My new house, has a hidden surprise (closed for Joathan)

[JonathanBair]

Have you been married, how long has it been from when it ended... Umm anything and everything about you I guess...

 

[Becaa57]

Started off full of hopes and dreams, that got destroyed when he cheated on me.

I had planned to not get involved with another man ever

things don't always go as planned do they?

 

[JonathanBair]

I smile and shake my head " I am afraid not my love, but hey it put you on the road here right?"

 

[Becaa57]

I smile back at that remark
"Yes it did, and was pure luck I found this place. Did you know the city was thinking of selling the house and property to a land development company? They were going to put some condo's up here."

"So you're welcome dear"

Looking around I realize that I've done zero work today, just spent the day talking to you.

"Well believe it or not it's getting towards dinner, then a bath and bed for me"

 

[JonathanBair]

No i had no clue about that.

I smile hearing you say it is getting near dinner time... I smile and ask "Would you like my to hold you with your back pressing into me as you cook?"

 

[Becaa57]

"Time for you doesn't matter anymore does it?"
"Do you ever sleep?"

"Would you like my to hold you with your back pressing into me as you cook?"

"That would be different but fun. I do like when you hold me""
"Besides not cooking cooking more reheating something"
"I'm not terribly hungry, but I know I can get hangry if I skip meals"

"Are you still planning on seeing your Indian friend?"

 

[JonathanBair]

I shake my head no, as you ask "Time for you doesn't matter anymore does it?".. I say for me time had no meaning, a second might as well been a year till you moved in. Otherwise no time means nothing to me other then when I get to be in contact with you where I feel fulfilled I think the right word would me....

When you ask "Do you ever sleep?" I just smile and shake my head no.

When you say "That would be different but fun. I do like when you hold me" you can see the joy on my face as it really makes me happy.

When you say "Besides not cooking cooking more reheating something" I just have that giant smile on my face and shrug... Then you say "I'm not terribly hungry, but I know I can get hangry if I skip meals".. I smile and say "How about you go find what you want to eat, then as you cook or re-heat what you want I can hold you. Would you be willing to sit on my lap as you eat, or would that be to crazy?

When you ask "Are you still planning on seeing your Indian friend?". I shrug and say "Some time, when you want you space like when you take your bath and want some privacy. I do not want to leave you if I can be touching you. I do not know what it is about you, but I am just drawn to you. Like gravity no longer holds me but now you do.

 

[Becaa57]

"Time for you doesn't matter anymore does it?"..
I say for me time had no meaning, a second might as well been a year till you moved in. Otherwise no time means nothing to me other then when I get to be in contact with you where I feel fulfilled I think the right word would me....

"Ok I don't know if I could live like that, doesn't drive you crazy or are you used to it now?"

"How about you go find what you want to eat, then as you cook or re-heat what you want I can hold you. Would you be willing to sit on my lap as you eat, or would that be to crazy?
"Wont I fall though to the chair if I sit on you? Can you be that solid???"

Wondering if more then his fingers can go into me!

Would you be willing to sit on my lap as you eat, or would that be to crazy?
"That would be too weird, sorry honey"

Are you still planning on seeing your Indian friend?". I shrug and say "Some time, when you want you space like when you take your bath and want some privacy. I do not want to leave you if I can be touching you. I do not know what it is about you, but I am just drawn to you. Like gravity no longer holds me but now you do.

"Ok, I think I still want that tonight. I'm sorry I know you like watching and joining"

"Will you let me know when you get back? Even if I'm in bed"

 

[JonathanBair]

When you ask "Ok I don't know if I could live like that, doesn't drive you crazy or are you used to it now?", I just shrug and say time has no meaning, as there was nothing I looked foreword to. For me it is not like where you gotta eat, sleep, go to the bathroom. I could sit still looking at the lake for a blink of a eye or sit out there till the lake freezes over, tho it is kinda funny to see folks go out there to ice fish. I wish I would have learned that while I was alive... There was a few time I though about going down there and watch someone do it....

I smile and say If I am wanting to be solid, I am as solid as you, otherwise I will give like the air in this room. Same if I want to be visible or not. If you are going to be close to me like sitting on my lap or cuddling up to sleep with me. I will want to be solid to hold you. No my love you will not fall threw me as I would be in heaven and never want that moment to end getting to hold you like that. Tho I know for you time dose matter so you will want or need to get up. Just like how we can sit here holding hands as we talk like this *my head gestures to are hands on the table*

When you say "Will you let me know when you get back? Even if I'm in bed" *my face is flat tone, where the joy that was on it is now gone* I shake my head and say if you are in bed, and you want the night to your self. No I will respect your wish and not be in the rooms with you then. *shrugs* I want to honor your wishes as I want to make this crazy thing work with us how ever we make it work...

