Overcoming Addiction

[OnlyByMoonlight]

Most of you don't know me, but I want to post this anyway. I'm not fishing for sympathy or support. I'm posting this for me. To say it and own up to it.

I'm an addict and as of today I'm going cold turkey. I know its not the best way of getting clean, but its all I've got. No one in my life knows. I managed to hide it pretty well.

This morning I took the bottle of pills to the dump and tossed them. I'm done. It killed my ambition and kept me from doing what I love -- writing.

I just wanted to put the words out into the world.

I'm an addict, but I'm in recovery.

Day 1

 

[TxRad]

Welcome to the AH and good luck.

There are some good and caring people here but there are also a few trolls.

Put the trolls on ignore. You'll be able too tell real easily who they are.

Again, welcome and good luck.

 

[Trinique_Fire]

I'm one of the ones who doesn't really know you, but I believe that everyone needs support and second (or sometimes third, fourth, and fifth) chances. I'm here to tell you I'm honored that you decided to share this, and I hope you stay strong. Don't let the trolls (on the world wide web AND in real life) get you down. I'll be one to support and back you.

 

[rgraham666]

Sending strength and positive vibes your way.

 

[Miss_Pixie]

*hugs* I respect your courage in putting the words out there, and facing your addiction head on

 

[JAMESBJOHNSON]

Most of you don't know me, but I want to post this anyway. I'm not fishing for sympathy or support. I'm posting this for me. To say it and own up to it.

I'm an addict and as of today I'm going cold turkey. I know its not the best way of getting clean, but its all I've got. No one in my life knows. I managed to hide it pretty well.

This morning I took the bottle of pills to the dump and tossed them. I'm done. It killed my ambition and kept me from doing what I love -- writing.

I just wanted to put the words out into the world.

I'm an addict, but I'm in recovery.

Day 1

Words & music by Paul Simon

(Ooohh..)

When I was a little boy (when I was just a boy)
And the Devil would call my name (when I was just a boy)
I'd say "Now who do, (who-oo)
Who do you think you're fooling?" (when I was just a boy)
I'm a consecrated boy (when I was just a bo-o-o-y)
I'm a singer in a Sunday choir (oooh)

Oh my mama loves me, she loves me
She get down on her knees and hug me (ahh a-a-ah)
(oh)She loves me like a rock
She rocks me like the rock of ages
And loves me
She love me, love me, love me, love me

When I was grown to be a man (grown to be a man)
And the Devil would call my name (grown to be a man)
I'd say "Now who do, (whooo)
Who do you think you're fooling?" (grown to be a man)
I'm a consummated man (grown to be a ma-a-a-n)
I can snatch a little purity (oooh)

My mama loves me, she loves me
She get down on her knees and hug me (ahh a-a-ah)
(oh)She loves me like a rock
She rocks me like the rock of ages
And loves me
She love me, love me, love me, love me

And if I was the President (was the President)
The minute that Congress called my name (was the President)
I'd say "Now who do, (whooo)
Who do you think you're fooling? (who do you think you're fooling)
I've got the Presidential Seal (was the president)
I'm up on the Presidential Po-o-dium (oooh)

My mama loves me, she loves me
She get down on her knees and hug me
(oh)She loves me like a rock
She rocks me like the rock of ages
And loves me

Fade out:
She love me, love me, love me, love me
(loves me like a rock)

 

[infid3l]

If you're for real, you need to be careful.

I don't know what you've been on but I hope AT LEAST you have gone out on the web to read the consequences of going cold turkey without medical support, and that you've already found it's not going to kill you by doing this.

Please, please be careful. Making big changes to what your body is used to and expects can have horrible consequences.

 

[Trinique_Fire]

If you're for real, you need to be careful.

I don't know what you've been on but I hope AT LEAST you have gone out on the web to read the consequences of going cold turkey without medical support, and that you've already found it's not going to kill you by doing this.

Please, please be careful. Making big changes to what your body is used to and expects can have horrible consequences.

I have to agree with this. You should talk to a doctor or specialist to at least have some medical support during this time.

 

[Guest]

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[JAMESBJOHNSON]

No cause for alarm, by tomorrow he'll be safely back in the arms of his habit.

 

[Liar]

I'm an addict, but I'm in recovery.

Day 1

Good luck. Replace the vice. Become an addict of writing.

 

[IrezumiKiss]

Sending you support vibes, Moonlight. Writing is good therapy...and if it's erotica you're writing, it's an even better therapy!

 

[sadangel]

Sending you strength and support also and echoing what others have said. Some medications can cause HORRIBLE side effects if you have a sudden withdrawal. See your doctor. Call a Med line or clinic. Something to find out the consequences of going cold turkey.

I know someone who went off of Librium and Lithium cold turkey; which she was given for her alcohol addiction. *WHAT!!* It was horrendous for her. Horrible hallucinations and much, much more. It was believe it or not, worse than the DT's from the alcohol.

 

[TE999]

Most of you don't know me, but I want to post this anyway. I'm not fishing for sympathy or support. I'm posting this for me. To say it and own up to it.

I'm an addict and as of today I'm going cold turkey. I know its not the best way of getting clean, but its all I've got. No one in my life knows. I managed to hide it pretty well.

This morning I took the bottle of pills to the dump and tossed them. I'm done. It killed my ambition and kept me from doing what I love -- writing.

