My New Life

[newsub1977]

Hi all,

As you can see from my Virgin tag - I am new around here. But that's not all that's new in my life. I should say first that I am not entirely new to Literotica, I was a member here about two to three years ago, under a guise I can barely remember - Amazing1 or something like that.

I guess that shows how long I have been fantasising about certain things without having the courage to tell my wife. Well, things are changing. I finally showed some courage two weeks ago (14 days and counting) and admitted my fantasies to my wife. Not unusually, my wife already suspected (female intuition!).

I would like to keep this thread going as a bit of a chronicle of my new experiences and will fill it with much more detail, but I would love for people to respond and make suggestions in future. This is genuine, my life (and the life of my wife - who from now on I am to call Mistress Gorgeous) is changing and I want to share my amazing experiences here.

Yours submissively,
newsub

 

[Vixandra]

"Mistress Gorgeous" does have a rather charming ring to it.

Good luck on your new path.

 

[newsub1977]

Thank you Vixandra

Where was I with the story, I guess I should start at the normal place - the start.

I have been married for a couple of years now, and have been with my wife for 10 years. We enjoy an active sexual life (though not so active as the honeymoon period - those first few years of the relationship).

My wife and I have a very close relationship, always wanting to be together, always touching, kissing, hugging and generally loving each other. My wife has always been fairly ‘standard’ in what she wants from our relationship sexually, although she is willing enough to try most things once.

Cont.

 

[newsub1977]

New life continued.

For example, she does like oral sex (giving and receiving), she occasionally swallows – although she doesn’t really enjoy it, she enjoys anal sex occasionally, and she enjoys playing with vibrators/dildo’s. We purchased a strap-on many years ago, at my urging strangely enough, and used it twice (on me). We have toyed with tying each other up and blindfolding etc, but only a few times. I never pushed too hard on these sorts of games for fear of driving her away. I am soooo in love with my wife (it makes many of our friends sick how lovey-dovey we are!), and have never wanted to jeopardise that.

I guess there are probably a lot of things we haven’t tried, but we’ve given heaps of things a go (ie watching porn together, some dressing up games, my wife pissing on my cock in the shower during sex, etc. etc.). But all of these things have been spaced over a long period of time and are generally ‘one-offs’.

So, what has changed?

 

[newsub1977]

New life continued

Well, about two and a half weeks ago I was lying in bed with my wife. It was actually quite funny because her parents – my inlaws – were visiting from out of town and staying in our spare bedroom! We were talking about our sex life after some incredible anal sex, which was daring since her family were visiting – we had both had amazing orgasms. I had been feeling for ages that I wanted to spark some interest in her dominating me. She has always known that I like to be controlled and that it was part of one of my fantasies. What she didn’t realise was just HOW much I really wanted her to be my Mistress, to dominate me and well, I’ll get into all of that in just a bit …..

So, anyway, I guess you could say I was scared shitless! Here I was, after a fantastic session of daring sex, with a wife I loved and had a fantastic life with, and I was about to ask her something that could change the entire course of our relationship. Of course, I hoped it would enhance our relationship, but I knew that it had every chance of doing the exact opposite.

 

[newsub1977]

New life continued

Forgive me, I cannot remember exactly how the entire conversation went, but here is the gist. Very nervously, I told my wife that I had always fantasised about her dominating me. She said that she knew this, but hadn’t really acted on it too much because she wasn’t really sure if it ‘did anything’ for her. My hopes plummeted, but I had started this and needed to come clean and let her know exactly what I’d been thinking. There’s nothing like a good cleaning out of the soul to purge all of your hidden demons! So, I forged on and told her that I wanted a more permanent arrangement in which she became my mistress and I became her slave. She listened to me and at first asked me what sort of things I had in mind – I told her that I wanted to actually feel dominated, she couldn’t just ask me to do something and let it go at that. I wanted some spanking, whipping, fucking (! – strap-on style of course), pissing, etc. (I know this is the good stuff, but I will cut it short here). I wanted this and so much more, but as all good dominants and submissives would probably be screaming at what they’re reading – I was all want, want, want, me, me, me. All of my fantasies had been based around my satisfaction, they had little to do with what my mistress would get from the union.

