Sick Kink turns me on

[subwhore60]

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[SpunThings]

(not sure this is the right place for this)

I will say I have not experienced in RL but the ideas turn me immensely.

The stories I gravitate to in my mind are filth but I can't seem to get enough: reluctant, fuckpig, piss, etc. The idea of being collared & leashed on my knees serving gets me soaking wet. (of course, some may think this is mild - but it's out of my norm)

I think I am a sick bitch, but a few online friends say I'm not abnormal - but yet it's stuff they like, so why would they tell me any differently?!

I know I am not into extreme shit: scat, extreme pain, etc. and I usually skip over that stuff, but if it's not "up to that point" I get bored.

I am somewhat embarrassed by my thoughts but as I look back at different times in my life, I realize these thoughts have always been with me, I have just buried them.

I'm not looking for a bunch of private messages, I guess I want some other opinions...

(I apologize I'm not very good with words, but I hope you get the idea.)

I don't see my fantasies as sick. They're intense, and some of them I would never act out. If you get off on the thought that they're dark, or sick, more power to you. You are certainly not alone.

 

[box13]

Fantasy is just that...something you might not want to experience in real life, at least to that extent. There's probably some psycho-babble explanation of why we're attracted to extreme, or embarrassing sexual scenarios. Or else it's just needs to be enough to grab our full attention of our largest sex organ. Not sure. Maybe everyone has similar worries, but I don't know. Haven't polled.

Not here to tell you any differently, either...other than to not hurt yourself, or anyone else.

 

[NoJo]

It's okay if the idea turns you on, but is the fantasy getting in the way of your happiness? Do you feel you need to seek something like that in real life to be satisfied?

You know you're not alone in having "sick" fantasies -- just reading a few posts here will prove that! The trouble is, it can make you feel pretty isolated, particularly if, like me, you can't really share this with your partner or real life friends.

Do you want to "get rid of" these fantasies? Do you really wish to be "normal"?

I can answer that last question, regarding myself: I'll always have them, so I have to live with them, and not hurt anyone along the way.

 

[subwhore60]

Thanks

Thanks for the input...

I have mixed feelings about being "normal" .... not sure there is a "normal" - I believe all people have some little "abnormal" - sexually, emotionally, physically, etc. But there is part of me that would like to be done with MY "abnormal" & I have tried to stay away from the porn stories. But I continue to find my way back - sometimes I think that makes me "fake" - that I'm not willing to live out the fantasy .

Then there is the other - no, I don't want to be "normal". I love the rush, the pulsating heat in my cunt when I read & fantasize these nasty acts.

 

[Primalex]

A desire is an illness if it troubles you.

You will have to make up your mind one way or the other.

 

[4yourpleasureiam]

(not sure this is the right place for this)

I will say I have not experienced in RL but the ideas turn me immensely.

The stories I gravitate to in my mind are filth but I can't seem to get enough: reluctant, fuckpig, piss, etc. The idea of being collared & leashed on my knees serving gets me soaking wet. (of course, some may think this is mild - but it's out of my norm)

I think I am a sick bitch, but a few online friends say I'm not abnormal - but yet it's stuff they like, so why would they tell me any differently?!

I know I am not into extreme shit: scat, extreme pain, etc. and I usually skip over that stuff, but if it's not "up to that point" I get bored.

I am somewhat embarrassed by my thoughts but as I look back at different times in my life, I realize these thoughts have always been with me, I have just buried them.

I'm not looking for a bunch of private messages, I guess I want some other opinions...

(I apologize I'm not very good with words, but I hope you get the idea.)

Oh my You and I sound like we were poured from the same mold. I love being used and used hard. Please read some of my please to G-Man in the GLBT thread I have a need for such things. If you wish to PM me I will tell you some of the things I do.

 

[cuckolddaddy]

sick

I too crave sick repulsive kink and humiliation. Not sure why, maybe because I was raised by all women with low self esteem. Not sure. Wouldn't have it any other way.
Willing to share privately as can't share them publicly. I am messed up in the head, in my head.

 

[babslovesherdaddy]

I don't see my fantasies as sick. They're intense, and some of them I would never act out. If you get off on the thought that they're dark, or sick, more power to you. You are certainly not alone.

Exactly. I have some fantasies that I would never act out, but they turn me on immensely in my mind.

 

[Anuml2017]

Exactly. I have some fantasies that I would never act out, but they turn me on immensely in my mind.

So would you share them on here or in private?

 

[aace714]

Exactly. I have some fantasies that I would never act out, but they turn me on immensely in my mind.

I think you should both be good little fuck pigs and post so some picks of those titties of yours

 

[Tomahawk26]

I can understand why you would be troubled by this being a turn-on. I think it would be challenging for anyone with a conscience, feminist beliefs, basic human decency, etc, to not be able to draw a hard line between fantasy and practice with something this extreme. I think as feeling humans, it's difficult to watch someone be and look hurt and abused and treated as not even human. I think that would be a bad thing to desensitize yourself to, personally. Agree with the post above that if something you find arousing is causing such an issue for you, it's likely a problem and not a healthy indulgence.

 

[4yourpleasureiam]

I can understand why you would be troubled by this being a turn-on. I think it would be challenging for anyone with a conscience, feminist beliefs, basic human decency, etc, to not be able to draw a hard line between fantasy and practice with something this extreme. I think as feeling humans, it's difficult to watch someone be and look hurt and abused and treated as not even human. I think that would be a bad thing to desensitize yourself to, personally. Agree with the post above that if something you find arousing is causing such an issue for you, it's likely a problem and not a healthy indulgence.

I think she is talking about collar and leash and such. Perhaps just seeing the very sensual images of women with jeweled collars turns her on but she knows her partner would not understand. This whole site is about dildos and sex and in many cases control or being controlled. Not sick at all just things that in our society are not talked about. That is why I and a few I know talk here.

