Silly

[LadyVer]

Among Friends?

Don't make me laugh.

There are no friends here, there are spectators who delight in watching self destruction.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zMUGJZrR9Jg

Not the usual.

 

[JAMESBJOHNSON]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zMUGJZrR9Jg

Not the usual.

Mister Rogers ADULTS ONLY neighborhood.

 

[LadyVer]

Mister Rogers ADULTS ONLY neighborhood.

I thought you might like this one better than the usual. Change of pace.

 

[GrrlFriday]

Everyone thank you so very much, as I replied to Lauren I feel I am at least among friends. Thank you! I have not figured out the individual reply thing yet so apologies I will try to remember all main points.

I am from N India, considered pretty raised in loving environment, but patriarchal society so my husband was the man who had me. Intercourse. From college days I had a separate side not shared with any one, the cat calls, men groping a feel anywhere they could especially crowded buses, they fucking (oo how I love using the word lol) you with their eyes, we all were suppose to protest and be mad bout it, sometimes I was not, I was turned on...some incidents taking tuitions things happened (touching) that had me wanton, the dark side and I wanted more, it continued and I loved it, but again...

I did not mean to offend regarding priest comment. I did not elaborate but it was his eyes for real the lingering looks that made me start to think and discreetly he knows I know that his ogling is favored but neither of us has done anything ... probably nothing will happen...but this type of dark thought has me wet --also college professors, older neighbor, lol you see where this is going...

* by the way I am specially enjoying writing these words, wet, fucking,...how liberating...

Okay all you lovely people advised about husband. Sigh. what I said earlier here was because that is how I felt. I did approach him = disaster. I am known in my family for my long silky hair (do allow me to say so myself I love my hair) he was praising and my comment that this long hair could also be used to control me anyway he likes (light in the moment comment). He went quite, then angry then said he did not marry a prostitute...like I said disaster. There is this image I am seen in my family. Any deviance is not a good thing (all the culture n relevant pressures are taken too seriously ask any Asian).. So NO WAY, this venue is C-L-O-S-E-D

Someone here nailed it perfectly my conundrum and I love how you mentioned "virtually" I am among friends (I hope). I want to now explore, I want to say all that I have said, I want to imagine an weave my fantasies..

I would love to have friends, so far everyone who replied has been generous, kind, and caring...you have my heartfelt thanks. I feel welcomed.

Also, I am still figuring out turning pm, etc etc so learning curve

DO take care of yourselves, Lots of love n kisses

S

It's not so much that you offended people with your priest comment, just that no matter how much the priest stares, it's too risky to turn that into real life, or to just grab him intimately out of nowhere. If you like writing the earthy words, then perhaps you could write some stories about your fantasies and submit them to lit? That way you can express your fantasies pseudonymously.

I'm sorry to hear that your husband reacted so poorly to your off-the-cuff comment - would he also find it too confronting if you were to initiate sex?

 

[darksider_1]

I am sorry that your husband is so inconsiderate of your wants and needs and especially his comment of not marrying a prostitute.I was in a relationship with a woman I believe was pretty much like you.She had been married 20 years to a guy who was a real dud in bed to put it bluntly,only having sex in the missionaty position and no oral sex at all.Had to work on her a bit to get her to understand that she would not be a whore if she opened up to more things sexually.
Anyway like I believe someone else said here read stories on here.Do you have enough privacy where you can go and take your time and do the things you desire to yourself such as pulling your nipples ,squeezing your breasts and masturbate till you cum.While fantasizing about all the things you desire.Just in case,It is OK to masturbate.

 

[JAMESBJOHNSON]

I thought you might like this one better than the usual. Change of pace.

The other is a red flag to my inner serial killer.

 

[LadyVer]

The other is a red flag to my inner serial killer.

Yes, I've noticed.

 

[literal]

Hi everyone, very new here. Won't go into too much detail but being here is breaking one heck of a cultural taboo. So now I am here I want to ask/share some questions. I sometimes think they are silly & idiotic...but these are in my thoughts more n more... my friends would have a major freak...