My very perceptive wife saw this almost immediately, so she stopped me from the discussion of what I wanted and told me to present her with a ‘List’ on the following weekend (four days away). That ‘List’ had to include the fantasies that I wanted fulfilled, BUT, for every point I wanted, I had to list one activity/reason why SHE would want to become my mistress. With a smile and a kiss, she then rolled over, turned off the light and promptly went to sleep.

 

[newsub1977]

New life continued

Well, needless to say, I didn’t sleep very well that night. All night my mind was spinning a thousand miles per hour with all sorts of thoughts. I thought through the pro’s and con’s of everything I wanted and all of the sorts of things I believed she would like about this change. Whoa! More importantly, I thought about how she had reacted to my fantasies, she certainly hadn’t shot them down in complete flames. She wanted to know more, that had to be a positive sign, didn’t it? Nerves and apprehension crept in, was I enhancing or jeopardising our relationship, I still wasn’t sure? Oh no, what had I done?!?

I immersed myself in work for the next few days and because of one reason or another I managed to put off working on the ‘List’. I thought about it every now and then, but was too scared to actually sit down and write anything. How far should I go? All the way, keep it mild, I really wasn’t sure. If I wrote everything on my mind it could have ended up thirty pages long (sort of like this post is at the moment!). Having bared my soul once already that week, I decided to put a bit of information, but keep it a bit more mild and no more than one page.

So late on Friday night I finally sat down and wrote my ‘List’. As hard as this was to do, the following day was even harder. All day we did our normal thing and my wife did not mention the ‘List’ or anything about our conversation during the week. Had she forgotten? Surely not, my wife is not like that. Was she waiting for me to raise the issue, probably. Possibly testing me in some way. Again, I was too nervous to actually talk about it, scared that it would affect the relationship – but, I had to do something, I couldn’t think about anything else for the entire day. Eventually, late in the afternoon, I decided to leave the ‘List’ open on the computer screen, knowing that at some stage throughout the day she would walk past or go to use the computer and see the ‘List’ on the screen.

Shortly after dinner that evening I was sitting in the lounge room when my wife walked in and kissed me on the forehead from above and then reached down and gave my nipple a squeeze and said, “That didn’t go as far as I thought”

I was stunned, I kissed her and said that ‘I didn’t want to scare you off’.

The ‘List’ is attached below, and then I will reveal what happened from there (Still two and a half weeks behind in the story – will try to catch up).

 

[newsub1977]

The List

THE LIST
Bear in mind as you read the list below, that above all I want to be surprised and I love it when you become inventive. I want to provide both of us with pleasure and that is the main aim – you need to be happy with what you are doing and ENJOYING it. Firstly, despite the fact that I am writing this list – YOU must want to be in control for this to have any chance. Secondly, both of us must be comfortable at all times with what we are doing and this must never jeopardise our relationship – whilst it is something I want and I fantasise about, it pales in comparison to how much I love and respect you. I’m just hoping that our indulging in these fun and games adds an extra ‘spice’ to our relationship.

Thirdly, we must agree on how often we are going to play this master/slave game, because there are obviously times when you won’t want to, and there are definitely also times when I am not in the mood. I’m sure the frequency will be determined by how much we enjoy ourselves . Finally, if you don’t think this is a good idea – just let me know and the reasons why and I will still continue to love you more every day regardless.

The Lists You Asked For

• Buy a soft rope and learn to creatively tie knots – ie tie me up into interesting positions from which I can’t escape and allow you to do whatever you want with me.
• Sit on my face and force me to eat you out – including your arsehole (I love doing this! – I find it erotic and a bit humiliating all at the same time)
• Spank me (or whip me – use different items)
• Piss on me
• Allow me to fuck you and cum inside you and then make me eat the cum out of you
• Dominate me and think of humiliating things for me to do (preferably sexual) – like having to lick your feet, or dress up for you
• Did I forget to mention fucking me.
• Without this being so much a list – I guess what I fantasise about most is having to fulfil your wishes and you being dominant. I want to be surprised, serve you and your every whim, be sexually dominated and humiliated, and believe that you are enjoying it. I suppose that is the big thing, if you don’t actually enjoy any of this, then it probably won’t work all that well. As I mentioned earlier, if that happens, that is fine, I’m not doing this to try and change you.

