Newbie intro & POV

[4F_Woman]

Newbie intro & Opinions wanted

i thought i would introduce myself.

i am a newbie all around - new to the boards as you can see by my membership date, new to being a sub/slave, new to relationships. i have kept myself apart for many many years - 50th birthday in a couple of months. i have had D/s fantasies since i was a child. i have been reading BDSM ever since i stumbled upon Anne Rice's Beauty series half a life time ago. i have spent considerable time working on issues i have in my life. i live in a very rural area at least 150 miles from a large city that might have munches etc. or other safe ways to explore my interest. i finally joined this board to explore my interest a little more actively than just reading stories voraciously.

i made a post with a BDSM story idea the day i joined the boards April 2nd - perhaps an April Fool. i was swept away by the positive response and interest i received.

Barely two weeks and i have fallen in love and aquired an on-line Master. my head is spinning and i am euphoric. i am old enough to know that eventually i will come down to earth and all this has been very rash and fast. We are aware that only the test of time will prove the depth of this relationship.

In the mean time this old song came into my head. i shared it with my master and he agreed that it seems to very effectively describe my relationship to him. i thought i'd share it here and get other people's opinions.
And no i am not a Shaker, i am not even a Christian. i am a pagan.


Simple Gifts
trad. Shaker song.

'Tis a gift to be simple, 'tis a gift to be free
"Tis a gift to come down where we ought to be
And when we find ourselves in a place just right
'Twill be in the valley of love and delight

When true simplicity is gained
To bow and to bend we shan't be ashamed
To turn, turn will be our delight
Till by turning, turning we come 'round right.

 

[FurryFury]

I'm happy for you that you have found this euphoria at this time. It's a wonderful feeling, enjoy it but keep in mind safety protocals.

If it doesn't last, (and what does last?) try to focus on the good in it. That's what we should do with anything that doesn't last.

IMO, it's worth a 150 mile trip now and then to go to a munch and meet people in RL.

Fury

 

[4F_Woman]

thanks

FurryFury thanks for the advise. i will keep it in mind and when my time and financial situation allow, i may make that trip to a munch. i am very shy and introverted so even that is a bit intimidating. This is the most comfortable way for me to seek support and information from other people right now, but yes i know if it continues, facing it in RL is best.

We are on different continents so it will be a while before we can meet, but i admit to being so head over heals that a week ago i was ready to empty my retirement account for plane fare to meet him. Fortunately he has a leveler head than i do and convinced me that it is a little soon for that, but he allowed me to be needy that day and assured me of his love and understanding. If he had not been so sensible the time to aquire the money and the fact that a passport is needed woukd have slowed me down enough , so hopefully i would have come to my senses on my own.

 

[FurryFury]

I agree that you are head over heals. At a time such as this people are prone to moving too fast. Being so in love so fast is wonderful and somewhat dangerous. Most online relationships don't last this is why I mentioned safety protocols.

Right now you are so happy and into it that anything seems plausible. Later, if you don't have strong limits for YOUR safety and stick to them, you may regret some of the information you supplied and such. It's a live and learn world though.

Fury

 

[4F_Woman]

Fury

Thank-you so much for sharing your experience and empathy. This is really what i need. A way to share what is happening and the feedback from wiser, calmer minds.

i guess i used the wrong approach in my post. lots of views, but only your responces.

 

[FurryFury]

Fury

Thank-you so much for sharing your experience and empathy. This is really what i need. A way to share what is happening and the feedback from wiser, calmer minds.

i guess i used the wrong approach in my post. lots of views, but only your responces.

There is no wrong approach. People either comment or they don't.

I'm glad you've found my posts useful.

*hug*

Fury

 

[Evil_Geoff]

Fury
i guess i used the wrong approach in my post. lots of views, but only your responces.

Not so much a wrong approach, I just didn't see anything in your OP (original post) that I felt needed a comment. You didn't ask a question per se, it didn't appear you were seeking input or suggestions, etc...

But welcome to Literotica and the BDSM forums! Take advantage of the Library and boards to seek information aboutthings you are curious about. There is a LOT of experience available to you here, please take advantage of it!

 

[graceanne]

Like what EG said, I read it, but didn't think of anything to say. *shrugs* Welcome to the forum, though.

 

[4F_Woman]

Thanks for the welcomes.

I guess my question is do i have a grip on this slave thing at all or am i being swept away by what i want to hear? i am probably asking for assurances you can't give, like of coarse it will all work out and you will live happily ever after as a slave.

I am also a bit of an attention slut so i like to hear what other people think about what i have said. graceanne and Evil_Geoff probably nailed it though - they read my post and had no comments. Any advice, input, or suggestions are very welcome!

Evil_Geoff i explored your Website. Thank-you for providing all of that great information and advice.

 

[the captians wench]

*giggles*

Oh I remember the first week Jounar accepted my submission and I became his. Oh man, I was ready to quit my job and up and move accross the pond *giggles* (I'm in the states btw). Fortunitly he kept a lot cooler head. I'm amazed by his pacients. I want to go now! *giggles* but I still have a lot of things I need to do here before I can really think about such a trip, and a little research let me understand what all moving over there would involve, and we're not ready for that now, let alone then.

But it's been a happy 19 months. We've had a few ups and downs and bumps in the road, but what relationship doesn't.

You may want to check out the distance domination thread. There are a lot of us there in ldrs who communicate mostly online with our masters. I always hated the idea of support groups, but it is nice to have people who understand what you are going thru.