not sure what the question is....

[dolf]

masochism...

it occured to me then that i use pain to both hold me in the moment when i would otherwise dissociate and also to distance myself from reality...

in that moment there is only desire for pain to continue and desire for pain to cease...

there is such a conflict within my mind when being sexual and the more uncomfortable i am the more extreme my masochism...

thoughts??

 

[Kajira Callista]

Main Entry: mas·och·ism
Pronunciation: 'ma-s&-"ki-z&m, 'ma-z&- also 'mA-
Function: noun
Etymology: International Scientific Vocabulary, from Leopold von Sacher-Masoch died 1895 German novelist
1 : a sexual perversion characterized by pleasure in being subjected to pain or humiliation especially by a love object -- compare SADISM
2 : pleasure in being abused or dominated : a taste for suffering
- mas·och·ist /-kist/ noun
- mas·och·is·tic /"ma-s&-'kis-tik, "ma-z&- also "mA-/ adjective
- mas·och·is·ti·cal·ly /-'kis-ti-k(&-)lE/ adverb




"and the more uncomfortable i am the more extreme my masochism..."

substitute the words "pleasure i feel" for "uncomfortable i am"
it makes more sense that way doesn't it?

 

[dolf]

"and the more uncomfortable i am the more extreme my masochism..."

substitute the words "pleasure i feel" for "uncomfortable i am"
it makes more sense that way doesn't it?

uncomfortable in an emotional/mental way...pain compensation?
xx

 

[Sir_Winston54]

uncomfortable in an emotional/mental way...pain compensation?
xx

Are you saying, dolf, that you are uncomfortable with your sexuality, or with sexuality in a D/s relationship, or some other kind of relationship?

 

[Kajira Callista]

uncomfortable in an emotional/mental way...pain compensation?
xx

do you assume that being uncomfortable in an emotional way doesnt pertain to masochism? Look at definition number 2 up there...a taste for suffering. Maybe you arent compensating with the physical, maybe the emotional is just sorta foreplay for your masochistic self. Or maybe it just feels good too.

 

[dolf]

Are you saying, dolf, that you are uncomfortable with your sexuality, or with sexuality in a D/s relationship, or some other kind of relationship?

i'm doing a very bad job of explaining...again!!! 3.30am is my excuse today...

if i'm uncomfortable with the person, the circumstances etc i'm more masochistic.
{ok, obviously i should avoid situations that i find uncomfortable in that sense...}
the more i feel i shouldn't/don't want to be there, the more i enjoy the pain...
xx

 

[Kajira Callista]

i'm doing a very bad job of explaining...again!!! 3.30am is my excuse today...

if i'm uncomfortable with the person, the circumstances etc i'm more masochistic.
{ok, obviously i should avoid situations that i find uncomfortable in that sense...}
the more i feel i shouldn't/don't want to be there, the more i enjoy the pain...
xx

maybe the focus you get from it...helps put you at ease. no one can really anwer this stuff but you ya know.

 

[dolf]

maybe the focus you get from it...helps put you at ease. no one can really anwer this stuff but you ya know.

lol, true!
insomnia and wine...a bad mix

ty
xx

 

[Kajira Callista]

lol, true!
insomnia and wine...a bad mix

ty
xx