-Is it normal to desire having breasts sucked roughly? (ok I said sounds silly)
-Normal to want them be groped out of the blue squeezed hard (not tearing 'em away but squeezed, lol)?
- Normal to wonder n attracted to older people (not too old but old enough)
- Is it normal to wonder what would I do if one of the older neighbor grabs me in the stair way...in my fantasy he would be demanding aggressive and I giving in...I get embarrassed afterwards as to why would I 'deprive' myself ....so confused
-I'm sick of my husband's too much gentle romantic love making, I do the dutiful but imagining being taken turns me on immensely and not I could not share with husband...tried to horrific result..
- I wonder about our priest, have caught him eyeing my breasts, imagine (have rich imagination lol) often wonder what would happen if I just walk up to him and touch his thing?
-I wonder about stern mature women sometimes sexually attracted only with the idea of her just bulldozing through and having me
-am I twisted?

I am 'normal' married woman with fam and home...

I actually read what I wrote here, don't think ought to be posted, but I will...if it is too stupid ignore...

take care of yourselves

S

I have no doubt many here must have thought the same things you listed.

 

[iamsidra]

I'm sorry to hear that your husband reacted so poorly to your off-the-cuff comment - would he also find it too confronting if you were to initiate sex?

Hi thank you--to answer no women don't initiate, I don't initiate...heavens no. I do not mean to make him out to be an ogre, he is loving works hard, caring & is very conservative and it is not a show, he is the same in my absence. I guess I married a gem who turns into dud at night ..

but this is about me so I will take suggestion made here maybe try writing that sounds fun

Thank you for the warnings that is why I said that I felt welcomed in exp here ; but sensible person in RL.

well off to some writing...

 

[GrrlFriday]

Sometimes, even though you love someone very much, an understanding isn't there. If it makes you feel less alone, 9% or so of Literotica's visitors are from India, second only to the United States. Best of luck with your writing!

 

[subdued_passion]

Hi thank you--to answer no women don't initiate, I don't initiate...heavens no. I do not mean to make him out to be an ogre, he is loving works hard, caring & is very conservative and it is not a show, he is the same in my absence. I guess I married a gem who turns into dud at night ..

but this is about me so I will take suggestion made here maybe try writing that sounds fun

Thank you for the warnings that is why I said that I felt welcomed in exp here ; but sensible person in RL.

well off to some writing...

Hello!

Anyone who hasn't lived here doesn't get how we straddle two worlds. We live in a modern India but our ways are old.

I am not shy or coy, I am the type of person who always is the one to initiate. You can imagine how challenging it is for me. Men are instantly intimidated. And it is such a turn off.

You can try playing out your fantasies here but it'll only help you get so far.

One of my close friends married a guy who she was engaged to since she was 2. She is emotionally and sexually unsatisfied. But she continues to do her duty. It's a good thing we have that raag drilled into our psyche or we wouldn't cope with a lot of things we are forced to.

 

[JAMESBJOHNSON]

Hi thank you--to answer no women don't initiate, I don't initiate...heavens no. I do not mean to make him out to be an ogre, he is loving works hard, caring & is very conservative and it is not a show, he is the same in my absence. I guess I married a gem who turns into dud at night ..

but this is about me so I will take suggestion made here maybe try writing that sounds fun

Thank you for the warnings that is why I said that I felt welcomed in exp here ; but sensible person in RL.

well off to some writing...

I suggest you grow up or get a divorce and find a better man. Good luck.

 

[subdued_passion]

I suggest you grow up or get a divorce and find a better man. Good luck.

JBJ sadly I know too many women here who are in a similar situation. So many of them resort to cheating, but there are others who are unable to bring themselves to even think it without feeling some sense of guilt over it.

From what she describes she already has a good man. No one would support her or stand by her is she chose to divorce her husband over sex. I've seen this happen to another friend... her whole family chose to abandon and ostracize her... and in her case she was tired of being repeatedly raped by her husband. He was a good husband and a great father in every other way. They asked her to just suck it up.

