Ramblings...

[Dingus Guy]

Depression: Stage One

I got an itch that needs to be scratched
I am a desperate man who is as lonely as hell
Juggling between thoughts and daydreams
It's like I am stuck in concrete forever to dwell

I can't survive when confidence is lost
I know what I know and it isn't too much
My words are but unheard whispers
It's called being single, but I've struckout as such

I've gained inches and added lots of weight
I'm a large man who can't look in the mirror
The reflection I see hurts my eyes
My salvation doesn't seem to be drawing nearer

If I could gain confidence in myself
Then maybe one day I will succeed in life
Find me someone to look past the outside
See me as the husband, and they as my wife

I make my way into that empty bed
As my heart hurts for love I never knew
I hope tomorrow brings me new hope
Maybe I can escape my cage then my zoo

As my eyes close to end another lost day
I can only sink back into dreams I behold
It takes me away from the reality I hate
Into a world I am not fat and not so old.