Oasis.

[apastromance]

When We Two Parted

Lord Byron

WHEN we two parted
In silence and tears,
Half broken-hearted,
To sever for years,
Pale grew thy cheek and cold,
Colder thy kiss;
Truly that hour foretold
Sorrow to this!
The dew of the morning
Sunk chill on my brow;
It felt like the warning
Of what I feel now.
Thy vows are all broken,
And light is thy fame:
I hear thy name spoken
And share in its shame.

They name thee before me,
A knell to mine ear;
A shudder comes o'er me—
Why wert thou so dear?
They know not I knew thee
Who knew thee too well:
Long, long shall I rue thee,
Too deeply to tell.

In secret we met:
In silence I grieve
That thy heart could forget,
Thy spirit deceive.
If I should meet thee
After long years,
How should I greet thee?—
With silence and tears.

 

[apastromance]

Thank you for this thread. It was no accident that I loved it.

And I always will.

 

[Namaste]

Thank you for this thread. It was no accident that I loved it.

Though its voice may quiet over time, sometimes the love which haunts us so will never leave us in peace, no matter how much we wish it were so.

There's shelter here when the noise becomes too much. There is anonymity and there is space for the expression of that which cannot be admitted or acknowledged elsewhere.

Be well

 

[apastromance]

The Flight of Love

P. B. Shelley

WHEN the lamp is shatter'd
The light in the dust lies dead—
When the cloud is scatter'd,
The rainbow's glory is shed.
When the lute is broken,
Sweet tones are remember'd not;
When the lips have spoken,
Lov'd accents are soon forgot.

As music and splendour
Survive not the lamp and the lute,
The heart's echoes render
No song when the spirit is mute—
No song but sad dirges,
Like the wind through a ruin'd cell,
Or the mournful surges
That ring the dead seaman's knell.

When hearts have once mingl'd,
Love first leaves the well-built nest;
The weak one is singl'd
To endure what it once possesst.
O Love! who bewailest
The frailty of all things here,
Why choose you the frailest
For your cradle, your home, and your bier?

Its passions will rock thee
As the storms rock the ravens on high;
Bright reason will mock thee
Like the sun from a wintry sky.
From thy nest every rafter
Will rot, and thine eagle home
Leave thee naked to laughter,
When leaves fall and cold winds come.

 

[Namaste]

Dinner party.

Four people.

No, make that five.

One invisible.

You.

I don't believe in an interventionist God
But I know darling that you do
But if I did I would kneel down and ask Him
Not to intervene when it came to you
Not to touch a hair on your head
To leave you as you are
And if He felt He had to direct you
Then direct you into my arms
Into my arms O Lord
Into my arms O Lord
Into my arms O Lord
Into my arms
And I don't believe in the existence of angels
But looking at you I wonder if that's true
But if I did I would summon them together
And ask them to watch over you
To each burn a candle for you
To make bright and clear your path
And to walk, like Christ, in grace and love
And guide you into my arms
Into my arms, O Lord
Into my arms, O Lord
Into my arms, O Lord
Into my arms
And I believe in Love
And I know that you do too
And I believe in some kind of path
That we can walk down, me and you
So keep your candle burning
And make her journey bright and pure
That she will keep returning
Always and evermore
Into my arms, O Lord
Into my arms, O Lord
Into my arms, O Lord
Into my arms.

You haunt me.

 

[Namaste]

kiss kiss bang bang

In love with a broken heart
You fell in love with a broken heart

Love in these modern times
There'll be someone new every night
With some other love yarn
To wrap my harms around
No one else can understand
(Hold me) I can't hear you
(Trust me) not about you

In love with a broken heart
Think I leave today, I cover it all this way
You fell in love with a broken heart
Every earthly breath, a lifeless testimony
In love with a broken heart
(Don't you know)

Love in these modern times
I'll become what your first class said
I'm no light weight, I'll find time to throw us down
You'd feel my medicine's side effect
Fink I'll grab some magazine
(I know you) never seen me
(promised you) you believed me?