 

[JAMESBJOHNSON]

JBJ sadly I know too many women here who are in a similar situation. So many of them resort to cheating, but there are others who are unable to bring themselves to even think it without feeling some sense of guilt over it.

From what she describes she already has a good man. No one would support her or stand by her is she chose to divorce her husband over sex. I've seen this happen to another friend... her whole family chose to abandon and ostracize her... and in her case she was tired of being repeatedly raped by her husband. He was a good husband and a great father in every other way. They asked her to just suck it up.

So what are the real options?

Our randy hormones don't care about reality but reality exists. ITS NOT FAIR! I WANNA BE TEN FEET TALL! I DESERVED DIFFERENT PARENTS! I DEMAND 3 EARS!

99% of life is sucking it up.

 

[subdued_passion]

So what are the real options?

Our randy hormones don't care about reality but reality exists. ITS NOT FAIR! I WANNA BE TEN FEET TALL! I DESERVED DIFFERENT PARENTS! I DEMAND 3 EARS!

99% of life is sucking it up.

You're right about sucking it up.

Her options: she can either cheat (and train herself not to feel guilty about it) or just continue to be a dutiful wife.

Of course if this were a contemporary piece of Indian literature she'd manage to get her husband to see the error of his ways and indulge her as she desires... and if it was the standard Indian film she would see the error of her ways (not my interpretation, but the way society views things here. Damn that pativrata nari archetype).

 

[JAMESBJOHNSON]

You're right about sucking it up.

Her options: she can either cheat (and train herself not to feel guilty about it) or just continue to be a dutiful wife.

Of course if this were a contemporary piece of Indian literature she'd manage to get her husband to see the error of his ways and indulge her as she desires... and if it was the standard Indian film she would see the error of her ways (not my interpretation, but the way society views things here. Damn that pativrata nari archetype).

I've always been a master manipulator, and when I want an outcome what I do is make it happen. When courses were closed in grad school I got in anyway.

 

[iamsidra]

You're right about sucking it up.

Her options: she can either cheat (and train herself not to feel guilty about it) or just continue to be a dutiful wife.

Of course if this were a contemporary piece of Indian literature she'd manage to get her husband to see the error of his ways and indulge her as she desires... and if it was the standard Indian film she would see the error of her ways (not my interpretation, but the way society views things here. Damn that pativrata nari archetype).

oh you so much understand I feel as if a mute got speaking powers, as suddenly in New Dehli mid summer at noon 120 degree sun I found deep dark shade with mist I don't know how to describe, admit I am in tears..lol..suddenly just an understanding comment takes all tension away...I did not even realized I was straining my neck unknowingly, as my body relaxed I realized the aching neck ...

everything you have said is correct, every emotion, fear you described is real...I am here maybe I am growing sideways...it is a step...your timing was Bollywood perfect

love love love to all of u

 

[subdued_passion]

oh you so much understand I feel as if a mute got speaking powers, as suddenly in New Dehli mid summer at noon 120 degree sun I found deep dark shade with mist I don't know how to describe, admit I am in tears..lol..suddenly just an understanding comment takes all tension away...I did not even realized I was straining my neck unknowingly, as my body relaxed I realized the aching neck ...

everything you have said is correct, every emotion, fear you described is real...I am here maybe I am growing sideways...it is a step...your timing was Bollywood perfect

love love love to all of u

Glad we could help.

My friends belong to the dutiful women category, but I do know some who have "maryada paar kar di" and had an affair. The thing is that for women it all becomes very confusing after a while. We cannot separate the physical as easily from the emotional and it does become a huge mess.

Talk to people. If possible find a friend in real life you can confide in. Just a sympathetic ear helps a HUGE deal.

Try the SRP board (I haven't tried it so can't say how it works) and act out your fantasies there. I think it will be a liberating experience for you and it won't be cheating on your part.

Best of luck!