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[UnseenChagrin]

Hi everyone Just letting you know I'm still alive. Stressin about some things, but overall doing really well.

I met someone, unfortunately I got the "we're just gonna be friends because my life is too unstable" talk. I'm not giving up yet though.

There's a gentlemen at the faire that does leatherworking, mostly making boots and whatnot, that is going to make me a custom designed corset. In trade I'm going to do some modeling for him- he does fantasy/fairy drawings as well. I'm psyched. I'm going to be a fairy!

Alright, I need to get going. Hope everyone's doing well!

 

[Modern Mephisto]

I met someone, unfortunately I got the "we're just gonna be friends because my life is too unstable" talk.

Are you serious? My life could be complete chaos but I'd still want you in it!

Hopefully he'll come around. If he has half a brain, I'm sure he will.

 

[UnseenChagrin]

Are you serious? My life could be complete chaos but I'd still want you in it!

Hopefully he'll come around. If he has half a brain, I'm sure he will.

Thanks. I'm actually really torn up about the whole situation, even though I know I don't know him well. I feel like I'm being really dumb about it, but it's not like I can control how I feel.

He did just email me. We were supposed to go to a party tonight but he had to let me know he won't be able to go and I'll have to tell him all about it. Feh.

 

[weekender]

Thanks. I'm actually really torn up about the whole situation, even though I know I don't know him well. I feel like I'm being really dumb about it, but it's not like I can control how I feel.

He did just email me. We were supposed to go to a party tonight but he had to let me know he won't be able to go and I'll have to tell him all about it. Feh.

Well sorry to hear that and the way I see it...he doesn't deserve someone as sweet as you in his life anyway....chin up sweetie...there are always others.

 

[Modern Mephisto]

Thanks. I'm actually really torn up about the whole situation, even though I know I don't know him well. I feel like I'm being really dumb about it, but it's not like I can control how I feel.

He did just email me. We were supposed to go to a party tonight but he had to let me know he won't be able to go and I'll have to tell him all about it. Feh.

Trust me, I know all about being interested in someone but not having them feel the same way, or feeling that you're getting the runaround. All those emotional entanglements that are silly, but frustrating all the same. In your case, however, I think he'd be a complete fool not to pursue you with all his heart. You know, unless he's just surrounded by smart, sexy, creative women. And if that's the case...maybe you can ask him to send one or two of them my way? Heh.

 

[UnseenChagrin]

what really sucks is that I honestly have not felt this strongly about ANYONE since Jason... him and I broke up 4 years ago. I would seriously think about moving to Cleveland if "he" asked me to. I know it's impulsive, but it's just how I am. It's not like I have any solid plans in my life anyway.

But we'll see. I'm sure I'm wasting my time and I'm only making things worse for myself, but the Off-switch is broken.

Unfortunately he's one of the performers at the faire and his incredibly good looking, funny, smart, built, talented, etc. So of course all the women (and a few men, heh) want him. I'm told by everyone that when they see how he looks at me it's obvious he's very interested. I'm sure he's been burned badly in the past. I don't care if he is busy, I just want to see as much of him as I can. Apparently he doesn't operate on that same belief.

 

[Modern Mephisto]

Entirely his loss, I'm sure.

(Why don't sweet, smart, sexy women ever fall for me and offer to impulsively uproot their lives just to be near me? *sigh* Damn all those good looking, talented, built... *grumbles*)

 

[Bigbrent]

Hey there cutie,
Just wanted to drop by and say hello. its been forever since I been back here to check in on ya. Dont know if this will help at all with the things your stressin about right now but it helps me to think that although I dont like how things turn out sometimes... I know that everything does happen for a reason. Sometimes the timing is just not right for things to fall into place quite yet. Plus no worries babe, your too sweet and intelligent for things to not work out for ya. I think everyone who keeps up on this thread will surely attest to that. Just keep pluggin away and you'll be on cloud 9 before you know it )
Have a great day

 

[UnseenChagrin]

Well I suppose it's time for an update on the situation. Reading back through my posts, I realized how entirely like a soap opera my life is. I see now why you all keep up on it- it changes by the minute. As soon as I write one thing, something else is bound to happen. I wonder if my whole life is going to be like this...

Wow, this might be a long one. Here goes.

1) At the moment I'm in New Hampshire at my friend's- his dad is doing brake work for me. It was supposed to be done yesterday morning except the shoes he got wouldn't fit with the drums so we had to wait until today for the parts to come in. And then of course, he only has the driver's side front brake to go and guess what- needs a new rotor. So hopefully he can get ahold of the right one today because I need to go to Vermont and pick up my stuff and then head on home. Planning on staying in New York (sorry Morgan, not NYC) with family tonight.

