XXplorher
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Surely no one cares. But I do. So I serve this to myself. (Check the link for context)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2rsdZHcRM9c
“I’m sorry,” can’t ever be enough. You dirty cunt.
I never recovered.
I’ve adjusted virtually everything since then. And that was the wrong thing to do. I was better off to begin with; innocent in my beliefs. But you stole my heart and soul – for a 15minute fuck from another man with a deficient dick.
I’ll never forgive you. It’s affirmed I don’t know how. And it’s crippling me. I’ve been suffering for 25yrs. I am perpetually smashing myself…
…and all just because you are pure negligence. And I am a loyal fool. Unable to properly accept the lessness of others.
Mothers be good to your daughters. And obey the laws of fidelity.
If he ain’t good enough, then tell him so or leave him. Afford him a chance to satisfy your concerns. Be better than a fucking double coupon. Retain your integrity. Never rape away another soul via your own ill-considered actions. Be better than that.
Be greater than whatever pains you.
Do not multiply the poison.
Don’t be a disease.
I fell in love when I was 19yrs old. And she fucked another man when I left her alone for a weekend. It’s stupid and insecure, retarded and demented – but I have never recovered the guy that I was before that happened. I lost him in one weekend away. He’s gone. It’s reformed everything I was meant to be and I have been doing nothing but breaking apart since then. Don’t ever be the SOURCE of that destruction… (yeah, maybe I was broken all along. But don’t set a match to a fire, eh. Let someone else do it if it’s destiny).
I really have just been scratching and clawing since then… ‘Where did my heart go? It can’t be all that far away. Surely it can be recovered. Just as it was. It must be here somewhere. She can’t possibly punt it to an unretrievable distance. It can’t be kicked apart that suddenly…’
But it can be. I’ve been bleeding apart ever since. Long enough to know I’ll always feel like this. I will ALWAYS feel like this. Like half of me. Apart from the rest of me. The part she killed that I stored away safely inside of her.
Yeah, I know, I’m a sick romantic. But trust me, it was far better for all of us when I was only romantic and not so sick. That had a chance. It belonged. Deserved to be held.
I’ve done nothing but kill since then.
If not you – then myself.
-XX
PS Joe. Thanks for helping me never quite feel completely alone with that. This song has always been there. And I greatly appreciate it. Thanks so much. I will continue to try… for resolve.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2rsdZHcRM9c
“I’m sorry,” can’t ever be enough. You dirty cunt.
I never recovered.
I’ve adjusted virtually everything since then. And that was the wrong thing to do. I was better off to begin with; innocent in my beliefs. But you stole my heart and soul – for a 15minute fuck from another man with a deficient dick.
I’ll never forgive you. It’s affirmed I don’t know how. And it’s crippling me. I’ve been suffering for 25yrs. I am perpetually smashing myself…
…and all just because you are pure negligence. And I am a loyal fool. Unable to properly accept the lessness of others.
Mothers be good to your daughters. And obey the laws of fidelity.
If he ain’t good enough, then tell him so or leave him. Afford him a chance to satisfy your concerns. Be better than a fucking double coupon. Retain your integrity. Never rape away another soul via your own ill-considered actions. Be better than that.
Be greater than whatever pains you.
Do not multiply the poison.
Don’t be a disease.
I fell in love when I was 19yrs old. And she fucked another man when I left her alone for a weekend. It’s stupid and insecure, retarded and demented – but I have never recovered the guy that I was before that happened. I lost him in one weekend away. He’s gone. It’s reformed everything I was meant to be and I have been doing nothing but breaking apart since then. Don’t ever be the SOURCE of that destruction… (yeah, maybe I was broken all along. But don’t set a match to a fire, eh. Let someone else do it if it’s destiny).
I really have just been scratching and clawing since then… ‘Where did my heart go? It can’t be all that far away. Surely it can be recovered. Just as it was. It must be here somewhere. She can’t possibly punt it to an unretrievable distance. It can’t be kicked apart that suddenly…’
But it can be. I’ve been bleeding apart ever since. Long enough to know I’ll always feel like this. I will ALWAYS feel like this. Like half of me. Apart from the rest of me. The part she killed that I stored away safely inside of her.
Yeah, I know, I’m a sick romantic. But trust me, it was far better for all of us when I was only romantic and not so sick. That had a chance. It belonged. Deserved to be held.
I’ve done nothing but kill since then.
If not you – then myself.
-XX
PS Joe. Thanks for helping me never quite feel completely alone with that. This song has always been there. And I greatly appreciate it. Thanks so much. I will continue to try… for resolve.