In love with a broken heart
-think I leave today, I cover it all this way-
You fell in love with a broken heart
-every earthly breath, a lifeless testimony-
You fell in love with a broken heart
-another lifeless testimony
(and it shows)

Oh please machine, let's keep this terminal clean
I'll see your face in every cloud
Down a Dewar's laugh out loud
Fly girl shouts to keep it down
Paddy's wagon draws a crowd

(Save your days) I don't save days
(Any way) I think...leave days

God grant me the strength to accept the things I can change
And change them
(just for the last time)

(Show me) I cant miss you

In love with a broken heart
Face in every cloud, makes me laugh out loud-
You fell in love with a broken heart
Shouts to keep it down, wagon draws a crowd-
In love with a broken heart
(Don't you know)
Lifeless testimony

You fell in love with a broken heart
(And it shows)
Lifeless testimony

In love with a broken heart
In these modern times, what your first class said,
Time to throw us down, medicine's side effects.

Indeed.

 

[apastromance]

Only An Ocean Away

I see a shadow every day and night.
I walk a hundred streets of neon lights,
Only when I'm crying.
Can you hear me crying.
So many times you always wanted more,
Chasing illusions that you're longing for.
Wish I wasn't crying.
Can you hear me crying.

There's an ocean between us.
You know where to find me.
You reach out and touch me.
I feel you in my own heart.
More than a lifetime.
Still goes on forever.
But it helps to remember
You're only an ocean away.

Was there a moment when I felt no pain.
I want to feel it in my life again.
Let it be over now.
Oh Oh over now.
'Cause I remember all the days and nights
We used to walk the streets of neon lights
Oh I want you here with me.
Oh be here with me.

There's an ocean between us.
You know where to find me.
You reach out and touch me.
I feel you in my own heart.
More than a lifetime
Still goes on forever.
But it helps to remember
You're only an ocean away.

So many times you always wanted more,
Chasing illusions that you're longing for.
Wish I wasn't crying.
Can you hear me crying.

There's an ocean between us.
You know where to find me.
Just reach out and touch me.
I feel you in my own heart.
More than a lifetime
It seems like forever.
But I'll always remember
You're only an ocean away.

Only an ocean away.

(Sarah Brightman)

 

[Namaste]

Woman in the Painting...

I wonder how you are, I still think of you every day. Sometimes with fondness, sometimes with amusement, sometimes with regret and often with a curious mix of all of the above and a few more emotions besides.

And so, stumbling forth rather badly and certainly often blindly into new territory, I pause and take stock now and then (invariably after a red or two) and wonder how I can avoid visiting the sins of the past on the future.

Occasionally I'm terrified this new venture will fail; at times I'm terrified it will succeed. Most times I do not fear the loss of it at all but accept the inevitability of it with an air of resignation. But then, when one has lost everything previously and survived, strength prevails.

I still fancy I hear your voice sometimes.

 

[apastromance]

For seven...

...a lullabye. Those quiet celebrations were always the best.



Once there was a way to get back homeward
Once there was a way to get back home
Sleep pretty darling do not cry
And i will sing a lullabye

Golden slumbers fill your eyes
Smiles awake you when you rise
Sleep pretty darling do not cry
And i will sing a lullabye

Once there was a way to get back homeward
Once there was a way to get back home
Sleep pretty darling do not cry
And i will sing a lullabye



Your inbox is full, love. Your mail defunct. I hope you find this!
I'll be holding you close on Sunday, as always.
ILY!

 

[apastromance]

a ditto post two days ago.

But here's the hearts that count.

 

[apastromance]

A long and winding road

If blood will flow when flesh and steel are one
Drying in the colour of the evening sun
Tomorrow's rain will wash the stains away
But something in our minds will always stay

On and on the rain will fall
On and on the rain will fall

Perhaps this final act was meant
To clinch a lifetime's argument
That nothing comes from violence
And nothing ever could

For all those born beneath an angry star
Lest we forget how fragile we are

On and on the rain will fall
Like tears from a star like tears from a star
On and on the rain will say
How fragile we are how fragile we are

On and on the rain will fall
Like tears from a star like tears from a star
On and on the rain will say
How fragile we are how fragile we are
How fragile we are how fragile we are

Sting

 

[ozzie male]

No apology needed !!

