Shaking - Exciting - Regret

[Jbtropo]

Some months ago while out of town i was on sniffies. I was talking with someone and i made the decision to go to that person hotel. I had never gone this far, i was shaking, i was hard as hell with pre cum leaking out and I got to the dudes hotel, went up the elevator, and when I walked out he already had his door open. As I walked in I started shaking, we layed on his bed, but i was too nervous to do anything, and i panicked and i left.

And now, I think of how it could have gone, and regret wasting his time and wish I would have pushed futher. I almost knew but I wasnt sure if the shaking was excitement and i needed to give it more time or if it was my body was saying no.

I dont know why i write this other than to see if anyone else has been in something similar.

 

[drobert44]

Some months ago while out of town i was on sniffies. I was talking with someone and i made the decision to go to that person hotel. I had never gone this far, i was shaking, i was hard as hell with pre cum leaking out and I got to the dudes hotel, went up the elevator, and when I walked out he already had his door open. As I walked in I started shaking, we layed on his bed, but i was too nervous to do anything, and i panicked and i left.

And now, I think of how it could have gone, and regret wasting his time and wish I would have pushed futher. I almost knew but I wasnt sure if the shaking was excitement and i needed to give it more time or if it was my body was saying no.

I dont know why i write this other than to see if anyone else has been in something similar.

You should have sucked cock.

 

[2wayroad]

Are you married?

 

[cd_Jessica]

Some months ago while out of town i was on sniffies. I was talking with someone and i made the decision to go to that person hotel. I had never gone this far, i was shaking, i was hard as hell with pre cum leaking out and I got to the dudes hotel, went up the elevator, and when I walked out he already had his door open. As I walked in I started shaking, we layed on his bed, but i was too nervous to do anything, and i panicked and i left.

And now, I think of how it could have gone, and regret wasting his time and wish I would have pushed futher. I almost knew but I wasnt sure if the shaking was excitement and i needed to give it more time or if it was my body was saying no.

I dont know why i write this other than to see if anyone else has been in something similar.

I think at one point in everyone's life we have a moment like what you described, shaking that is. I would put it in the category of fear and not excitement. I bet if you did it again you would have less shaking. That said, be honest with yourself and be sure that this is something you really want.

 

[mtsnowrider]

Some months ago while out of town i was on sniffies. I was talking with someone and i made the decision to go to that person hotel. I had never gone this far, i was shaking, i was hard as hell with pre cum leaking out and I got to the dudes hotel, went up the elevator, and when I walked out he already had his door open. As I walked in I started shaking, we layed on his bed, but i was too nervous to do anything, and i panicked and i left.

And now, I think of how it could have gone, and regret wasting his time and wish I would have pushed futher. I almost knew but I wasnt sure if the shaking was excitement and i needed to give it more time or if it was my body was saying no.

I dont know why i write this other than to see if anyone else has been in something similar.

Totally understandable but the fact that you were "hard as hell" should tell you something

 

[TallOne]

So you got right to the edge of cheating on your wife and your body had some mixed reactions to that.

Have you tried talking with her at all about your fantasies? Better to talk it out and see if anything can be worked out rather than get caught.

 

[Uncut1969]

Stoped at a forest preserve lot and was sitting there and a guy drove next to me and starte talking then asked if I was looking ! So he started talking about sucking cock and pleasure men I started to shack also it was so hot and I was so nervous at same time! I love to chat on here or silverdaddies but it was wild to be that close to fulfilling my wanting to experience cock

 

[fresh6869]

I’ll never forget how much I was shaking first time I met up with a man. I think I came the moment he touched my cock. Keep trying, it’s so worth fighting through that nervous stage and being able to enjoy how great sex with a man is!

 

[spraybomb13]

You're not alone in those feelings! My first time to actually meet up with someone was very similar. I was so nervous about doing something that I thought was so taboo I was shaking all over! I told him I was so nervous, and I'm sure he could tell, but he was patient with me and gave me some time to calm down. Some hugging, caressing, kissing, and he undressed me. I was still nervous, but the excitement took over and I enjoyed it immensely!
All the fears I had leading up to that point went away!

 

[Travler99921]

So you got right to the edge of cheating on your wife and your body had some mixed reactions to that.

Have you tried talking with her at all about your fantasies? Better to talk it out and see if anything can be worked out rather than get caught.

That is exactly what I did. After many chats she said I should experiment with gay sex. I did. I found out I was bi not gay. I also found out I was a cocksucker. Finally, I found out I did not need gay sex very frequently.

My wife found all this acceptable. Later she admitted she found it a bit arousing but also amusing. My openess about my sexuality allowed her to be more open about her sexual needs. The upshot of all this was a revival of our marital sex.

