sexually lost

[Pinkwh]

I'm a new member and I'm not sure if anyone can help me untangle my sexual journey. I'm currently thirty one. I'm trying to explore my sexual side but I'm not sure whether I really care about sex all that much only I want to enjoy it when I find the right partner. Some thoughts I've had Perhaps I'm asexual, perhaps I have a really low sex drive, perhaps I haven't found my reasons to enjoy a healthy sex relationship, perhaps my hormones, or something physical is broken, perhaps a bad lifestyle, diet, etch. has rendered me frustrated apathetic and desperate to enjoy what most other can. I'm trying to explore alone what I enjoy sexually and apart from my odd pregnancy fantasies, I believe I need a guidebook because how do I get clarity. I hope I'm not asexual. If so acceptance will be given but I want to enjoy sex. To be super frank, I don't get it. What's so good about it and what do I do to be pumped about sex'

 

[big_cane_sugar]

I don't have specific advice for you because that hasn't been my situation but since you write "only I want to enjoy it when I find the right partner" it kind of sounds like maybe you just haven't found the right partner? IDK of course. I doubt you're "broken" and definitely not broken beyond repair. Most of all though I just want to say don't give up. I have an intuition that you'll be okay if you get a thing or two figured out. I don't know what those things are specifically, but you sound like someone who's going to get this figured out.

 

[TheUKGent]

Do you have a friend you can confide in? Someone that may be able to help you explore your sexuality and see what works (and what doesn't) in a safe environment.

If you can discover something that you enjoy, then maybe it will blossom from there. That may lead to new discoveries, and possibly new partners.