tenchikoi
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- Jan 15, 2008
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My husband and I had a serious talk last night about sex and family planning. We didn't fight or yell. Yet I feel like it would have been kinder if he'd just shot me in the head. When we got married, he said he wanted a family some day. Yet he has never had a good libido at all. The doctor wanted us to have sex every other day and wanted us to take it seriously if we truly wanted a family. So I've been attempting to do that. But last night he didn't seem interested so I asked him what's on his mind and to please be honest. He tells me he just doesn't care about sex and gets no enjoyment out of it. Also, that he's unsure if he wants kids because it's a huge life changer. Well no shit Sherlock. It made me very angry. I felt like he's been lying to me and wasting my time/energy working towards a goal he was never interested in. What makes it worse...he views sex with me as a chore, like something he has to do to be a good husband. I didn't yell or cry since that would just make him defensive and he'd blame me somehow. I just wish my husband wanted to make love with me because he loves me and enjoys being with me that way. But he doesn't. I feel as if I've been tricked or lied to. I feel like a widow or someone just living with a room mate. He really hurt me last night and I'm beginning to feel as if I never want him to touch me again because I know it's something he doesn't enjoy. I seriously consider this a breach of our wedding vows if he can't hold up his end of the deal. I don't know what to do. I need/want sex to feel like a whole and healthy human being. Maybe I should just get a dog. At least I'll have someone who will love/accept me unconditionally.