 Allow you the freedom to explore and satisfy any fantasy you have with me.
 You get to make me wear the leash
 You can wax me any where, any time you want
 You can pluck my eyebrows any time you want.
 You can force me to exercise
 You can force me to try new foods (you know I won’t enjoy that!)
 You can demand sex any time, any way you want it
 I will pamper you in any way you desire
 I will serve you, feed you, clean for you, etc
 I will orgasm when you want me to
 Anything you want to do to enjoy yourself, you can, cos’ you’re in control!

Most importantly of all, I love you!

Your slave.

 

[newsub1977]

New life continued

As you can no doubt tell, I am extremely new to the master/slave lifestyle and I hope to work things out as I go along. It is actually one of my main reasons for writing my experiences into Literotica, hoping that I can learn from people with more experiences, enhancing the lifestyle I have with Mistress Gorgeous.

 

[newsub1977]

Nobody cares

So that's the end of this thread. Glad I tried to share my life with people.

 

[DVS]

Welcome back to Lit. And, congratulations on your new lifestyle.

That's an interesting list. Is your wife going to add to it? Or did she even want to add anything to it? Is she into this or is she just going along with it, because you like it?

 

[Killishandra]

Hmmm

So that's the end of this thread. Glad I tried to share my life with people.

Don't be disappointed, it is just that these threads are here to promote discussion and you have not put anything concrete out here to discuss... what you are doing is more of a "blog" which isn't really appropriate for this site (in my opinion) but if you encounter a _situation_ in particular, or have a question, then I think people will respond to give some advice to talk about their experiences so that you may benefit from them. As I said, what you are doing is more bloggish... And most people here like to debate and discuss questions on these threads.

All that aside, good luck to you on your new journey, and I hope everything is going well.

killishandra

 

[newsub1977]

Welcome back to Lit. And, congratulations on your new lifestyle.

That's an interesting list. Is your wife going to add to it? Or did she even want to add anything to it? Is she into this or is she just going along with it, because you like it?

Thanks DVS,

My wife got right into things for about three weekends (probably the best three weeks of my life), but she has cooled off on the action lately. Just normal pressures of life - work, family, etc. However, there are promises of fun times when life stops f^*cking us around (if that ever happens). My wife will probably add to it and if she does I will update it. I think she is very keen on ways I can make her life pleasurable, which are probably less sexual based then my desires. She wants things like sensual massages, me to serve her as a maid, give her orgasms through using her vibrator on her (and denying me touching her) and that sort of thing. I love it, but it kills me because I want so much more.

As a good submissive though, I am trying to push these thoughts from my mind and satisfy her first and foremost.

As to whether she is just doing it for me. Possibly. I think she quite enjoys the roleplay and she is a bit of a sadist, but just not into it to the same level as I am. So it's a bit of both.

Thanks for the reply!

newsub

 

[newsub1977]

Apologies

Don't be disappointed, it is just that these threads are here to promote discussion and you have not put anything concrete out here to discuss... what you are doing is more of a "blog" which isn't really appropriate for this site (in my opinion) but if you encounter a _situation_ in particular, or have a question, then I think people will respond to give some advice to talk about their experiences so that you may benefit from them. As I said, what you are doing is more bloggish... And most people here like to debate and discuss questions on these threads.

All that aside, good luck to you on your new journey, and I hope everything is going well.

killishandra

Killishandra,

I must apologise to you and to anyone else I offended with my comments. I did not mean to offend. If guys get PMS (which I argue that they do, but must be testosterone based), then I probably had it on the day I wrote that last post. Thank you for writing and I'm learning to use the Literotica forums to better effect now (as I grow more experienced - we all have to start somewhere).

Spanks,
newsub