 

[Becaa57]

I put my dinner in the microwave and start warming it
"Ok, sitting down"
I sit on you and happy you do hold me, outside of the fact your room temparture feels natureal

"Put your arms around me honey"

Leaning against your chest not saying anything as we watch the microwave count down
A couple minutes and it dings

I get up, take my plate and sit down with some water to eat.

When you respond to my asking you to let me know when you're back
Makes me a bit angry

shake my head and say if you are in bed, and you want the night to your self. No I will respect your wish and not be in the rooms with you then. *shrugs* I want to honor your wishes as I want to make this crazy thing work with us how ever we make it work...

"No Jon!!! I'm not saying slide into bed without me knowing it!! Just say I'm home or something like that!!"
"I wouldn't ask you to do that if I didn't want you too. It's different then giving me space to bath and sleep alone tonight!!"

 

[JonathanBair]

I git a big smile on my face as I hear your going to take me up on my offer to sit on my lap... Soon as your body comes to rest my hands fold in your lap holding you in a very lose so you got room to move to eat, while still in a loving/protective embrace. Till you show signs up wanting to get up then I move my hands so you can move freely...

When you tell clear up the misunderstanding I say "Ok will let you know I am back if you are awake, but I will not wake you just to let you know I am home when I get back.....If you are sleeping I care about you and want to let you keep sleeping as your body needs it...I am really glad we got that cleared up."

 

[Becaa57]

It is very different sitting on his lap, but I guess 200+ years since a woman has. So glad he enjoys it

"Ok will let you know I am back if you are awake, but I will not wake you just to let you know I am home when I get back.....If you are sleeping I care about you and want to let you keep sleeping as your body needs it...I am really glad we got that cleared up."

"Ok, that will work, to be honest I have a feeling I'm not going to sleep well, but I kind of have to find out you know what I mean?"

 

[JonathanBair]

I say "If you want, I can try and keep the visit there short.... I really much that have you in my arms then to be anywhere in time or space, this house was home but it seams now you are home to me...... My lap is always open for you to sit on and I am always glad to feel you lean into me."

(Edit add if seen) I say "If you want me to stay and not go. I would be glad as I do not really need to go, we can find this out are selfs. Sweetie, there is no need for you to be stressed about me being gone. I mean the Indian's area has been there for over 200 years, and I never went there so it is not like I gotta go. If I have a option of you in my arms or being there."

 

[Becaa57]

"No! I don't want to be one of those girlfriends. Spend some time with them. You've a connection with them I'll never have. You've already said you don't track time, so how will you know if it's short? You maybe back 5 minutes after you leave, or 5 days I guess."

"We are in this together, and I want to research for a logical reason why"

"He is older, has seen more maybe heard more. I don't know. But I want you to feel free to leave when you can, just as I will leave when I need to for some reason. I don't want either of us feeling like we can't go somewhere"

 

[JonathanBair]

Girlfriend, I like that and hearing that makes me very happy... As far as the Indians, I am not sure if the ones I knew in life would be there or not, as I never went there. I am not sure if I would be allowed there now in the afterlife....And yes it is not like I carry a watch with me any more, but I am not blind, I can see the sun setting and the moon with the stars replacing the sun and the blue sky. *lets out a deep laugh* but yes for most ghost day to day time has no meaning as are time is endless. In this case say if I knew you wanted to cuddle at night, I can keep a eye on the sun to come back here. Also I see if you want me to stay as the same as I want you in a dress, as you do that for me I would be glad to stick around the house for you. I mean I have stuck around here for all this time alone, now I got someone to share my time with here. So please my love do not feel bad asking me to be back say around sunset or something like that.

I nod in agreement as you say we are in this together.

I understand my love, as I said before, me wanting to be here for you is not keeping me held back or anything. If I could I would be touching you all the time, but I know we do need some time to are selfs. *I smile and say* My love, when we sit holding hands, or you in my lap or cuddling with me at night. I feel like I have gone to heaven, Just know that is how important you are to me.