No way could I ever hate thou. Our hearts shall be forever intertwined. But thou must forgivest my inability to write prose as thou dost. One has been worried sick and, with thou accounts shutting every place, I epistled the West Virginian to callest thou and pass-ed on my prayers for thou. I missest thou terriblest and still wantest to havest thou babies onest dayest.

Lilly (of the valley and the ocean) XOXOXOXOXO

 

[ozzie male]

I'm a poet !!

I will seek and find you . .

I shall take you to bed and have my way with you

I will make you ache, shake & sweat until you moan & groan.

I will make you beg for mercy, beg for me to stop.

I will exhaust you to the point that you will be relieved when I'm finished with you.

And, when I am finished, you will be weak for days.

All my love,

Your Flu

 

[ozzie male]

I miss you !

I miss you.

I miss your warm eyes,
the way you listen and care.
I miss your kisses
and all that we share.

I miss you.

I miss the touch of your hand,
so reassuring and sincere,
and the moments we spend together,
that I hold dear.

I miss you.

I miss all of the caring
things you do,
and spending the evening
alone with you.

I miss you.

I look forward to tomorrow
knowing that then,
I'll be one day closer
to seeing you again.

You must have
guessed it by now...
I miss you!

 

[ozzie male]

"When feeling down"

Hope it's okay to post this here albeit it is kinda amateurish. Just remember everyone has periods in their life when they feel down in the dumps blue or mildly depressed, especially at holiday times, such as Christmas & Thanksgiving. Many people feel this way especially on New Years Eve due to a combination of alcohol, the end of a year that was not great for them, etc. These down feelings can be due to everything from personal problems, love problems, business hassles to various weather changes or conditions. For those for whom these moods are short-lived and not frequent, the following may help boost your mood and general outlook:

1. Socialize & think positively!
When a person is feeling blue or depressed, the LAST thing they want to do is be around others or socialize. The fact is however, when we are feeling blue or down, if we choose to isolate ourselves and hold up in our room or home, we will tend to focus on the same mental tapes causing us to feel down in the first place! If you force yourself to call a friend and meet for coffee, a movie, a walk, a talk --anything to get out and change your atmosphere, the chances are this will have a good effect on changing your mood for the better. For all but those who have a severe depression problem requiring a doctor's help and medication, try and remember that we are what we THINK. Our thoughts can propel us into ecstasy (weg) or into the depths of the blues. And MOST of us have control over our thoughts. It takes being conscious of them and it takes practice. Remember, we are ALWAYS at choice as to thoughts, actions, etc.

2. Do something just for YOURSELF!
Be totally selfish. Think of something you want to do for yourself...a short trip, a manicure, a haircut, buy yourself the coat or scarf you have been wanting. It does not have to be extravagant nor costly. The point is you are being GOOD to yourself, and that will sink in, and a part of your Self will say "Gee, I deserve this, and things are not so bad after all." This is not going to necessarily get to the root of what caused you to feel down or blue but it will make you feel better long enough to put the cause in a different perspective, or simply not take it as seriously!

3. Give something to another person.
One of the best ways we can get beyond our own physical and emotional Self is to find something bigger than our own familiar problems upon which to concentrate! Think about your friends, relatives, the poor people in your church, or the local charities. Pick a person or cause that appeals to you and decide to give to that person or that cause. It can be your time or money, a toy, or whatever. Giving to others makes MOST people feel good in their heart. Feeling good in our heart can have a great impact on how we feel in our MIND and body. It is the thought and the symbolism. The gift may be small, but the thought is all. You WILL feel better!

4. Rent or go see a happy/funny movie.
Laughter has long been a quick and effective panacea for ills of all kinds. Medical studies show that it creates endorphins as well as red blood cells and T-cells. When we laugh we also force our mind (although there is not any real struggle) to change modes and to be UP and to feel up, not down or blue or depressed. We substitute our own thoughts and feelings for those of the people on the movie or television screen. Watching an hour long comedy where we laugh and take our mind off our daily problems can last for hours or days to reduce chronic pain, a blue mood feeling, etc. It is cheap, easy, and, if we allow it to be-it is FUN!

