Firestarter007
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- Jul 16, 2013
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Hello,
I am a 27 year old female and a survivor of child abuse. I have been in a 2 year relationship that definitely has it's challenges due to the underlying issues of my abuse. Two things I do know about my self is that I hate being controlled or over powered in bed. I have recently been introduced to RBDSM (Reenactment Bondage Dominance Submissive Machoism) and I must say it is the most incredible, exhilarating, fulfilling experience I have ever felt sexually, spiritually and internally. For the ones that don't know what it is, it is basically reenacting the abuse that you remember as a child with your willing and able partner. (To a degree. At first it will be uncomfortable but I can assure you once you break through the barrier, you will love it!) Except the difference is, I am the one in power and control over a submissive and I call the shots. He does what I want him to do, he doesn't do what I want him to do, whatever i wish for her goes with. And the best part is, is seeing how far I can take it with him. Slowly raising the amount of physical, emotional, sexual pain...testing his willpower and tolerance to my needs. It is a lot more extensive that I am probably portraying it. It has helped me from a therapeutic standpoint as well.
I guess my questions is...
Is this normal for me to like this so much?
Is it a healthy way for me to fulfill my power and control needs in a environment like this?
Anyone else partake in this area?
I am a 27 year old female and a survivor of child abuse. I have been in a 2 year relationship that definitely has it's challenges due to the underlying issues of my abuse. Two things I do know about my self is that I hate being controlled or over powered in bed. I have recently been introduced to RBDSM (Reenactment Bondage Dominance Submissive Machoism) and I must say it is the most incredible, exhilarating, fulfilling experience I have ever felt sexually, spiritually and internally. For the ones that don't know what it is, it is basically reenacting the abuse that you remember as a child with your willing and able partner. (To a degree. At first it will be uncomfortable but I can assure you once you break through the barrier, you will love it!) Except the difference is, I am the one in power and control over a submissive and I call the shots. He does what I want him to do, he doesn't do what I want him to do, whatever i wish for her goes with. And the best part is, is seeing how far I can take it with him. Slowly raising the amount of physical, emotional, sexual pain...testing his willpower and tolerance to my needs. It is a lot more extensive that I am probably portraying it. It has helped me from a therapeutic standpoint as well.
I guess my questions is...
Is this normal for me to like this so much?
Is it a healthy way for me to fulfill my power and control needs in a environment like this?
Anyone else partake in this area?
