subwhore60
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(not sure this is the right place for this)
I will say I have not experienced in RL but the ideas turn me immensely.
The stories I gravitate to in my mind are filth but I can't seem to get enough: reluctant, fuckpig, piss, etc. The idea of being collared & leashed on my knees serving gets me soaking wet. (of course, some may think this is mild - but it's out of my norm)
I think I am a sick bitch, but a few online friends say I'm not abnormal - but yet it's stuff they like, so why would they tell me any differently?!
I know I am not into extreme shit: scat, extreme pain, etc. and I usually skip over that stuff, but if it's not "up to that point" I get bored.
I am somewhat embarrassed by my thoughts but as I look back at different times in my life, I realize these thoughts have always been with me, I have just buried them.
I'm not looking for a bunch of private messages, I guess I want some other opinions...
(I apologize I'm not very good with words, but I hope you get the idea.)
(not sure this is the right place for this)
I will say I have not experienced in RL but the ideas turn me immensely.
The stories I gravitate to in my mind are filth but I can't seem to get enough: reluctant, fuckpig, piss, etc. The idea of being collared & leashed on my knees serving gets me soaking wet. (of course, some may think this is mild - but it's out of my norm)
I think I am a sick bitch, but a few online friends say I'm not abnormal - but yet it's stuff they like, so why would they tell me any differently?!
I know I am not into extreme shit: scat, extreme pain, etc. and I usually skip over that stuff, but if it's not "up to that point" I get bored.
I am somewhat embarrassed by my thoughts but as I look back at different times in my life, I realize these thoughts have always been with me, I have just buried them.
I'm not looking for a bunch of private messages, I guess I want some other opinions...
(I apologize I'm not very good with words, but I hope you get the idea.)
I don't see my fantasies as sick. They're intense, and some of them I would never act out. If you get off on the thought that they're dark, or sick, more power to you. You are certainly not alone.
So would you share them on here or in private?Exactly. I have some fantasies that I would never act out, but they turn me on immensely in my mind.
Exactly. I have some fantasies that I would never act out, but they turn me on immensely in my mind.
I can understand why you would be troubled by this being a turn-on. I think it would be challenging for anyone with a conscience, feminist beliefs, basic human decency, etc, to not be able to draw a hard line between fantasy and practice with something this extreme. I think as feeling humans, it's difficult to watch someone be and look hurt and abused and treated as not even human. I think that would be a bad thing to desensitize yourself to, personally. Agree with the post above that if something you find arousing is causing such an issue for you, it's likely a problem and not a healthy indulgence.
From what I understand, and from what I looked up, by checking out the first Tumblr I found that was about fuckpigs, it's pretty heavy on using women as toilets, spitting on them, and completely degrading them in ways I've never even seen before, not just putting a pretty collar on them and doing some basic BDSM shit. Based on the OP's comments, I understood the more extreme, dehumanizing end of things to be the kind of thing she's talking about.
I think she is talking about collar and leash and such. Perhaps just seeing the very sensual images of women with jeweled collars turns her on but she knows her partner would not understand. This whole site is about dildos and sex and in many cases control or being controlled.
I spent a long time trying to deny my fantasies and it really didn't get me anywhere. Kink for me is as vital to my sexlife as dick is for a gay man. It's how I'm wired and there's really nothing you can do about how you're wired. You can choose how to express it and how much of it to share with your partner but what you can't do is just make it go away. I spent time avoiding kink online too and to be honest, I just obsessed all the more, without an outlet the itch just gets worse and worse and no amount of romantic sex will scratch it. Just my experience.
As for normal, normal is essentially bullshit. Unless you're privy to the bedroom antics of all your family and friends you have absolutely no clue what their idea of normal is... how kinky they are themselves. Wagging your own imaginary parental finger at your kinks is a total waste of your time, in my opinion (unless that gets you wet). If you're playing with consenting adults and staying safe do whatever the fuck you want to.
I spent a long time trying to deny my fantasies and it really didn't get me anywhere. Kink for me is as vital to my sexlife as dick is for a gay man.
my RL partner no wouldn't understand the collar & leash - but I don't see it as wrong but it can be degrading & THAT turns me on.
My "level" is closer to the MILD than the extreme - the degrading & the humiliation is a huge turn-on for me.
But I'm fighting all aspects of my fantasy life today.![]()
Distinguishing between reality and fantasy doesn't make you fake. It makes you rational. We are each best served by finding what works for us without trying to reconcile to what other people think is right/wrong or fake/real.