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Bear Sage
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- Aug 3, 2002
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Hand Me Downs
I am the hoodie
passed through five cousins
and a custody battle.
Still smell like Marlboros
and the backseat of a Buick
that never got you home safe.
They stitched me cheap in a sweatshop
but I’ve held more stories
than a therapist could survive.
I’ve been armor
for a child walking through food desert alleys,
trying to dodge the echo
of their father’s voice in every loud man.
There’s a rip under the arm—
not from wear,
but from rage.
Someone yanked me off during a panic attack
and I haven’t been the same since.
I’ve been worn to job interviews
where the résumé was ignored
but the stains weren’t.
Worn to funerals where the casket cost more
than the year’s rent.
Worn by the queer kid
who couldn't afford new threads
but wrapped themselves in me
like defiance
and dared the street to look.
I remember fists in pockets
so knuckles wouldn’t fly.
I remember the girl
who stuffed a Plan B in my front pouch
and prayed her mama wouldn’t find the receipt.
I carry ancestors
in lint and loose change.
A grandmother’s hum.
A mother’s scream.
A child’s silence
stitched into every damn seam.
I’m not vintage.
I’m not retro.
I’m not fucking nostalgic.
I’m what’s left
when survival
runs out of options
but still shows up warm.
Don’t call me charity.
Call me testament.
I was never supposed to last this long—
and yet,
here I am.
Still holding.
Still holding you.
I am the hoodie
passed through five cousins
and a custody battle.
Still smell like Marlboros
and the backseat of a Buick
that never got you home safe.
They stitched me cheap in a sweatshop
but I’ve held more stories
than a therapist could survive.
I’ve been armor
for a child walking through food desert alleys,
trying to dodge the echo
of their father’s voice in every loud man.
There’s a rip under the arm—
not from wear,
but from rage.
Someone yanked me off during a panic attack
and I haven’t been the same since.
I’ve been worn to job interviews
where the résumé was ignored
but the stains weren’t.
Worn to funerals where the casket cost more
than the year’s rent.
Worn by the queer kid
who couldn't afford new threads
but wrapped themselves in me
like defiance
and dared the street to look.
I remember fists in pockets
so knuckles wouldn’t fly.
I remember the girl
who stuffed a Plan B in my front pouch
and prayed her mama wouldn’t find the receipt.
I carry ancestors
in lint and loose change.
A grandmother’s hum.
A mother’s scream.
A child’s silence
stitched into every damn seam.
I’m not vintage.
I’m not retro.
I’m not fucking nostalgic.
I’m what’s left
when survival
runs out of options
but still shows up warm.
Don’t call me charity.
Call me testament.
I was never supposed to last this long—
and yet,
here I am.
Still holding.
Still holding you.