If I misread your intentions please accept my apology for butting in.

 

[Tomahawk26]

From what I understand, and from what I looked up, by checking out the first Tumblr I found that was about fuckpigs, it's pretty heavy on using women as toilets, spitting on them, and completely degrading them in ways I've never even seen before, not just putting a pretty collar on them and doing some basic BDSM shit. Based on the OP's comments, I understood the more extreme, dehumanizing end of things to be the kind of thing she's talking about.

I suppose I could be wrong, but I think you're reading way more into the OP's comments than I am--she didn't once say that her feelings of discomfort with this kink had anything to do with a partner, as you commented. She is unsettled within herself that things of this nature turn her on. Respectfully, I really think if anyone has the wrong end of the stick, it's you.

 

[NCarolinaChic]

I'm with Tomahawk. I understand the OP's discomfort with being turned on by scenarios that can seem twisted, sick and sometimes hurtful. I think it comes down to exploring within a safe place.
For example- my play partner can tie me up, whip me, and force me to gag on his cock til I puke...all while calling me a fucking slut.
It's an act and it turns me on. I have no idea why. But am I really a slut and is it really ok to allow someone to abuse me? No
I play with individuals who respect me and therefore give me what I want. No harm.

I'm sure you'll find that balance in what gets acted out, what gets watched and what is only fantasized about.

 

[subwhore60]

From what I understand, and from what I looked up, by checking out the first Tumblr I found that was about fuckpigs, it's pretty heavy on using women as toilets, spitting on them, and completely degrading them in ways I've never even seen before, not just putting a pretty collar on them and doing some basic BDSM shit. Based on the OP's comments, I understood the more extreme, dehumanizing end of things to be the kind of thing she's talking about.

I think she is talking about collar and leash and such. Perhaps just seeing the very sensual images of women with jeweled collars turns her on but she knows her partner would not understand. This whole site is about dildos and sex and in many cases control or being controlled.

my RL partner no wouldn't understand the collar & leash - but I don't see it as wrong but it can be degrading & THAT turns me on.

My "level" is closer to the MILD than the extreme - the degrading & the humiliation is a huge turn-on for me.

But I'm fighting all aspects of my fantasy life today.

 

[Anonymaso]

I spent a long time trying to deny my fantasies and it really didn't get me anywhere. Kink for me is as vital to my sexlife as dick is for a gay man. It's how I'm wired and there's really nothing you can do about how you're wired. You can choose how to express it and how much of it to share with your partner but what you can't do is just make it go away. I spent time avoiding kink online too and to be honest, I just obsessed all the more, without an outlet the itch just gets worse and worse and no amount of romantic sex will scratch it. Just my experience.

As for normal, normal is essentially bullshit. Unless you're privy to the bedroom antics of all your family and friends you have absolutely no clue what their idea of normal is... how kinky they are themselves. Wagging your own imaginary parental finger at your kinks is a total waste of your time, in my opinion (unless that gets you wet). If you're playing with consenting adults and staying safe do whatever the fuck you want to.

 

[strangekink]

I spent a long time trying to deny my fantasies and it really didn't get me anywhere. Kink for me is as vital to my sexlife as dick is for a gay man. It's how I'm wired and there's really nothing you can do about how you're wired. You can choose how to express it and how much of it to share with your partner but what you can't do is just make it go away. I spent time avoiding kink online too and to be honest, I just obsessed all the more, without an outlet the itch just gets worse and worse and no amount of romantic sex will scratch it. Just my experience.

As for normal, normal is essentially bullshit. Unless you're privy to the bedroom antics of all your family and friends you have absolutely no clue what their idea of normal is... how kinky they are themselves. Wagging your own imaginary parental finger at your kinks is a total waste of your time, in my opinion (unless that gets you wet). If you're playing with consenting adults and staying safe do whatever the fuck you want to.

I totally agree. Express instead of suppress. Suppression just causes problems, especially in a relationship. Expressing with a like minded partner is so satisfying on many levels.

 

[Primalex]

I spent a long time trying to deny my fantasies and it really didn't get me anywhere. Kink for me is as vital to my sexlife as dick is for a gay man.

Because we all know how dick-crazy those gay people are.

 

[followmenow6969]

my RL partner no wouldn't understand the collar & leash - but I don't see it as wrong but it can be degrading & THAT turns me on.

My "level" is closer to the MILD than the extreme - the degrading & the humiliation is a huge turn-on for me.

But I'm fighting all aspects of my fantasy life today.

You know where to find us

 

[policywank]

I don't know what "normal" is. Most people who try to tell us what it is are just barking their own strongly held opinion - its not rooted in empirical evidence or even simple consensus.

My guess is that if we could look inside one another's minds we would see that the accepted versions of normal are extensively sanitized and we all harbour thoughts that seem deviant by comparison. Over the course of my life I have frequently felt like an outsider or deviant only to find out as society became more open that my feelings were not unusual and sometimes positively pedestrian.

Distinguishing between reality and fantasy doesn't make you fake. It makes you rational. We are each best served by finding what works for us without trying to reconcile to what other people think is right/wrong or fake/real.

 

[NoCarbon]

Distinguishing between reality and fantasy doesn't make you fake. It makes you rational. We are each best served by finding what works for us without trying to reconcile to what other people think is right/wrong or fake/real.

Exactly. It couldn't be expressed better.

It's the nature of fantasy to explore things that aren't real. (Fantasy is by definition unreal.) Some people enjoy acting out their fantasies, and some people like to take it very seriously and live "the life". But that's a matter of individual choice, and if you're not comfortable with acting upon your fantasies, then just enjoy them as fantasies.