5. Volunteer your time.
One of the best ways we can help pull ourself out of feeling sorry for ourselves, or feeling blue, or concentrating on our own aches and pains, is by helping other people who have problems of their own...often much more severe. It is very humbling to take a walk through a rehabilitation unit in a hospital at a time when we are complaining or feeling low due to an ache in our back or almost any other physical problem we might have. Most of the people we see are FAR worse off than we are, yet they are working, smiling, laughing, and talking...trying to do what they can to make the best of their situation. Giving time to others is a very good way to get outside of our own situation. Every city has volunteer bureaus and other places that need help, even if it is for an hour a day or a week! Giving to others will come back to us many times over in positive ways if we allow ourselves to try it.

6. Get out of the past & into the present!
Most bad moods and mental attitudes are a result of what has happened to us in the PAST. This can be the recent past, or long ago. It is vital to your body and energy and life as a whole that you stay in the PRESENT with your thoughts and feelings. The past is over! Hanging on to old hurts, pains, anger etc. will do you much harm emotionally and physically over time. We can CHOOSE to focus on creating a positive and healthy present for ourselves or dwell in the past, creating anxiety depressed moods anger guilt etc. Do you want to live your life in the PRESENT or live it based on the past onto which you are still hanging? Let old hurts and pains and anger go! Doing so will free up all kinds of positive energy and your body and mind will have a chance to be MUCH healthier as a result!

7. Walk or mall walk to cheer up.
Walking is prescribed by many doctors to help depression. Maybe your finances are what have your down in the dumps. If that is the case, drive to the closest mall and walk and just look in the windows. Buy an "Orange Julius" or soda, sit on a bench and watch the people and the children. REALIZE that EVERY person you see has their own problems and has days when THEY are blue or down. Some may feel much worse and even be clinically depressed. To do is to take action. And taking action fights the blues and the funk one feels by sitting or lying down at home brooding indulging in self-blame or pity. Remember misery loves company? Well, at a mall you can be assured you have hundreds if not thousands of men and women who have felt or are FEELING just as bad or worse than you at the very time you are there! You are NOT alone. Life will go on...things can get better. You must make the choice to help MAKE them better however.

8. Call someone you like who is a "positive" person and chat.
Siiiiiiigggggghhhhhh...I sometimes feel this is destined to never happen again. This option is alright as long as you do not dump on your friend, and as long as you do not abuse it. The idea here is to get OUT of yourself, and have some interaction. And hear about someone else's life. And take your mind off your own stuff for awhile. It's okay to let them know you are feeling a bit low or down and if they ask, you can tell them BRIEFLY what is going on. Just don't make it a long whining monologue! Ask them about THEIR life and job and family, etc. Get involved with someone ELSE and your mind will take a turn as well. Let them talk about their life and current situation. If they are someone you see off and on in person, you might offer to get together with them for lunch coffee a movie sex, etc. sometime soon. The more you talk or listen to them and talk about things other than your OWN current situation, the better the chances are your mood will lift and you'll feel better after the call.

9. Meditate or listen to relaxation or positive affirmation tapes.
Meditation can be a very good way to change your mood. It works whether you are depressed/down or anxious/hyper. How about a course or getting good quality tapes which teach meditation. It is amazing what it can do to quieten down the mind and release the stress caused by both anxiety AND depression feelings. Tapes on relaxation as well as self-affirmation by many well known expert authors are readily available through bookstores, some music stores, and also the New Age type book and music stores. Louise Hay and Wayne Dyer are two of the most well known authors of books and tapes on health issues, specializing in "positive thinking" and how they affect our physical and emotional health. They can be found in most book stores, or on the Internet at Amazon Books online at http://www.amazon.com The investment in these tapes is quite small compared to the benefits they can give the user.

