaning the bathtub) or it hurts, I shouldn't drive because I really can't turn my neck too far without pain.
Physio actually started on friday for my back...
I need to learn how to word things..
I know I had been thinking of working on my tan, having time off & wishing I could get paid for it... but I really DIDN'T want it THIS way... I was hoping for a lottery, not a constant dull body ache...

Reminds me of that old story "the monkey's paw"
be careful what you wish for, you might just get it...
just not the way you envisioned it..

How did it happen that you got trapped in that situation in the first place?

As far as the monkey's paw ... I've had that happen before. It almost makes you want to stop hoping for anything ever again, just in case you get what you asked for.

Of course, it can't possibl be as bad as this man's dilemna:
Homer S.: "I'll make a wish that can't backfire. I wish for a turkey sandwich, on rye bread, with lettuce and mustard, and, <and> I don't want any zombie turkeys, I don't want to turn into a turkey myself, and I don't want any other weird surprises. You got it?

[the monkey's paw closes its finger in understanding, and a turkey sandwich materializes]

Hey! Not bad. Nice, hot mustard. Good bread. The turkey's a little dry.
[in realization] The turkey's a little dry! Oh, foe, the cursed teeth! What demon from the depths of hell created thee!

 

[Stegral]

How did it happen that you got trapped in that situation in the first place?

Not sure I quite understand "trapped" but I drive a tractor trailer for a living.
Unfortunately the picking up happpens frequently, all it takes is one of the 4 locking pins to slide back into position slightly & it will catch. USUALLY the ground checkers catch it & tell the crane to stop, mine wasn't watching as close as he should have I guess.. the crane operators are 60 feet up.. they can't see till it is too late. it is a hazard of working in a shipyard... at least I can enjoy some sun right now even though I am still in pain. can't do much around the place... have had to ask friends to help me with stuff I can't do on my own & it really sucks... I am really independant & feel lost when I have to ask for help. I hope the physiotharapy helps me get back to work.. I don't like being off..

 

[NorthernPA4U]

Not sure I quite understand "trapped" but I drive a tractor trailer for a living.
Unfortunately the picking up happpens frequently, all it takes is one of the 4 locking pins to slide back into position slightly & it will catch. USUALLY the ground checkers catch it & tell the crane to stop, mine wasn't watching as close as he should have I guess.. the crane operators are 60 feet up.. they can't see till it is too late. it is a hazard of working in a shipyard... at least I can enjoy some sun right now even though I am still in pain. can't do much around the place... have had to ask friends to help me with stuff I can't do on my own & it really sucks... I am really independant & feel lost when I have to ask for help. I hope the physiotharapy helps me get back to work.. I don't like being off..

Sounds like the boss had someone's ass available for chewing on for a good long time. But I can understand that the crane operators wouldn't lnow if the people on the ground aren't being careful.

As far as your friends go ... well, it's a good way to find out who is a friend, and who is a faux friend. I'm sure yout true friends don't mind helping you out.

 

[NorthernPA4U]

Just curious as to how you are making out ... progress, even if slow, I hope.

 

[Stegral]

Just curious as to how you are making out ... progress, even if slow, I hope.

unbearabley slow it seems..

Doc now has me off till the 28th of july.
I woke up this morning in so much pain & was crying..
I think I understand what migranes are now.
Slept off/on most of the day with little improvement.

I am finding out whom the real friends are & who aren't.

 

[NorthernPA4U]

unbearabley slow it seems..

Doc now has me off till the 28th of july.
I woke up this morning in so much pain & was crying..
I think I understand what migranes are now.
Slept off/on most of the day with little improvement.

I am finding out whom the real friends are & who aren't.

I am really sorry to hear how slow your progress has been, and at least think of you in terms of how strong you were up front and how much that has to be helping you. I hope things take a big upturn for you in the next couple of weeks, and the progress becomes more acceptable for you.

And I hope all the friends who you are able to lean on will find similar responses from others when they are in time of need. It's always good to have a few close friends who have your back.

 

[Stegral]

this has just been a really bad week for me it seems...
tuesday I had physio & was in pain b4 I got there.. I think I was a bit stressed because I promised to help a friend with a reptile presentation that day & being the non public person I am I was a bit worried as to what was expected of me. I had brought the animal I was going to show with me to Physio in her carry tote, did my thing while she slept on a hot water bottle & did the show when I finished physio. It was all good till a child literally yanked me off balance as I was crouched to show one of the snakes. It took all I had to block the pain/NOT swear because of being twisted/pulled to one side without warning. ok.. got home took some T-3's & went to bed.. Wednesday I got up & went over to the shop to "see the truck", realized they haven't even started work on it & attempted to "hop up into it" & saw MORE stars as soon as my left arm went above the shoulder, realizing THAT was a huge mistake. ok.. home & more painkillers, muscle relaxants & sleep. Woke up thursday stiff as hell, went to the doc's & I guess she realized the pain & put me off for 2 more freaking weeks... then physio in the afternoon along with a "weight test" to add insult to injury... I left physio feeling so useless that day, got home took more T-3's & Ibeuprofin, made a nuke it dinner, surfed the net a bit, read a bit & about 11PM I ALMOST got to sleep when I got a call that lasted till 5 AM came through (I am soooo glad I have a headset). I was supposed to meet someone for coffee that morning so when the call ended I had a shower & got ready. Off I go, end up in pain because the T-3's wore off & I was too nice to tell him I had to go. got home took some T-3's, did some things about the house, had a friend in from PEI & went out to supper with more friends, I was supposed to go to the weekly local house party but fell asleep getting dressed for it & woke up at 5:30 AM sunday. There is a weigh in on sunday afternoon & I was feeling not too bad (down to 201 now ).. Had a wake to attend in the evening I was cooking for & it all went of without a hitch UNTIL one of the kids grabbed me from behind & pulled & now I am back at square one again, almost dropped my glass of pop as the stars blinded me.. sat with the hostess & a best friend for a while with some ice on my back while we talked & came home & took some morphine. I really should be sleeping but the pain in my right shoulder & left ankle will NOT ease up.

I do hope when I wake up later today I start a better week than the last one.

Thanks for listening PA