 

[Becaa57]

Girlfriend, I like that and hearing that makes me very happy... As far as the Indians, I am not sure if the ones I knew in life would be there or not, as I never went there. I am not sure if I would be allowed there now in the afterlife....And yes it is not like I carry a watch with me any more, but I am not blind, I can see the sun setting and the moon with the stars replacing the sun and the blue sky. *lets out a deep laugh* but yes for most ghost day to day time has no meaning as are time is endless. In this case say if I knew you wanted to cuddle at night, I can keep a eye on the sun to come back here. Also I see if you want me to stay as the same as I want you in a dress, as you do that for me I would be glad to stick around the house for you. I mean I have stuck around here for all this time alone, now I got someone to share my time with here. So please my love do not feel bad asking me to be back say around sunset or something like that.

"At one point I may ask you to be back at sundown or before the morning light. But this is in a way a test for me, more then you. Stay as long as you want, if I'm sound asleep, then don't wake me. I'm still a bit confused about things, but want to be clear too"

"We can do more cuddling tomorrow, or the day after you get back"
"I do ask, that you don't stay away for days"

 

[JonathanBair]

I will be back by the sun down my love. I do not think I could stay away from you, but now sit on my lap and eat please my love. Then you can take a bath, and I can go see if I am allowed over there... If the Indian's have any clue to what we are are working threw together.

 

[Becaa57]

"Ok, I'm a bit confused on the Indians, I thought you knew them and had visited before?"
"Do you ever see any other ghosts?"

"I'll run my bath after you leave, if you want to talk more"

 

[JonathanBair]

I say I know a few that came into town to trade. That is like 2 or 3 of the tribe of 100 or so at the time. We all knew of them, as all threw the nation at the time the subject of Indian and White peoples interaction was very up in the air. Some nations waged war as there land was being miss-used by whites wanting get gold. While others nations like in the grate lakes area was based on trade of hides so the conflict was not there.

No I never went to there land, alive or dead, just know the few that came to town and know of them as we all had to know of them.

I git a bit smile on my face while saying "I could talk to you till the end of time, if your bath is going to wait till I do not want to talk more. Well you may never have one in your life time. *I let out a laugh* I then say "How I want you is like you wanting to breath my love. As much as this connection make me question everything I knew about the afterlife, you are my little peace of heaven. *I kiss your lips quickly for a second*. I say " I will go and see if I am even welcome there, and if they know anything about this as they have different views of spirits then us whites do. I do not know how long I will be gone, other then I will be back before night time.

You know I like being with you when you lay still and relax, be it in the bath or say on the couch or bed.....When you are happy or peaceful that makes me happy.

 

[Becaa57]

"I hope they welcome you, I would think ghosts get lonely too??? I don't know. You seem to have feelings, but is it only for me, and the biggest question is what is it about me that connects us!!!"

I watch as you get up and walk out, assuming you are gone. I know you don't need to open the door.
But the house feels emptier somehow. Which makes me think. Did I sense him when I walked through it?

After my lonely bath. I get onto my computer and then ancestry.
Knowing his name and approximate date of birth and death I locate him. Then it's a matter of connecting the dots.

His daughter did marry and had 4 children, 2 boys, 2 girls. who also married and had children.

After several hours, I've connected the dots from me to him.

"Good God, he's my 6 time removed Grandfather on the female side"

I look around, but I know by how the house feels, he's not back yet.

I hope he finds some information from the Indians

Crawling into bed, laying there waiting for him

 

[JonathanBair]

The sun is starting to set and I do come home. I move threw the house as a invisible phantom... I get into door way of what was my bedroom, that is now your bedroom when I see you...... My eyes look over your body and then to your face to see if you are awake... I become visible but still phantom as I do not plan on us touching if you stay in the bed........ My mind is racing as I thing hard.....

 

[Becaa57]

"How was your night???"
"I felt you come into the house"

"Come in and talk to me if you want"

 

[JonathanBair]

I ask "Will you do me a favor, bring me the painting of me and set it in the library then come and join me? I do want to talk, but I most importantly want to hear your thoughts....."

 

[Becaa57]

"Of course dear"

I get up and take the picture I'd found in the attic bringing it into the library, I place it on the mantel

Then sitting in one of the reading chairs. I wait for you to materilize. While I can sense you close it still weird to talk when your invisible

"How was your visit the Indians?"

 

[JonathanBair]

I come into the room in his natural state, only changing it from phantom to solid as I was about to sit in the chair. The chair shows signs of his mass sitting on it then a second I become visible.... I smiles looking at the painting of him sitting in the chair in this very spot in the room. Only my back ground is different.... I say "Very unhelpful the spirits do not look at there family as lovers. So they have no words of guidance from there people, living or dead......"

I take a deep breath and look around the room, then ask "Would you like to sit on my lap and be held? I would love to hear your thoughts about the first time you seen the painting, and talk about it. Well about me and the time back then."