 

[Terrylipstick]

Before I took the plunge and started to completely experiment with men, I met up with guys and was totally prepared to get naked with them and more…. Then, at the moment of ‘truth’, I’d start to ‘shake’ and then chicken out. I missed several opportunities, but learned to be ‘okay’, then ‘good’ and finally ‘so fucking happy’ with ‘it’ and myself. It was all of the repression that I had to ‘shake’ off.

 

[phil1955]

Just got to get that first one under your belt.

 

[stargame]

I admit I didn't have much of a choice the first time I was with a man. I was so aroused by him touching me. The choice was mine, of course, but I was so given to passion.

 

[lordpenizworth]

Before I took the plunge and started to completely experiment with men, I met up with guys and was totally prepared to get naked with them and more…. Then, at the moment of ‘truth’, I’d start to ‘shake’ and then chicken out. I missed several opportunities, but learned to be ‘okay’, then ‘good’ and finally ‘so fucking happy’ with ‘it’ and myself. It was all of the repression that I had to ‘shake’ off.

Well said!
Once I took the plunge ...and kept getting with men, over time I realized that it was part of who I am.
It takes repetition over time...then you realize it's become a lifestyle, or at least something you can't dismiss as a "phase."
Be patient with yourself, would be my advice.

 

[PSO77]

My inner homophobia growing up regretfully prevented me from exploring my sexuality when I knew that I was very attracted and still am attracted to women although I've learned so much more about myself since then. Turns out I'm queer which means I'm going to be attracted to cis men, cis women, trans men, trans women and non-binary people. Basically pansexual if you will. But I fell in love with a man and I'm married to him and I don't regret it because I'm also monogamous. However, there are moments in my life where I wonder what it could have been like. Because I do find myself attracted to women a lot of the time.

 

[kupwanna69]

Just got to get that first one under your belt.

Cool how did it go?

 

[Terrylipstick]

Well said!
Once I took the plunge ...and kept getting with men, over time I realized that it was part of who I am.
It takes repetition over time...then you realize it's become a lifestyle, or at least something you can't dismiss as a "phase."
Be patient with yourself, would be my advice.

That…. And ‘practice makes perfect’

Practice, practice, practice…

 

[mcseminole]

I have only experienced the "jittery, shaking arousal" while either playing with men, phone with men, or talking about it with my wife. I believe the attached illustrates that excitement.
https://xhamster.com/videos/sissy-cums-while-sucking-cock-xhgMSET

 

[phil1955]

Cool how did it go?

I was a little nervous the first time but it went great. He has a nice cock and filled my mouth with hot cum. Now I eagerly await the opportunity to suck him off any time he is ready.

 

[kupwanna69]

Yes I know the feeling the first man I met in person was so nervous felt like my heart was going pop out of my chest. I liked the way he looked , but sad to say chickened out. The second man I met I was thinking at the very least was going to feel his dick through his pants. Long post I know , but we ended up at my place sucking each other in a 69 and found out sucking dick is so fun.

 

[ZacharyFagg]

That's perfectly normal. I couldn't begin to count how many men I have hooked up with, but there's still always some anxiety when I meet a random stranger for sex. Let's face it, it's not the safest thing in the world to do. But thats what also makes it exciting.

 

[el_uno77]

the first encounter i had with my friend Rick i was really nervous but i've known him for over 40 years and he was my co-worker but still it took some time before i told him what i wanted. the nervousness went away when i suggested we take a shower together. that was great since it cut through the ice for both of us and it's been great ever since. we dont' get together as often due to different schedules but when we do a shower together is usually first!

 

[Jbtropo]

I will say reading the responses has been exciting to say the least. Feel much more comfortable letting my mind wander. I love the stories in here and jacking off to them and I think that’s good for now

 

[CambridgeBi]

For me my first experience was like a wave, I started off extremely nervous and then grew in confidence as the experience progressed. My behavior became so overtly gay I even surprised myself - raising my knees, spreading my legs, presenting to another man in a way I would never have imagined myself doing. The real panic came when I felt my anus open and spread round his glans, it was then I was hit by a tidal-wave of shame - what if my friends and family find out I'd had a cock up my bum... That was the moment I jumped up and started making for the exit.

 

[mtsnowrider]

For me my first experience was like a wave, I started off extremely nervous and then grew in confidence as the experience progressed. My behavior became so overtly gay I even surprised myself - raising my knees, spreading my legs, presenting to another man in a way I would never have imagined myself doing. The real panic came when I felt my anus open and spread round his glans, it was then I was hit by a tidal-wave of shame - what if my friends and family find out I'd had a cock up my bum... That was the moment I jumped up and started making for the exit.

Did you get out the door? Understandable reaction but a bit extreme at that point. Why not just draw the line at actually fucking? Hopefully , assuming you needed to stop and get dressed , you regained some confidence and continued the experience with some boundaries