I just wanted to put the words out into the world.

I'm an addict, but I'm in recovery.

Day 1

Congratulations on your decision. You have taken the first step towards recovery.

As others have stated, it would be best to seek medical attention and professional therapy to augment your own resolve.

 

[JAMESBJOHNSON]

One whole day of sobriety! Or is it less?

Come back when you have 6 months sobriety and your life is shit on a stick. Then I'll be impressed. But I aint impressed with sobriety for 20 minutes.

 

[jehoram]

Most of you don't know me, but I want to post this anyway. I'm not fishing for sympathy or support. I'm posting this for me. To say it and own up to it.

I'm an addict and as of today I'm going cold turkey. I know its not the best way of getting clean, but its all I've got. No one in my life knows. I managed to hide it pretty well.

This morning I took the bottle of pills to the dump and tossed them. I'm done. It killed my ambition and kept me from doing what I love -- writing.

I just wanted to put the words out into the world.

I'm an addict, but I'm in recovery.

Day 1

Congratulations! It's a first step.

Some reflections from when I went through that myself:

1. Don't do this alone. Tell somebody else, and make sure that you keep him or her informed on how things are going. It's harder to slip back when you know somebody else is interested and will ask you how things are going. Try to pick somebody you can't lie to.

2. Definitely keep your doctor in the loop. It makes a real difference. You're going to go on a metabolic roller coaster, and you don't need that extra stress.

3. See what help your community can give you ... AA type programs, church programs, whatever it takes. Things are better now than they used to be. Don't think for a minute that there aren't a hundred other people who have gone through what you're going through, and come out the other side. But you have to find them. They're not going to come looking for you.

4. Above all, be ready to test yourself to find out how strong you really are. You'd be surprised at how tough you can be when the chips are really down. YOU are stronger than IT is. IT may win a few battles, but YOU can win the war.

5. People will tell you that it doesn't get easier over time. That's bullshit. True, it may never get easy, but every day that you put distance between yourself and your habit makes you stronger to face the next day. Remember that. Your body knows this even when your mind doesn't.

6. Use displacement ... anything to give yourself a slap when you feel you're sliding back. Positive reinforcement like candy (particularly Jujubes!) worked for me. Negative reinforcement (for instance, the old rubber band trick --wear it on your wrist next to your wristwatch or bracelet, slap it when you feel you want a fix) works for others.

I've been clean for sixteen years. The first three months were hell, and the next nine months weren't a picnic. But when IT came back, I got mad, and that made me fight harder. Eventually, IT stopped coming.

You can do it, too.

 

[Handley_Page]

Originally Posted by OnlyByMoonlight
Most of you don't know me, but I want to post this anyway. I'm not fishing for sympathy or support. I'm posting this for me. To say it and own up to it.

I'm an addict and as of today I'm going cold turkey. I know its not the best way of getting clean, but its all I've got. No one in my life knows. I managed to hide it pretty well.

This morning I took the bottle of pills to the dump and tossed them. I'm done. It killed my ambition and kept me from doing what I love -- writing.

I just wanted to put the words out into the world.

I'm an addict, but I'm in recovery.

Day 1



You didn't mention what you are addicted TO, but I wish you all the best. You might think about a blog or a report from time to time about your progress.

Others have mentions a couple of caveats: your Doctor, etc.. Please consider it.

 

[R. Richard]

A really good decision. Stick with it and get help from a doctor if thigs really start to come apart. Nothing out of a bottle or a needle should ever rule your life.

 

[Katyusha]

I'm not an addict but many in my family are. All are clean and have been for years, and I'm very proud of them. It's not an easy thing to do, but you've taken the right step and even though I don't know you, I'm proud of you too. I have to agree with others who've advised that you get medical support, because your body's dependent on whatever substance this is for a lot, and suddenly stopping it can be very dangerous.

Please be careful, and all the best of luck to you.

 

[RunningJib]

Good Luck

Miles Davis and John Coltrane went cold turkey while being locked into a room. Despite their attempts, they didn't really defeat their addiction.

While I applaud your desire and attempt, I suggest that you seek assistance.

God speed and good luck

 

[Dragonlipz]

Most of you don't know me, but I want to post this anyway. I'm not fishing for sympathy or support. I'm posting this for me. To say it and own up to it.

I'm an addict and as of today I'm going cold turkey. I know its not the best way of getting clean, but its all I've got. No one in my life knows. I managed to hide it pretty well.

This morning I took the bottle of pills to the dump and tossed them. I'm done. It killed my ambition and kept me from doing what I love -- writing.

I just wanted to put the words out into the world.

I'm an addict, but I'm in recovery.

Day 1

Many of us have faced addiction and found ourselves lacking. Please reach out to those here who have faith and empathy - As the Tx-Rad one says:
'there are some good and caring people here but there are also a few trolls.

Put the trolls on ignore. You'll be able too tell real easily who they are.'

The rest of us can be counted on for support and discussion.

Again, welcome and good luck.

 

[RunningJib]

Dear OBM

Dear OMB,

I hope this are going well for you.

R'jib

 

[jehoram]

How's it going?

So it's like, day 24 now? How are you doing, OnlyByMoonlight?

If you've stayed clean, I'd like to know that. If you haven't, let's talk about it and see where you stepped wrong, and maybe why. Getting clean is possible, but only if you learn from your mistakes.

You can PM me if you like.