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[SecretLove69]

no need to beg.... probably the only thing that'll take me away from here is death, and tho I think about it sometimes I'm not planning on dying anytime soon. just feeling down some and lonely, and probably took a few too many pills.typing is definitely a bitch. probably going to bed soon.

I know you think about it - and I think about it sometimes too. And then I think about how much I'd miss you if I wasn't around to talk with you.

I'll make you a deal - if you get to feeling like life just sucks too bad to continue lemme know and maybe, somehow we can get through it together. I've been to the dark places and I know how hard it is to find daylight but sometimes finding it with someone else helps. If you ever want my # just ask ok? I'm no therapist or expert but I will always (I promise) be your friend.

 

[mrtnmoon]

I know you think about it - and I think about it sometimes too. And then I think about how much I'd miss you if I wasn't around to talk with you.

I'll make you a deal - if you get to feeling like life just sucks too bad to continue lemme know and maybe, somehow we can get through it together. I've been to the dark places and I know how hard it is to find daylight but sometimes finding it with someone else helps. If you ever want my # just ask ok? I'm no therapist or expert but I will always (I promise) be your friend.

oh, just admit it.... after about a month you'd only think of me if you ever saw or heard someone mention a band called dada.

 

[SecretLove69]

oh, just admit it.... after about a month you'd only think of me if you ever saw or heard someone mention a band called dada.

Hehehe - you're the only person I know that would mention Dada - so I need to constantly think of you in order for my Dada fix to be fulfilled.
AND BESIDES - I've known you longer than a month and we haven't been talking or listening to Dada together for that long - so there
AND AND - I think of you for other reasons too.

 

[mrtnmoon]

Hehehe - you're the only person I know that would mention Dada - so I need to constantly think of you in order for my Dada fix to be fulfilled.
AND BESIDES - I've known you longer than a month and we haven't been talking or listening to Dada together for that long - so there
AND AND - I think of you for other reasons too.

that looks like the old, "if you can't dazzle them with brilliance, baffle them with bullshit" theory at work.

 

[SecretLove69]

that looks like the old, "if you can't dazzle them with brilliance, baffle them with bullshit" theory at work.

I know I'm dealing with the "Eternal Optimist" of all times here aren't I?
Ya know - accepting a compliment is supposed to be slightly more desirable than getting an enema - so just learn how to deal with the fact that I like you and am gonna keep saying nice things to you.
Just you wait mister - the fanny smacking that's coming your way won't hurt either.

 

[mrtnmoon]

I know I'm dealing with the "Eternal Optimist" of all times here aren't I?

yep. screw that, "glass is half empty" stuff. no one ever gave me a fucking glass!!!

 

[trent0553]

Good evening Moon. I know I have not stopped in for too long, so...Hi!

Good evening Sl

Question: We were supposed to be getting a glass?

 

[mrtnmoon]

Good evening Moon. I know I have not stopped in for too long, so...Hi!

Good evening Sl

Question: We were supposed to be getting a glass?

hey trent. I dunno about the glasses. SL69 is the one that started babbling about glasses. oh, wait.... I guess I'm the one that started it, wasn't I? heck, I ain't even took any pills tonight.

 

[SecretLove69]

Good evening Moon. I know I have not stopped in for too long, so...Hi!

Good evening Sl

Question: We were supposed to be getting a glass?

Howdy Trent

Ummm well, apparently Moonbeam doesn't have a glass - but I'll gladly hand him a bottle.....of beer, of course.
I'll be happy to hand you one as well. Heck, let's all just kick back and have a good long tug on a bottle of something. Maybe later I'll find something equally as intoxicating to wrap my lips around.

 

[mrtnmoon]

Howdy Trent

Ummm well, apparently Moonbeam doesn't have a glass - but I'll gladly hand him a bottle.....of beer, of course.
I'll be happy to hand you one as well. Heck, let's all just kick back and have a good long tug on a bottle of something. Maybe later I'll find something equally as intoxicating to wrap my lips around.

as interesting as that sounds, I need to get off here for awhile. might stop back in a little later, not sure. my legs and feet are kinda puffy so I'm gonna put the ol' dogs up for awhile.

