RepressedGuy
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- Sep 19, 2012
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Lately I've been having this long held urges demanding to be expressed. It's like, I've always had them, but been too ashamed, or felt they were morally wrong, or something ..but I couldn't act on them. And I still can't. Not yet. But I feel like I'm getting close to a damn breaking, and I'm a little afraid of the fury that might be unleashed when it finally does.
Usually the sex with my woman is fairly vanilla by most standards .. various positions, a few toys, some mutual oral, light spanking, all very consensual ..but I've always felt these desires to just come in and totally dominate ... perhaps a good way to describe it is almost as if I'm acting out the aggressor role in a rape fantasy. I imagine some chasing, struggle, rough sexual acts ... obviously I'm not suggesting real rape. But somehow, I haven't believed it was OK to do this ..but now .. it's like I have to, or I'm going to be living through slow torture by not expressing myself in the way that I need to.
I'm not at all sure she's going to like it, but I need to find out. And I can't exactly tell her, "hey, expect a surprise rape fantasy" as it seems like it would take away from it somehow.
I really don't know what I'm doing ..I just know I need her to struggle so that I can force myself upon her ..
I have no clue what I'm doing, just primal urges that need to play out.
Thank you for listening.
RG
Usually the sex with my woman is fairly vanilla by most standards .. various positions, a few toys, some mutual oral, light spanking, all very consensual ..but I've always felt these desires to just come in and totally dominate ... perhaps a good way to describe it is almost as if I'm acting out the aggressor role in a rape fantasy. I imagine some chasing, struggle, rough sexual acts ... obviously I'm not suggesting real rape. But somehow, I haven't believed it was OK to do this ..but now .. it's like I have to, or I'm going to be living through slow torture by not expressing myself in the way that I need to.
I'm not at all sure she's going to like it, but I need to find out. And I can't exactly tell her, "hey, expect a surprise rape fantasy" as it seems like it would take away from it somehow.
I really don't know what I'm doing ..I just know I need her to struggle so that I can force myself upon her ..
I have no clue what I'm doing, just primal urges that need to play out.
Thank you for listening.
RG