10. Be CREATIVE!
Creating things alters our mood. It shifts us from the right side of our brain to the left side etc. Creating can be through cooking foods, painting (walls or on canvas or paper) making something using needle and thread, yarn, or Legos! It is also "creating" to play music if you are musical. Play what you wish as loud or as soft as you wish. Make up a song. Music (hearing it or playing it) has long been used by people of all cultures to create or alter a mood. Whatever type of music makes you feel good...play it or create it. It WILL change your mood for the better if you allow it to and if you concentrate on the music and creating and forget how you have been "feeling."

And I suppose the unspoken
11. Just remember someone somewhere loves YOU.

Dennis R. Tesdell, Member: International Coach Federation

 

[ozzie male]

Love

I echo the deep, emotional and beautiful words written by the Love of my Life

My hand is in your hand...
My heart meets your heart.
In ways I could never explain,
Your love has touched the deepest part
Of my soul and changed my life forever.
I love you.

Knowing you and loving you has been a wonderous happening in my life. From the bottom of my heart, thank you for loving me.

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO ​

 

[ozzie male]

Love (again)

What greater thing is there for two human souls than to feel that they are joined... to strengthen each other... to be at one with each other in silent unspeakable memories.

George Eliot

 

[ozzie male]

Love (encore)

AS YOU DRIFT TO SLEEP
(with apologies to The Hunt for the Black Unicorn)
I'll sing a song, season lullaby,
Keep the night right here next to you,
Like a charm.

Moonlight misting down across the fields,
Stars so close they tumble in the sea.
I will keep you warm,
Safe from every storm.
Hold on tight.

Sea foam swallows up the cares of day,
Crashing waves will carry them away.
I will keep you warm,
Safe from every storm.
Hold on tight--right here next to me,
Through the night.

 

[ozzie male]

Male

In victor alpha lima.

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

 

[Namaste]

It's cold here.

This part of the inner city has a charm of its own, quite separate from everything else. I'm adapting now; I can understand although I still can't communicate at all well. Just enough to cover the basics. But then, trouble inevitably sets in when it's more than the basics we covet - and so perhaps this latest chapter is yet another piece of my life's karmic puzzle.

I wander the surrounding streets and neighbourhoods endlessly, searching for Lord knows what, and soaking up everything. It is bittersweet sometimes, because once I dreamed of doing and seeing these things with you. Inevitably you turn at up at some point in my day, so it's almost as if you're about. It doesn't bother me anymore, not now that the awful empty grief and soul destroying sense of aching loss has dissipated. Occasionally it's almost a comfort.

I'm not alone. I have my lover and my friend with me -- and while this love is different to that which we shared, it is love nonetheless. I do wonder how how you are; you are so very far away now in many different senses, further away than I ever thought would be possible. But that was at the height of my madness and sanity does have a peculiar way of equalling imbalances.

I don't hurt anymore. But then, I don't think too deeply about it.

Where ever you are, I hope you're well and happy.

 

[ozzie male]

So very proud of you, too

At the Entering of the New Year
by Thomas Hardy

We stand in the dusk of a pine-tree limb,
As if to give ear to the muffled peal,
Brought or withheld at the breeze's whim;
But our truest heed is to words that steal
From the mantled ghost that looms in the gray,
And seems, so far as our sense can see,
To feature bereaved Humanity,
As it sighs to the imminent year its say:—

"O stay without, O stay without,
Calm comely Youth, untasked, untired;
Though stars irradiate thee about
Thy entrance here is undesired.
Open the gate not, mystic one;
Must we avow what we would close confine?
With thee, good friend, we would have converse none,
Albeit the fault may not be thine."

India Lima Yankee

 

[ozzie male]

Te Deum

(Charles Reznikoff)

Not because of victories
I sing,
having none,
but for the common sunshine,
the breeze,
the largess of the spring.

Not for victory
but for the day's work done
as well as I was able;
not for a seat upon the dais
but at the common table.

 

[ozzie male]

Omg !

I just adore blue-arsed flies !!

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

 

[ozzie male]

98.5

Lotsa on-air dedications to you, Sunday AM . IL and miss you too. XOXO

 

[Songcatcher]

LOL