 

[SecretLove69]

as interesting as that sounds, I need to get off here for awhile. might stop back in a little later, not sure. my legs and feet are kinda puffy so I'm gonna put the ol' dogs up for awhile.

Ok, I'll keep a few beers handy for you when you return.

I kinda like the idea of putting my feet up too.........maybe, like on your shoulders?

 

[SecretLove69]

Hey - I finally found a source for some Dada. I'm connected to the Statewide Library site and have found a few libraries that I can borrow some CDs from. So far, the only ones they have are "American Highway Flower", "Puzzle" and "How To Be Found". Have placed my order and am just waiting for the delivery. At least, even if I can't own the CD I can offload them onto my computer and listen to them that way. Then I'll be a happy little camper.

 

[mrtnmoon]

Hey - I finally found a source for some Dada. I'm connected to the Statewide Library site and have found a few libraries that I can borrow some CDs from. So far, the only ones they have are "American Highway Flower", "Puzzle" and "How To Be Found". Have placed my order and am just waiting for the delivery. At least, even if I can't own the CD I can offload them onto my computer and listen to them that way. Then I'll be a happy little camper.

very cool. I think you'll like puzzle the best because it has the least amount of skippable songs on it. no wonder I could find this thread, I thought it would be the 10th or 11th pages.

in any case, I'm gonna try to chill put a little. I have almost 10,000 posts.... seems like a good number to quit on since not many people seem to giive a fuck whether I post or not. see ya around for a few more days.

 

[SecretLove69]

very cool. I think you'll like puzzle the bexy because it has th least amount of skippable songs on it. no wonder I could fint' this thread, I thought it would be the 10 or 11th pages.

in any case, I'm gonna try to chill put a little. I have almost 10,000 posts.... seems like a good number to quit on since not many people seem to giive a fuck whether I post or not. see ya around for a few more days.

Umm well, then, if you are gonna quit at 10,000 I won't post any more and it will take longer for you to quit

Besides, you don't seem to be the sort of guy who gives a fuck what people think - so stay around.

 

[mrtnmoon]

Besides, you don't seem to be the sort of guy who gives a fuck what people think - so stay around.

*sigh* how little you know. I care an incredible amount about what certain people think. it'd be one thing if they didn't post in the thread, but it seems entirely different when they don't send me pm's.... or at the very least, reply to PM's that I sent them.

I've heard from so many women that claim to care what happens to me and how I'm doing, and then it just goes to nothing. maybe it's my fault because I'm often such a downer. what can I say, bailing out seems the most logical answer if I can make myself do it.

 

[mrtnmoon]

I've been trying to decide whether or not to send her an e-mail. she got another job, and when I tried to call and wish her well, her number had been changed, it just hurts to believe that she could cut me out of her life so quickly and completey. she once claimed to care about me and I definitely care aboiut her, I just don't understand how her feelings could change so quckly and without warning. one morning we were talking, and by that afternoon she barely said 10 words to me for the next 3 months we had to see each other.

do I dare try to get through to her and find out what happened? if I don.'tt might just drive me nuts.

 

[SecretLove69]

I'm sorry. No, I don't know you very well, but I'm trying. I know you are sensitive and that's not something I'm used to dealing with. My husband barely speaks to me unless it is to pass something at the supper table or to turn the TV up louder so he can hear it over me trying to have a conversation. So, no - you are right - I don't know you - but I hope someday to know you better.

As far as the other thing you have going with this woman - I guess you'd better just make the effort to put a cap on the bottle (so to speak). It's obviously bothering you and it will keep eating at you until you get an answer from her. Thing is - she may not have an answer. She might be reacting to any number of things in her life that have caused her to remove herself from you. It may not be you at all or it might be something really small that just needs you two to sit down and talk out. Either way - you need to put a period at the end of this sentence instead of a question mark.

I certainly don't have any answers - if I did I would have a happy marriage and a wildly satisfying sexlife. But, I've lived and I've been hurt and will, most likely be hurt again. So, my 2 cents and $1.75 might get you a cup of coffee.