2) Tomorrow I'll head back to Ohio where I've pretty much been staying. I didn't give up on my performer, however I did come to my senses about the situation and decided that I'm not going to sit around and wait for him. In fact, someone much better came along. His name's John and I'm really happy with him. Unfortunately, he's leaving in a few weeks so I'm not entirely sure what's happening with that. I guess I would have to say we're friends with benefits, since dating would entail that we'd be moving towards a relationship and I'm pretty sure that's not what he's after. I don't know for sure, because we haven't had that conversation yet. I'll let you know.

3) The thing with John is also interesting because he was intitially dating a friend of mine. However, she has this tendency to embellish things and he realized after a couple weeks (they only spent weekends together so it's not like they were engaged) that she just wasn't the one he wanted. Sooooo now he and I are together and I told her upfront about it as soon as we knew what was happening. Needless to say, she's not really talking to me at the moment.

4) I'm thinking about coming back to Vermont to work for the winter, but I need to go in and talk to the people at the ski shop to see what they're willing to offer me. I've basically been told by the Inn that I have the Event Manager position, however they've decided to hold off on hiring on it until January. They did say they'd be willing to hire me as a hostess or something in the events department so I can get to know how things work before January (basically telling me I have the job?) but I think I would enjoy myself one more winter partying it up here with friends. Or elsewhere... Who knows. I'm sure it'll all change next week.

5) I should be posting some pics sooner than later, now that I'll have my adapter for my digital camera. Just have to take the pics and all. We'll see what happens and when I get inspired enough to do it.


Hope everyone's having a wonderful summer, and thanks so much for all your sweet thoughts and words.

 

[MorganKelly666]

Planning on staying in New York (sorry Morgan, not NYC) with family tonight.

...d'oh...oh well...here's to hoping that eventually it is NYC

Good luck with everything else

 

[geeisdaman]

Just saying hello!!

I have reviewed all your pages and think you are a beautiful lady, and I hope that you have a wonderful weekend. Everything happens for a reason.

 

[shavedballs]

thanks for the update

well that is not good about the performer or the john guy. I just hope you are happy and have a smile on your face. I also wish you were making that trip to chicago. LOL

well thank you for the update I do wonder how you are and if things are going well for you.

Do not be such a stranger.

and can not wait for the pics LOL I will be happy to give you some insiration. LOL

 

[UnseenChagrin]

hey-
just stoppin in. I'm still alive. Running around Ohio like it's my job, but other than that I'm doing really well. When I get un-lazy I'll be posting pics again... I finally went back to VT and grabbed the connector for my camera.



much love guys

 

[ed0971]

can't wait to see new pic's looking foward to seeing them

 

[julianlt]

hey-
just stoppin in. I'm still alive. Running around Ohio like it's my job, but other than that I'm doing really well. When I get un-lazy I'll be posting pics again... I finally went back to VT and grabbed the connector for my camera.



much love guys

Hey sweety !
Glad to hear news from you and that you are doing well.
I'm looking forward to see you back on lit

kind regards

 

[shavedballs]

Hey

DO NOT WAIT so long baby. I want to hear from you more often so I know that you are good. I hope you are having a great time in OHIO. I hope your love life is going better.

Miss you baby.

 

[UnseenChagrin]

Hey guys!!

So last night I had a very interesting time with my boyfriend. Yesterday Lisa and I went shopping and since I didn't have a catholic school girl's uniform yet, I figured I would buy one. Johnny LOVES pink, so I went with as much pink as I could get. He also loves panties, so I went with the most innocent plain white pair I could find.

Then I decided I wanted him to endure me going out in public with it. So we went to a couple bars. We ended up playing pool most of the night, and I had quite a few of the guys we played against frazzled (as well as a good portion of them in the bar drooling apparently). One of them, Kevin, was very awesome and gave us a tip about another bar. So we went there and played some more pool, had some more drinks.

Last call comes around...and Kevin had his motorcycle. I've never been on one and have always wanted to. We went for a ride (I believe we topped at 85/90 mph). It was amazing. Just a fucking wild ride. I can't wait to do another.

I figured you would all be interested in seeing some new pics, and these were originally going to be done at a playground, but it was late and the bike just felt so good between my legs that this next series is what you're getting....

Enjoy!

 

[UnseenChagrin]

Ok so I'm drunk, but the bike still feels good between my thighs.

 

[UnseenChagrin]

Showin a lil leg...

 

[UnseenChagrin]

Note the beautiful paintjob of the bike...

 

[UnseenChagrin]

Look it's drunkgirl again!

 

[UnseenChagrin]

Panty shot.

 

[Modern Mephisto]

Note the beautiful paintjob of the bike...

Pft. As if anyone is actually looking at the bike... Heh.

 

[UnseenChagrin]

Panty shot from behind.

 

[UnseenChagrin]

Kevin gettin a lil action.