Looking for slave advice.

[satindesire]

What I'm automatically objecting to here is him implying that because of this hard limit of yours, you cannot give him your full trust and slavery.

Limits do not limit a slave from being a slave. Does that make sense? Just because a person can't do one TINY fraction of a facet of a percent of the things they -could- do for their master, does NOT make them 'less than' a slave.

This is a hard limit for a reason, for you. Sexual trauma can change a person's attitude about sex for the rest of their life, color their entire attitude about their sexuality. You are balking at this because your inner gut -instincts- are giving you that 'fight or flight' fear that stems from our hindbrain monkey desire to survive. If you ignore your instinct to not go through with sleeping with other men just to please him, you might end up snapping, mentally. I've heard of it happening before, this isn't some kind of 'what if' scenario.

People have these instincts for a reason, these gut feelings that something is bad. Him using threats and implying that you aren't good enough or enough of a perfect slave because you're PRESERVING YOUR SANITY is -disgusting- to me. If he's really been in the 'lifestyle' for ten years, he should damn well know better than this.

If you break your toys, you can't play with them anymore. He's pushing you towards something that very well might break you FOREVER.

Do you think he's worth risking your mental health for?

Edited to add:

Ask yourself that last question honestly. Forget the butterflies. Forget the hours of talking on the phone, and that first rush of sub frenzy. Do you think he's worth risking your mental health for? Because if you can't honestly answer "yes"...you know what you need to do.

 

[Babyslave]

Hello all

Just wanted to pop in and say hello to everyone who took time to share their thoughts and opinions with me.

I took some time for myself alone, and for even more time with Master. Then I got myself injured. Sprained my shoulder. An accident, it had nothing to do with any of this, just lifted something the wrong way, at the wrong angle and... CRUNCH! Had ro wear a sling for a while, and typing was literally too much of a pain.

While not typing, I spent much time here, reading, learning, taking so much in. So much caring of each other. So many friendships made. Not all I read was sunshine and lollipops. Even those with much umm, experience have suffered. That makes me appreciate your opinions even more.

Status of this woman at the moment? We're (He and I) are in a good place. We've worked out much and I'm feeling more settled, more sure, and more confident. Also not always sunshine and lollipops, but I wouldn't expect it would be. Need and desire wars with work and current other relationships (friends, family). But I now can Enjoy the time we spend together. He understands me so well, and I'm getting to see more of who he is, as well.

Time will tell, but I no longer fear for myself, for my sanity, for the thought that something I can't do may happen. We'll be okay, I'll be okay. Together. This really is a partnership. I didn't understand that. He 'owns' me, yes. Body and mind. What I didn't realize is that I 'own' a part of him too. Mindblowing stuff this is.

Best to you all, and thanks once again. I hope to post again, somewhere on this board, and continue my budding friendships with those that have reached out here, and with their PM's.

xxx

Babyslave