 

[mrtnmoon]

do you realize how long it can take to type even a short message if you've taken about 8 xanax? good lord. takes forever to proofread.... I must be snapping out of it a little now cuz I don't have to rest my head on the computer screen, but sometimes I close my eyes for what I think is only a second only to open them and realize that I've been typing swahili.

 

[mrtnmoon]

I'm sorry. No, I don't know you very well, but I'm trying. I know you are sensitive and that's not something I'm used to dealing with. My husband barely speaks to me unless it is to pass something at the supper table or to turn the TV up louder so he can hear it over me trying to have a conversation. So, no - you are right - I don't know you - but I hope someday to know you better.

As far as the other thing you have going with this woman - I guess you'd better just make the effort to put a cap on the bottle (so to speak). It's obviously bothering you and it will keep eating at you until you get an answer from her. Thing is - she may not have an answer. She might be reacting to any number of things in her life that have caused her to remove herself from you. It may not be you at all or it might be something really small that just needs you two to sit down and talk out. Either way - you need to put a period at the end of this sentence instead of a question mark.

I certainly don't have any answers - if I did I would have a happy marriage and a wildly satisfying sexlife. But, I've lived and I've been hurt and will, most likely be hurt again. So, my 2 cents and $1.75 might get you a cup of coffee.

thanks for the advice, but it's too late. I typed something last night, fully intending to save it and make sure it was readable and wasn't too serious in tone but still try to get at least some of my message across.

cut to being whacked out on pills.... dunno if she read it or not, but I'm not terribly thrilled with the version I sent out, it's far too late to take it back, tho. since the cat is out of the bag, so to speak. I think I'll spend a lot of time praying, which is rare for me,that in time she can see her wah and the hope miss her and have already had dreans about her.

 

[SecretLove69]

do you realize how long it can take to type even a short message if you've taken about 8 xanax? good lord. takes forever to proofread.... I must be snapping out of it a little now cuz I don't have to rest my head on the computer screen, but sometimes I close my eyes for what I think is only a second only to open them and realize that I've been typing swahili.

I can't actually say I've ever taken that much of anything - but I've drank a lot of beer.
I bet you didn't even know you were bilingual - especially Swahili. Maybe you have an untapped resource as an interpreter. If Dada ever go to Africa you can go along.

Oh, and, I've been talking to the guy up stairs and asking for Him to take some of this off you and allow you to have some answers.

 

[mrtnmoon]

I can't actually say I've ever taken that much of anything - but I've drank a lot of beer.
I bet you didn't even know you were bilingual - especially Swahili. Maybe you have an untapped resource as an interpreter. If Dada ever go to Africa you can go along.

Oh, and, I've been talking to the guy up stairs and asking for Him to take some of this off you and allow you to have some answers.

thanks, but he better work fast, I only have 2 more posts.

 

[ICR]

Hey hey, this thread have room for a slightly goofy Aussie?

 

[NorthernPA4U]

I've been trying to decide whether or not to send her an e-mail. she got another job, and when I tried to call and wish her well, her number had been changed, it just hurts to believe that she could cut me out of her life so quickly and completey. she once claimed to care about me and I definitely care aboiut her, I just don't understand how her feelings could change so quckly and without warning. one morning we were talking, and by that afternoon she barely said 10 words to me for the next 3 months we had to see each other.

do I dare try to get through to her and find out what happened? if I don.'tt might just drive me nuts.

I could be wrong, but it sounds like she's trying to deliberately hurt your feelings so that you will move on.

If something like that is the case, you should either call from a public number until you get her (not one she would recognize), or go to her house. At least you could ask her to explain what is going on. But I'd be prepared for something you don't particularly want to hear.

 

[undeniablyxdiva]

thanks, but he better work fast, I only have 2 more posts.

Congrats on breaking the upcoming 10,000 posts

 

[SecretLove69]

thanks, but he better work fast, I only have 2 more posts.

Well, you know how He works - not always on our schedule. So maybe you should hang around for another 1,000,000,000,000 posts and see what happens.

And HEY - there is a gal with an apple on her butt that wants to play here too - soooo.... stay, play. And a pretty friendly looking doggy and a virgin diva.......hell man, life is good.